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Saturday. 3.7.15 4:56 pm
It's that time of year again. . . the time of year when we uselessly change the clocks and lose an hour of sleep. I don't know why we change the clocks. It serves no real purpose any more, but until the rest of the country catches on to what Hawaii and Arizona have already figured out, then we have to deal with it. I'm just happy this year that I don't have to work tomorrow so I can sleep in until whenever.

I ended up going out today. I told my friends that I'd walk their dog since one of them had to work late and the other is sick. I took the pup over to Greenlake and we walked the whole 3 miles. It's a beautiful day outside so the place was pretty busy. A lot of people, a lot of dogs and a lot of kids. I can handle the people and the dogs, but kids are annoying. Even if they're not directly affecting me, their presence is enough. Luckily, I was able to just focus on watching the dog zigzag back and forth and try to keep him from running in to people and other dogs.

Now that that's done, I'm in until Monday morning. I have no other plans for the remainder of the weekend and I'm going to keep it that way. I'd like a day to just sit around in pajamas and not do anything. Especially since I have plans next Friday and Saturday. Perhaps Sunday, but those haven't been entirely decided on yet.

Anywho, my food is almost done cooking and I'm gonna dive in to a movie on Netflix.

Until next time. . .

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Are we there yet?
Thursday. 3.5.15 6:01 pm
It has been such a long week. I'm thoroughly convinced that I went drinking on the wrong night. I mean, clearly I was meant to go drinking on Tuesday night, otherwise it wouldn't have happened, but still. Most people say "it's been one of those days" ... well, this has been one of those weeks. And there's still tomorrow. But thankfully tomorrow is the final day of the week and 5pm could not come fast enough.

I'm in for the rest of the night, which is fine. I'm broke so I haven't a clue what I'd be doing anyway. But the bra has been removed and the pajama shorts have been put on so by those standards, I'm in for the remainder of the evening. Tomorrow will probably be the same. Hell, I may even go to bed early tonight and tomorrow. We'll see how I feel.

No plans for the weekend. I had one plan, but it's been postponed until next weekend. So laundry is the only thing I have to do between Saturday or Sunday. Sleep is definitely on the agenda for the weekend.

I'll keep this one short since there's really nothing to talk about. Work has just been extra annoying this week and my fried brain is ready for a break. Or alcohol. Lots and lots of alcohol.

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Driven to drink
Tuesday. 3.3.15 8:48 pm
For the 3rd time in the two months that I've been doing this job, I've been in high need of a drink after work. The difference between this and the need to drink while I was in security is that I can wait until after work. When I was in security, I was wishing that the water dispenser dispensed vodka instead.

I met up with a friend at a pub in Fremont and we had food and a couple drinks. It was a nice way to blow off steam. I ranted about work and the beer was able to calm the nerves. He's one of those friends where I could hang out with him and lose hours of the day and not even notice. As much of a pain in the ass he is, it's important to have people like that in your life.

Tomorrow is Wednesday, halfway through the week. I have tentative plans for this weekend, but I'm thinking of postponing them. I've been busy almost every weekend for the past couple months and I'd really like to have another weekend of just nothing; where the only thing I do is laundry. We'll see how I feel in a couple days.

In the meantime, I'm going to watch the new episode of The Following and call it a night. I'll be getting up early to shower and wash my hair, since it's a bit late and I don't feel like going to sleep with my hair wet.

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Hiatus mix up.
Sunday. 3.1.15 3:21 pm
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Acute awareness and vague memories
Saturday. 2.21.15 10:03 am
It's funny how the brain works. Why do we pick up on certain things, remember some things for eternity and yet other things just simply slip by? We've learned that "blacking out" when drunk isn't actually us blacking out; it's our brains refusing to form new memories in an effort to protect us from ourselves. But why do you remember certain things, that don't seem terribly relevant, for long periods of time after the event has occurred, yet other things that you wish so hard to remember, are just a fuzzy blur? Almost as if you've put your glasses down and the clarity is gone. You can still see the object, but a lot of the details are missing. Or, depending on the distance relation to the blindness, you may not even be able to distinguish that the object is what you want to believe it to be.

This has been happening to me a lot recently. There are certain things that are sticking out relatively clearly in my mind, down to the intricate details, and I really hope I never lose them. I managed almost 5 months without losing the details and although they've changed slightly since the original memory was formed, I've managed to rewrite it a little to match the present.

Other things like driving somewhere, remembering memories that are tied to the routes that I'm taking, maybe even conversations that were had. Or walking the same route, seeing something that someone else mentioned, will now stand out to you even when you're driving and not paying close enough attention to the area, like what happens most of the time when you're driving and must remain focused on the road. A friend mentions a place and suddenly you see that place every time you go past it, when you had no idea of its existence prior to them mentioning it.

Another situation is when you have a memory tied to a place, but when you go back to that place, you know the memories are clear, but what you're seeing now doesn't look anything like what you remember. It could have had something to do with the time of day being different between each time, but you'd like to think that at least something would feel the same. So now you have two memories of the same place.

So we continue on throughout our daily lives, trying like hell to take it all in for later. Or becoming suddenly aware of something we never even realized existed.

It's funny how the brain works.

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To be determined
Thursday. 2.19.15 8:08 pm
After staring at the screen for 5 minutes and coming up with nothing, I settled on the above title. It will forever remain "to be determined" because I will never come back in and change it.

I finally went to bed at a reasonable hour last night, {ie: before 10:30} and yet I was still awake at 3, 4, 5:30 and 6:30. I don't get it. I felt better last night. I wasn't super pissed at nothing in particular and I felt relaxed and tired enough for all the thoughts in my brain to slow enough to let me fall asleep easy enough. Yet I was still awake far earlier than I should have and couldn't stay back asleep. I'm very glad tomorrow is Friday. It means I'll get to sleep in for the two days following. And take naps whenever I please. They tend to frown on you doing that at work.

I'm actually pretty excited that next week is the last week in February. It means that come March 1st, I'll be able to buy more contacts because my insurance will have finally kicked in. I don't wear them often, but I like having the option of being able to wear them if I want. Having only 2 more pairs of trial versions means that I'm limited. So if I want to wear them this weekend, then that's it. No more until I get more. It's like wearing that favorite outfit or pair of undies. Once it's been worn, that's it until you do laundry. So you better make sure you wore them at the right time. Either way, I digress. I'm just looking forward to being able to get more.

Since I went out after work tonight, I'm not sure yet if I'm tired enough to go to bed early or if I'll end up being awake longer than I should be. Regardless, I'll probably come home tomorrow and most likely end up in bed early. So even if I don't sleep well tonight, I don't have any plans so sleep is pretty much it.

Until then. . .

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