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Decision time.
Wednesday. 10.1.14 7:08 pm
I have a few more days before I have to officially decide to take the position. I'm 90% sure that I want it. I may even send an email tomorrow before I get off work saying that I want it and ask what I need to do in order to put things in motion. I only saw a little bit of what's involved today, but I really feel like this is something that would be good for my life right now. This is the change I've been needing.

Tomorrow is my Friday {finally!!!} and I'm pretty damn excited that it's finally here. I have plans after work tomorrow with a friend I haven't seen in a few months. We're going to the zoo. I've never been so it should be fun. This isn't just any zoo trip, however. It involves beer.

Then actual Friday is going to be the busiest of the days. I have a mani/pedi scheduled with my friend. After that I'll be picking up my birthday cake, courtesy of my favorite local coffee shop owner/friend. Once I bring that delicious sucker home, my friend and I will be getting together with a small group of people and going to a pumpkin beer festival. I won't be partaking in the drinking of alcoholic beverages for this one as the tickets for that have already sold out. In order to participate in the festivities, I will be going as a designated driver.

The plans for Saturday have begun to waiver, which is okay with me. I have a back up plan. I'm supposed to be finding out before bed tonight what the plan is for Saturday. Granted, both the original and back up plans are for the evening; laundry is the only thing I have planned during the day.

Sunday {the actual date of my birth} I have nothing planned in the morning. I'm seriously considering going out shortly after I get up and going to a coffee shop Iv'e never been to {which leaves a lot of options since I don't drink coffee} and enjoying the crisp Seattle autumn air. I have dinner plans with my friend and who knows what in between and after.

Monday I'm getting together with another friend, whom I've not seen in months, for lunch. Not sure what I'm going to do after; probably just come home and relax before I have to go back to work Tuesday.

So I've got at least something going on every day of my birthday weekend. I'm certainly in the process of making due with what I've got.

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Drive and walk.
Tuesday. 9.30.14 6:34 pm
I went for a drive today so that I could exchange out the industrial bars that I bought that were too long for my ear. I bought a 2g tapers/plugs set and a 4g wood earring that's kind of a cool design. I'm not sure how often I'm going to wear them since I'll be gauging up my holes again, but I'll get in at least a few wears this month. As much as I want to go up a size, I'll wait until next month.

On the way home, Google alerted me that there was an accident on the freeway, and it was going to take me over an hour to get home. Probably longer since that's just kind of a rough guesstimate. So I took to the streets and jumped on a state road that would take me home. I detoured at my usual spot and took to my regular route that I take when I'm on the streets. At the last minute I decided to just take the regular way home, rather than push my emotional luck and take an alternative way.

I left my car at the park and took a walk to the cemetery. I wandered around there for probably the better part of an hour. The Lee's are buried there {Bruce and Brandon.} It's amazing how many people leave flowers for them. It was very nice to see that people respect the inscription on Brandon's stone. All of the flowers were arranged around it. I took pictures of some of the ones that fascinated me more; the ones that simply caught my attention. I excused myself as I walked around the stones embedded in the ground and wished peace on everyone as I left. It was a very pleasant, much needed walk.

Today is the final day in September and I'm thankful that tomorrow is the start of a new month. October has always been my favorite month.

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Wait a minute. . .
Monday. 9.29.14 3:46 pm
Have you ever had the plan to do something and right as you were about to go through with it, something told you to stop? Not necessarily stopping you completely, but just in that moment?

I was fully prepared to call and get set up with a new therapist, but something told me to wait. I still plan on calling, but I'm not going to do so until next week. I have no idea what told me to wait, but I'm going with it.

I'm not sure exactly how I have so many popularity points at the moment. I'm like, 16,000 points ahead of the person in 2nd place. Who on earth is looking at my blog that often? Is someone reading every single blog entry that I've ever written, ever? It's gotta be close to 1500 at this point, over the last several years. And that's even without the nearly 2 years of blogs that I deleted because I forgot how to access my passwords. I'm certainly okay with whoever is reading this, because obviously I'd make it password protected if I wasn't, but it's a bit mind boggling just how quickly the points have added up.

There hasn't been any improvement on my health at all today. In fact, I was actually feeling a bit worse this morning. I was almost afraid I'd puke again, but luckily the coughing fit subsided before that happened. I think I would have stopped it anyway since it happened while I was driving. I have a few more days before I need to be better. I guess as long as I take it easy at work, I should be okay. Tuesday and Wednesdays are now both my least favorite days of the week. I need them to go by as quickly as possible.

Taking a nap right now would probably be a bad idea if I didn't have Tylenol that I plan on taking before I go to bed. So here's to getting rest and hoping my immune system appreciates it.

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57 hours
Sunday. 9.28.14 2:47 pm
That's about how much time is left in the month of September {for those of us in the Pacific Time Zone} and yes, I'm keeping track. I want to know exactly how many hours are left that could potentially add to the already long list of shit I've had to deal with thus far this month. September can seriously go fuck itself.

I still feel like crap, but my appetite has returned, which is a sure sign that I'm getting better. I haven't puked since yesterday morning so that's also a plus. I'm hoping my current diet of chicken nuggets and ding dongs will still aid in my weight dropping. I get it's not the best of diets, but that's all I've got in the house right now. That and a new bottle of Tylenol severe cold. It helps keep me from waking up in a coughing fit.

I have an appointment after work on Wednesday so fingers crossed that it goes well. I don't really want to give away too many details on the off chance that it turns out to be highly disappointing. I'm going in with low expectations. I'd rather not gush about it and then have it turn in to nothing. It's still September; still 57 hours left to jinx myself.

Plans for this coming weekend are very slowly starting to take shape. I have absolutely no idea what they were supposed to have been, but I guess it's for the better. I can't be disappointed if I didn't know what I was supposed to be doing. However, this is teaching me not to have high expectations when planning for a situation.

Life has a funny way of teaching you things.

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Coincidence? Probably.
Saturday. 9.27.14 2:42 pm
My ribs hurt today. I woke up with another coughing fit that resulted in vomiting. I have no idea where I got this from, but it sucks. At least I can talk again today. It's ridiculously obvious that I'm still sick, but I can speak again. I'll probably go to work tomorrow. Not much is required of me on Sundays. With my luck there will be a standby so the hardest part will be to stay awake. I might call off Monday if I'm not feeling any improvement.

When you over-analyze a situation, you tend to think things that aren't true. Most times it makes you think there's something going on that isn't. You create a coincidence in your head, or a variety of them, and you try to string them together in order to make yourself feel better. Or worse; whichever is the wanted outcome. I'm pretty sure I'm over thinking this, but I can't help but hold on to the idea that it's a really odd coincidence.

{Reading back over this months/years from now, I won't have any idea what I was talking about. Which is fine with me. Sometimes it's better that way.}

I'm thinking about getting back in to therapy. At least for a little while. It helped last time; there's no reason it wouldn't help this time so long as I allow the help. I've done a little bit of research and I have a place I'm going to call on Monday, when I get home from work {if I don't stay home sick} and see what I can do.

It's supposed to be sunny on my birthday. I'm not okay with that. A month ago, when the super extended forecast was out, it said it would be 59 and rainy. Now it's saying 70 and sunny. I want the old forecast to be true. I want it to get to the point where it's raining and cloudy for days on end and people start complaining about how it hasn't been sunny in over a week.

It'll also be really nice when we only get 8 hours of daylight. Maybe I should move to Alaska.

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Two for one
Friday. 9.26.14 8:16 pm
I was going to wait a few more days before blogging again, but this won't be long. I was just so damn proud of my last entry. I kind of want it to just stay on the home page.

I've caught some kind of vicious virus. It started out as just sinus pressure yesterday morning and by the time I went to bed, it was a full blown cold. I barely slept last night, despite the mountain of pillows and two doses of Tylenol severe cold. I've gone through a few rolls of toilet paper, because I don't have tissues, and I've puked twice now. Once this morning, which was a lovely way to 'wake up' and again about half an hour ago. Ever cough so hard you threw up?

I've also lost my voice. Which is gonna suck if I have to call off work Sunday. I can't talk so how am I supposed to relay a message to them that I can't work?

Thank you for ending my month in a miserable way. As if the rest of it wasn't fucked up enough already. The benefit to this? I'll probably lose a few pounds.

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