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It can't just be me
Wednesday. 3.25.15 8:02 pm
When you meet someone new, you find out things about this person. Over time you either get to know them really well or they just become a stray memory that passes through every once in a while, when one of those things you've found out makes itself known and the memory is triggered.

I know that when you're younger and you meet someone, you find out that they have the same favorite {whatever} as you or their birthday is close to yours or they know someone that you know and suddenly you feel like it was meant to be. You start way over thinking how things are supposed to go from then on and you see a future that definitely has this person in it.

As an adult, I'd like to think that this process is different. You meet someone and find out that they have similar interests which means that you have something to actually talk about, and then that's it; no other thoughts involved. Instead, you find out something about them and you feel that same giddiness as you did when you were younger, except now you know that it really is purely coincidental, because it's not like they're the only other person on the planet who happens to have an October birthday or likes sushi as much as you. Or when you learn about someone's past and then suddenly a German flag appears in your daily life that wasn't there before. All of these things are pure coincidence and mean absolutely nothing, but your mind isn't wired to think that way.

I'm trying to train my brain not to over think coincidences and it's working to a very small extent. I've tried to ask the question "why" less and just go with the flow of things. It's clearly supposed to be happening this way, in this moment, or it would be going differently. And whatever is happening now is happening so that something else can happen in the future.

It's my current personal challenge. I really hope I can stick with it for a good while.

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Slow, deep breaths.
Monday. 3.23.15 9:26 pm
This is going to be very short. I almost didn't write anything today, but I felt like I should.

I'm trying to be okay with not being in the middle of a chase. I wave the flag and then start running. For a little bit I have some company, but after a while I'm so far ahead of everyone that it's just not fun anymore. So I start to slow down in hopes that they'll catch up. When that doesn't happen, or I realize that they've turned back, I get frustrated and upset; afraid that I've gone too far and that there's no going back.

I know none of you will understand that reference, and several months/years from now, I probably won't either, but that's not the point. It works for me at the moment and that's all that matters. I have to keep reminding myself to breathe, pace myself. Slow and steady wins the race, right? Maybe if I just keep jogging along at a steady pace, someone will come on to my path. Perhaps I'll have a few others cross it and continue on their way. Perhaps others will come running back because they got too far ahead of me to even realize. But one day, I'll have that perfect competition. I just have to keep breathing.

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Food a plenty
Saturday. 3.21.15 5:33 pm
When you go to Buffalo Wild Wings, you must get an appetizer to share, at least one drink and of course, wings. I've been craving spicy food all week so what did I do? I got hot wings. It's toward the bottom of the spice level bottle illustration that they have in the menu and it's the only one that I really like out of the other options that are between that and medium. I may, one day, venture on to a hotter sauce, but for now I'll stick with hot.

Considering how much I don't care for sports and how BWW is very much a sports bar, I really do enjoy going there. Even when there's a game and people are yelling and screaming, the food is worth it and the company typically is as well. Apparently there's a BWW Downtown, which I was previously unaware of, but my friend lives south and it's easier for me to just drive down there than for her to bus/train up here.

Now that I've gone out and had a good time, I'm in for the remainder of the weekend. I need to do laundry tomorrow, but that's about it. I finally have more contacts so that's the only thing keeping me from taking a food coma nap right now. I don't like to waste them, since they're higher up on the price scale, so when I put them in in the morning, I make the sacrifice to not nap that day. Tomorrow, especially since I'm staying in, I'll just throw my glasses on in the morning. Even if I don't nap, I'll still have the option of doing so.

I received an invitation to one of my cousin's wedding. I'm going to put in for the time off, but there's no guarantees that I'll be able to get it so I'll RSVP with a maybe. I'd really like to go. I haven't seen most of my extended family in over a decade. I think it'd be fun to hang out with them for a weekend. I'll ask my manager when I see her on Monday. I'll put in for the time, explain why, but say that it's perfectly cool if I can't.

Anywho, time to dive in to Netflix and Hulu. Here's to a relaxing remainder of the weekend.

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Home remedies
Thursday. 3.19.15 6:25 pm
There are varying opinions when it comes to home remedies. Some people swear by them, while others are skeptical of everything. I'm one of those people who is willing to try home remedies, if it means getting to skip going to the doctor and/or spending ridiculous amounts of money on medications. Home remedies have been a hit or miss for me. Hot tea with honey or lemon does nothing for a sore throat for me, even when I get past the disgusting flavor. There has been one remedy, however, that I've recently discovered that I'm going to resort back to as many times as needed: vanilla extract for cold sores.

I was somewhat skeptical at first, but I figured the worst that would happen is that it takes a week or more, like normal, for the stupid thing to heal. I tried it as directed and it's working! After only doing this treatment for 2 1/2 days, the sore is nearly gone! I'm also using Blistex at night and during the day to help keep it hydrated. So I'm thinking that the combination of the two is what's making it heal so quickly. I'm also avoiding, despite my annoyance, eating spicy foods, as those tend to irritate the affected area. Once this thing has healed, I'm going to eat so much spicy food!

I had an entry planned for St. Paddy's day, but I lost the motivation halfway through the entry and ended up scrapping what little I had already written. Nothing special has happened this week. I've actually been in kind of a down mood. I've been physically drained most of the week and haven't been terribly social. I only texted 4 people yesterday, two of which were family. The urge to communicate isn't really there this week. Hopefully it's a funk that I'll be able to get out of by next week. I plan on staying in this weekend. Well, I've made one tentative plan, but if it falls through, I'm going to be perfectly okay with it.

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Responsible adult
Sunday. 3.15.15 10:00 am
Being an adult has its perks, for sure. You get to sleep in on the weekends and not have anyone bug you to get out of bed {if you live alone, that is.} You can eat ice cream and cookies for breakfast, if you so please. You can go out on a work night and stay out late because you've already weighed out whether the reward was high enough to deal with the consequences in the morning.

On the other hand, you have to make sure that you have food in your house, otherwise you'll be spending the money on delivery or take out, which adds up really quickly. You have to make sure your bills are paid on time so that you can continue taking hot showers, have a roof over your head and internet access. You have to make sure that you get yourself to work on time and if you ride share, you have a responsibility to others as well.

Another part of being a responsible adult is knowing when to stop drinking. There are plenty of safe options to get home without getting behind the wheel, but I'm so paranoid about leaving my car in a parking lot that I've been irresponsible and driven home while under the influence. I'm certainly not proud of that decision, but it's one that I'm working on not making again. The last two nights I went out for drinks and I was able to stop myself from getting more, despite wanting more, so that I'd be able to safely drive home. This is when carpooling has major advantages, so long as you're not the DD.

Despite only having 3 drinks on Friday night and two last night, I managed to have quite the fun time. Both nights started out simple enough: meet up with a friend to have a good time. Friday night simply added more people and became a little crazier until a couple people had to work and the others were tired from having worked all day so we parted ways. Last night there was an unexpected guest that joined so it just happened to make it more fun. That particular situation might turn in to some kind of redemption opportunity for me so I'm cautiously optimistic about how it may end up.

Today I'm going to hang out with my newly engaged friend. She wants to go look at some bridal stuff and invited me to go with her. We're also gonna make a couple other stops while in the area so it should be a nice day. It's rainy outside today, perfect Seattle weather, so I'm happy to be going out in it. I do need to get the oil changed in my car ... it may have to wait until after work one day this week since I don't think I'll be back Downtown until after they close. Luckily they're open until 7 during the week.

Anywho, I need to get my clothes in the dryer and take a quick shower. This entry was far less exciting than I thought it would be, but I guess I just wasn't in the mood to detail all the events of Friday the 13th and Pi day. Oh well.

Until next time. . .

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Smitten
Wednesday. 3.11.15 7:52 pm
Can lust and smitten be used in the same context? Because I'm fairly certain there's a blurred line between the two at the moment.

I picked up my packages today and discovered that one of the pairs of shoes I ordered was accidentally ordered in the wrong size. So now I have to go back tomorrow to exchange them for the size that'll fit. It's only slightly inconvenient since I really don't mind driving up there. I just don't like dealing with the traffic after work. Since I'm now working "normal" hours, I have to deal with rush hour traffic.

I'm pretty excited to try out my new running shoes, along with the new pair of crop pants I got from VS. I also have a headband so I'll be interested to see how well that helps with the sweat. The new bra I have is a really pretty color blue. I have no one to show it off to, but when I wear it, I can be excited knowing I have it on.

Two more days until the weekend. I'm so ready to have two days to sleep in. Can it be the weekend yet?

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