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Wrapped up
Thursday. 9.11.14 11:40 pm
I still technically have 20 minutes left in the day. So this counts.

It started out with exactly what I figured would happen with work. I knew it was too much to ask to have a day that ended without anything happening at all. It didn't get too crazy, though, so I suppose I have that to be thankful for.

All of the torture and stress that I've put on my body these past few weeks has finally caught up to me. In the year and a couple month since I got my IUD, I started spotting this morning. There's some off and on cramps, but no real pain involved and nothing compared to what I had when I was just on the pill. If there was pain, I'd be a lot more concerned that the IUD had moved and I would have gone to the doc right after work. But since there's nothing more than, well, a very light period, I'll just wait it out until my body decides its punished me enough. Hopefully once this is done and over with it'll be another year and then some before this happens again.

Jonathan and I finally talked about where we stand, after this past week of being unsure and rocky, at least from my perspective. It was a conversation that I'm incredibly thankful that we had. We're on the same page with moving forward; no regrets whatsoever about how our past has lead us to here, but now we know what we have to do to make this work. I needed that clarification from him and I'm very grateful that he's the type of person who will actually speak what's on his mind. I'm looking forward to what the future holds.

Tomorrow is my off day. I really do want to do something that I haven't done before, but it'll depend on how I feel. I may end up just laying in bed all day. We'll see what Mother Nature decides.

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Moving forward
Wednesday. 9.10.14 9:51 pm
My sister has a good point: if I bring up certain things about the past, it shows that I'm not working to move forward. Obviously it's fine to reminisce about the past, but bringing it up in effort to create conversation can be quite unhealthy, especially depending on the manor in which it's occurring.

In an effort to continue in the forward motion, I took advantage of the opportunity to bring up a very specific topic to a colleague of mine and it went better than I anticipated. Nothing was set in stone, but there's a definite possibility of potential for future happenings compared to the last time this topic arose. 3 more weeks ...

Despite how things went earlier in the day, this new development {granted, I'm using that term loosely} has left me in a rather decent mood. It also helps that tomorrow is my Friday. That's always the best day of the week. Just knowing that come 2 o'clock tomorrow afternoon I won't have to worry about that place for two whole days would make me happy even if I'm having a shit day.

Alright, I need to let my hair dry some before I call it a night. I'm seriously hoping that tomorrow is as uneventful as today was, but it's been rather uneventful most of the week so something is bound to happen tomorrow to fuck it all up. Guess we'll see what happens.

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Slow transition
Tuesday. 9.9.14 9:31 pm
I'm working my way back up to being okay. Shockingly, the day wasn't half as bad as I anticipated, even with closing at Sam's with the one absolutely no one likes. We'll see how tomorrow plays out, as it'll be pretty much a repeat of today.

I am currently making plans for the weekend, though I don't actually know what they are yet. I just know that I will be busy. Here's to hoping that I'll be this motivated once the weekend actually comes. Two more days to get through.

I'm kind of hungry, but it's pretty close to bed time. I could be up for another hour and a half, which would be a decent time for the food to settle, but I'd rather not push it much past 10:30. Hmm ... yeah, I'll make up some mac'n'cheese.

Three more weeks working two jobs. Is it October yet?

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Reality check
Monday. 9.8.14 2:27 pm
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Not okay.
Sunday. 9.7.14 7:44 am
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Murphy's Law.
Saturday. 9.6.14 8:06 am
Murphy's Law is typically used when you plan for something and it goes negatively from what you've planned and prepared yourself for. From the Wikipedia page, it states "anything that can go wrong will go wrong."

I typically use this in a looser connotation, however, I've not forgotten the original meaning. For me, when I use this adage, it's in the fashion of something like, "Well fuck, I guess I got all dressed up for nothing." Or when I shave my legs because I feel like something's gonna happen that will require someone else touching them and then that backfires and I end up just staying inside without even a reason to wear shorts or capris. I'm currently testing the Murphy's Law theory and it will most likely prove to have been a waste of my time, but there's a small glimmer of hope. I have some pretty serious doubts, though. No expectations! Well, kind of ... more hope than expectation.

Jonathan and I are going out to breakfast/brunch today. We're going to the place that we were originally supposed to go to meet. He's been back there at least once, possibly twice, since the end of June so I guess this is as good a time as any for me to finally get to try out the place. His friend and his friend's wife might be joining us. I have serious doubts that they will because his friend is a spaz when it comes to meeting new people. Despite the fact he would be meeting me as Jon's friend , not girlfriend, he's still probably gonna be all weird about it and end up not going. However, there's a part of me that can't help but think that Jon really, really wants them to go so that it's not just the two of us. Not sure why I feel this way, but I wasn't wrong about the last time I felt something with him so who knows. Guess I'll find out.

Yesterday I spent watching various 2 hour-long movies on Netflix that I hadn't seen. It started with World War Z, which started out far more intense than it ended. However, I liked the way that it ended. {Spoiler alert} There was no fairy tale ending. I like when movies deviate from the norm. After that I watched Olympus Has Fallen, then The Family and finally Love Actually. The last one threw you off there, didn't it? Well, I'll be honest, I only kind of watched the last one. I was talking to Rob during more than half of it so I was paying more attention to the conversation than the movie. If I were to ever watch it again, I'm sure there will be parts that I won't recognize. Clearly, I started out strong and got less intense as the night went on. After brunch that will probably be what I end up doing. Again. Joy.

Alright, I should probably shower. On the off chance that his friends join us, I'd rather feel and smell clean than be all worried about whether they could tell that I hadn't showered since yesterday afternoon.

One more day in this mini stay-cation. Fuck.

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