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Thursday. 5.1.08 6:19 pm
Isn't it funny how your mood is what solely affects the contents of a blog? If you're feeling down, angry or apathetic, that's how the blog is going to come off as. If you're happy and energetic, that's how the blog is going to come out as.

See, the reason I bring it up is because I had an entry in mind that I had started formulating at work, but then my mood changed and I forgot what I was going to write. The only thing I remember was the title. Which, if I can think of a good enough entry, might use for a future blog.

Anywho, I still keep getting random pangs in my stomach. Sometimes it's just cramps, other times it feels like I'm going to be sick. Originally I thought it was because I wasn't eating very much, or at all, but it was still happening after I had eaten. Then I thought, maybe it was what I had eaten, but that couldn't be it either; what I had eaten wasn't varied from my usual 'diet.'

It sucks feeling sick to my stomach all of a sudden. It makes eating rather difficult. One minute I'm hungry, the next I feel like puking. It's one of the more annoying ailments to deal with.

I have to feed Lotus. She's getting twitchy.

Blah! I wanted to drink with Jake tonight, but I have to work in the morning and if I go over there, one of us would have to drive me home before morning. As much as I enjoy getting money, I wish I could just say screw it. I've been wanting to drink for the last few days, but because of work, I haven't.

I will be drinking this weekend, though. Even if I have to work Sunday, I will be consuming alcohol. Believe me, I'm looking forward to it.

Alrighty I think that's it for today. I never did write that hand-written entry. Maybe I'll go do that now.

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as the headache continues
Wednesday. 4.30.08 5:36 pm
I've said it before and I'ma say it again. I'm sick of living with my family.

It seems the more invovled I get with Jacob, the less my family and I get along. I can't seem to do right by them anymore.

Take today, for example. I wasn't supposed to work today, but Monica asked me to go in. So I did. It meant not being able to sleep in and spend more time with Jake, but it meant money. Something I am in desperate need of.

So I went in, worked my shift and when I get off, ma was just getting there. I got in the car, she asked when Jake would be coming over and when I told her later tonight, she suddenly got pissed.

Apparently, since I was supposed to be off today, Steve made plans for after work since he would have the car. Well, with me needing a ride home, ma had to take the car. Steve had to cancel his plans.

This was somehow my fault.

Forgive me for taking an extra shift so that I would be able to get an extra $30 on my next paycheck. Forgive me for being a lazy, pain in the ass who would rather go home in a car than walk in the heat. Next time, take the fucking car. I'll find my way home.

*sigh* I have to stop before it turns into more of a rant.

Anywho, the stress is starting to build up. As of late, my headaches are more prominant than usual. I really should get it looked at, but I don't for two reasons. One, I can't afford to go to the doctor {the main reason I haven't gone to any doctor} and two, because honestly, I'm afraid of what kind of diagnosis would be in store for me.

Blah! I'm done writing for today. I'm just not feeling it anymore.

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Tuesday. 4.29.08 1:39 pm
Holy wow I've got quite a bit to do today. Some of it I've already taken care of though. Which is good since the day is already half over.

I only got a couple hours of sleep last night. I was pretty upset and even though I was tired, I just couldn't get comfortable enough to sleep. Eventually I just passed out from emotional exhaustion. I'm doing a little better now. Then again, I'm alone in the house. No family to deal with.

I got to work, had to deal with the annoying truck {which they can never seem to pack properly} and then had to deal with floor work. Not something I was planning on. I was hoping to be back in the warehouse pricing stuff, but Monica had me out working on one of the most annoying pallets. I had to unnest 4 sets of suitcases and put them up on the risers. I definitely got my weight lifting and stair climbing in today.

Then I had to deal with running the register for Monica because we were short handed this morning. I was happier being there than at home, though.

When I got home from work, I had to take ma to her work and then I went over to the store to get a few things. Something for me to eat this afternoon being one of them.

Now what I have to do is clean my room, do the dishes, pick Steve up from work and shower at some point. I also have to call my boss, if she doesn't call me first, to make sure I'm not working tomorrow. She asked me to come in at 4 tomorrow morning, but I'd already made plans for tonight {and actually tomorrow also.} So instead of completely refusing, I told her that I couldn't do 4; that the earliest I could go in was 6. I figured if she did needs me to work, I could postpone the plans for another day. I haven't heard from her yet so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I still get the day off tomorrow.

Anywho, apparently a fiasco of tornadoes hit the county that my aunt lives in. Tornadoes are not normally in Virginia so it was a little odd hearing about it. My mom used my phone this morning to call her to make sure she was alright and left a message when she got the voicemail. Well, my aunt called back and they're doing just fine. One of the larger tornadoes touched down less than 2 miles from her house, but luckily it steered clear.

Hmm. I had something else to write about, but I forget. Oh well. I shall write again either later or tomorrow.

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holy emo moment batman!
Tuesday. 4.29.08 12:01 am
All I can do is wait for it to pass.

Until then, one can only hope it doesn't worsen.

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Monday. 4.28.08 9:18 am
I seem to use "meh" for the title more often than not. I try to vary between blah and meh, but meh seems to win.

I had a good day yesterday ... until the very end.

After I finished yesterday's entry, I was just browsing NuTang, waiting for 1 o'clock to come so Jake could pick me up. 12:40pm, he texts me asking me what I'm up to, I tell him and ask him what he's up to. He texts back "at your house." I think to myself 'what happened to no texting while driving?'

It turns out since he and his ma were already towards this part of town, they just stopped over early to get me. It was a nice surprise, but I didn't want to keep his mom waiting out in the car, so I sort of rushed getting dressed.

When we get back to his house, I help them bring in the groceries. She bought a Margarita mixer. We were going to drink last night because I didn't have to work today, but we had to keep the mix stuff {once mixed with the alcohol} in the freezer for 24 hours. So I don't get any.

The three of us headed out to Red Rock at quarter till 4 cuz the movie was at 4:15. Since Jake refuses to go see a 'chick flick,' I went and saw Baby Mama with his mom. She wanted to see it, I wanted to see it, it worked. Jake saw Forbidden Kingdom while his mom and I were in the theater. I want to see that one too, but I was sort of already obligated to see the movie with his mom. Oh well.

Baby Mama was actually a pretty good movie. The end was typical and expected, but it was still good.

I have no plans for today. Just to bring ma to work and pick Steve up from his. Jake and I were going to go see a movie this morning before he had to work, but he has to go in two hours early and the only showing before 2pm is a little too close to when he has to be there. I don't want to be rushed. So we're just gonna go another time.

I kinda want to go see Jake up at his work, but I'm not sure how that would work. The timing just isn't right with the rest of the schedules. It's a little lame cuz I was hoping to be with him for at least part of the day, but I get to see him tomorrow so it works.

Uhm, I still have stuff to write about, but it's not for this blog. This entry is done for today.

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holy wow I'm tired
Sunday. 4.27.08 12:27 pm
Alright, let's see. I've been up since 9:30am yesterday morning. I went over to Jake's yesterday afternoon, had a fun day and came home at 1am. I had to be at work at 3am.

I worked my scheduled shift and was asked to stay an hour later. So I did.

If I had come home at 10am, like planned, I would have layed down. But since I didn't get home until 11:30am, I just took a shower instead.

I felt so incredibly tired for the whole first half of my shift. I had a taquito for "lunch" {which was at 7am} and about half an hour later, I started to feel a little more awake.

I'm not sure if it was the food that was waking me up or if it was the fact that I was just waking up on my own or if I was simply so beyond tired that I didn't feel it anymore. Either way, I was more awake than I had been the whole first part of my shift.

I've showered and am now sitting in front of the comp. Oddly enough, I'm not feeling tired yet. At least I'm not having trouble keeping my eyes open. Something that usually happens even if I have a ton of energy when I get home; once I've sat down, my energy level just drops to nothing. I'm just waiting for it.

So bascially I've been up for 27 hours straight. I took about a half hour nap at Jake's and a half hour nap here yesterday, but I don't count that as sleeping.

I'll most likely just collapse tonight {since I've got plans for the remainder of the day.}

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