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Summer isn't over yet
Monday. 9.9.13 9:36 pm
It's supposed to be in the 80s all week, with it being near 90 on Wednesday. And here I was hoping that the super rainy, stormy weather we had last week was a sign that fall had come early. Apparently I got my hopes up too soon. Oh well. Fall will come, just not soon enough.

Today was the first day since I started working the other job that I really didn't want to go in. I had trouble sleeping last night and was tired all through my regular shift. I napped for an hour when I got home from work, before going to the other job, but it didn't seem to help. My crush wasn't there and I messed up on an order that I ended up having to scan twice. It was not the best of days. Hopefully tomorrow will amount to something better.

Until then. . .

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Apathy vs empathy
Sunday. 9.8.13 6:56 pm
I'm at the point, again, where figuring out the title is harder than figuring out the content. However, it can get a little easier once I start actually writing the entry for the day.

Work was uneventful, as every Sunday should be. We did have someone check in to UC who claimed to have had a psychotic break, but luckily he wasn't a harm to himself or others. He was just crazy. I'm fairly certain that, after some time, medical staff become apathetic to the conditions that come in, especially since we're just security staff and we feel that way toward most people who come in. There are a few circumstances where we feel empathetic toward the individual's issue, since we know exactly how they feel. Such as the guy with the migraine that came in today and didn't want to be bothered by listening to the rules of standing in line. I've gotten migraines that were pretty damn bad and I was probably more cranky than when I'm sleep deprived.

However, the tables get turned when it's someone in your own family that is experiencing issues that require medical attention. Funny how that works, huh?

I'll be working both jobs the next 4 days so the entries will be later in the evening. The content of each entry will probably be more interesting, or just as boring, when I work both jobs simply because the second job is still new enough that things are more interesting to talk about. My 3rd year with the regular job is coming up in a couple months and it's just become an involuntary action at this point. Sad, but I guess every job becomes that way after working at it for a while. You see the same things over and over and it becomes dull and boring. Even the busy days are mostly dull and boring.

Until tomorrow. . .

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Saturday. 9.7.13 9:38 pm
Uneventful as tonight was, it wasn't the best of nights. The manager was doing a lot of interviews so I didn't get to see him much and then he went home early so I didn't get to talk to him at all either. At least I worked with people who didn't bitch about their jobs, even if they didn't like them, so that helped keep the mood even enough. I only work my day job tomorrow then back to both through Thursday. Go figure, I haven't even started my regular week yet and I'm already tired.

This morning I didn't wake up on a very good note because there was a stupid bird chirping right outside my window and after about 15 minutes, I was ready to shoot the thing. It chirped right outside my window for at least an hour. I took a 3 hour nap between getting my laundry done and going to work because I had been up since 6am and didn't feel like being cranky from sleep deprivation. It worked, to some extent.

That's about it for tonight. Nothing really worthy of writing about happened today.

Until tomorrow. . .

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To be {scared} or not to be {scared}
Friday. 9.6.13 9:49 pm
My friend challenged me to actually speak my thoughts and tell my crush how I feel. I have one month to do so. If I don't say anything by the time I turn 27, I owe her lunch. If I do say something, she owes me birthday cupcakes. The only thing holding me back is the very real fact that it could affect our jobs. He can't lose his because it's what allows him to live the life he has. I can't lose mine until at least December because I deserve to be able to treat my family after not having seen them in the 3 years since I moved here.

My other friend suggested that I invite him to a party that she and her husband are planning for next month and I think that would be the perfect test to see how he reacts. If it's a good reaction, I can probably tread more dangerous waters and bring up how I feel. If he's uncomfortable with it, then I know that I'll have to back off and leave it alone. If I do get a bad reaction, I'll probably be pretty bummed out at the fact that there's no chance for anything to happen between us, but I guess it would be for a reason.

Honestly, I'm scared about just the party invite, let along telling him I want to get to know him better. I asked Rob if asking my manager to a party was overstepping boundaries and he said no. Considering he was a supervisor at one point, I think he would know, but I could be wrong. I'm really hoping he's right and that no boundaries are overstepped with that invite nor does any awkwardness come from it if there is a bad reaction.

Today was my first day off since two Fridays prior and overall it was a pretty darn good day. I slept in until around quarter after 7, but didn't get out of bed until around 8. I hung out and watched AGT on Hulu then went out to the cafe to get some grub. After that I came home and hung out for an hour or so before meeting up with a friend. We went to a place that had horrible service, but good beer. The food was okay; nothing terribly special about it. I don't think I'll interested in going back any time soon. There are plenty of places that you can get good beer along with good food and good service.

After that we went for a walk around a park then decided it was time to head home. I watched the two episodes of Master Chef and now I'm actually thinking about heading to bed soon since I've pretty much been up all day. I have laundry to do in the morning when I wake up and work at Sam's tomorrow evening. Then back to it Sunday. Joy. At least it's just that much closer to my trip. I just have to keep reminding myself that that's what all this work is for. It'll pay off in the end.

Alright, I hope tomorrow is as relaxed as it can get considering it's not really a full day off. I guess I'll find out.

Until then. . .

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I made it!
Thursday. 9.5.13 9:54 pm
My alarm is deactivated and I'm soooo ready to sleep in tomorrow! It's been a long couple weeks. At least time is going by pretty quickly. I figured it would, to some extent, with the second job taking up most of my free time, but it's going by a lot faster than I anticipated. My birthday is only a month away. . . crazy!

Today has been great, actually. We started out the morning with some nice thunder and lightning storms with plenty of rain. Considering we don't really get that weather here, it made for a good start to the day. It rained for a while, then cleared up for a couple hours and now another storm is moving north and they're expecting even more thunder and lightning with even more rain. Sleep will either be a hit or miss. Either the storm will be so calming that I'll sleep through it all or I'll be too excited to sleep and stay up to watch the light show. We'll see what happens.

I actually have no plans for tomorrow. I will be going up to the cafe at some point, probably around 1 or so, to hang out for a bit and get some tasty food for my cheat day, but other than that, I have nothing going on. I'll watch some shows on Hulu and take a nap and lounge in my pajamas.

The end of my night went really well. It wasn't too busy at Sam's. It helped that we had more than just two cashiers, which is kind of how it's been since I've been there. Having the extra person made a big difference. My managerial crush came within an inch of me tonight and I became hypersensitive to exactly how close he was to me. Oh man, what I would have given just to be able to reach out and touch him. Or 'accidentally' back up or move sideways to run in to him. Oh my goodness. I actually got all tingly when he was right next to me. I'm getting that way now just thinking about how close we were to each other.

Yeah ..... I should probably stop there before I get too carried away with myself. I'll get lost in my mind later. For now, I'm going to listen to the thunder, turn my light off so that I can watch the lightning and wait for my hair to dry before calling it a night.

Until tomorrow. . .

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If only you knew
Wednesday. 9.4.13 9:57 pm
A couple of my coworkers were joking around about how much of a jerk the manager is {the one I'm crushing on} and it was determined that he needed to get laid in order to not be so much of a dick. Well, the one girl said that she'd rather go lesbian than help him out and I laughed and played along, but in my head I'm thinking, "yeah, I could definitely help with that." The great thing is that I'm pretty good at playing along with people. I never agree with anything they're saying, but instead make jokes to go along with what they're laughing about. If only it was something that could be truth instead of fantasy.

Tomorrow is my Friday! I'm so excited to finally be getting a day off. I plan on doing absolutely nothing tomorrow at my regular job and I'm really hoping that tomorrow night was just about as slow as tonight was at the part time job. As is I'm probably not going to be getting much sleep tonight since I needed to wash my hair when I got home so I'll be up for a while waiting for it to dry some. I have the fan on so hopefully that'll help some.

Alright, I'm gonna get my hair out of the towel so we can work on speeding up this drying process and I'll watch some YouTube videos to pass the time.

Until tomorrow. . .

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