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Thursday. 1.2.14 8:34 pm
After living in Seattle for the past three years, you'd think that I'd be used to the fact that it rains here. A lot. However, whenever I am inside for a while then look out the window or go outside and it's raining, I have a sudden moment of surprise before remembering that this is completely normal. "When the fuck did it start raining?" is usually what plays through my head before I come back to the reality of understanding where I live.

I spent most of the day pissed off. I really am surprised I didn't snap at anyone ... I woke up that way and it didn't taper off as the day went on. Luckily I have tomorrow off from work and I intend to clean, which means that, if I'm still pissed, this cleaning might actually get done. A break will be taken when I need to go to the bank to get quarters, but that's about it. I told my friend I'd stop in at her coffee shop, but I'm not sure now. I kind of want to stay on track with the cleaning and I'm afraid if I'm away from the mess for too long, the motivation will dissipate and nothing will get done.

I'm very tempted to just go for a drive to nowhere, but I need to be careful on gas until I get paid again. Having only one day off tends to put a damper on such trips as well. Although going in to work on only a few hours of sleep has been something that I've gotten used to over the last several months so I'm not sure what would make another day like that any different. We'll see how I feel next weekend and what my finances and gas prices look like.

Until next time. . .

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Wednesday. 1.1.14 7:01 pm
I did as little work as possible today. I was so tired that even walking around out in the cold did nothing to wake me up. I wandered aimlessly from place to place just going through the motions until it was finally time to go home.

Last night was okay. I ended up going to my friend's place for dinner then going with them to Gas Works Park to watch, what was supposed to be, a good fireworks show. Instead, what we watched was the fog roll in just in time to completely blanket the entire city and block out any chance of seeing fireworks. We counted down till midnight, heard the booms and, still not seeing even an inkling of flashing lights, left. At least the food was good.

I got home around 1am and had to be up at 5 for work. I got less than 4 hours of sleep. Luckily there really wasn't anything going on today so I was able to get away with not doing much of anything. Tomorrow will be a different story. It's the new year, everyone will be back to work and the boss will be pissed because he has to do all of the end of year paperwork. Which means that I will be doing my job simply to avoid having to deal with him.

No plans for Friday other than to clean. I really, really, really need to clean. I probably have 2 full trash bags full of stuff that needs to be thrown away. I would shred everything, but I may just take my scissors to all the bills and stuff and throw bits and pieces in separate bags then place them all in separate trash cans. Or just put everything in one bag and take it all to work this weekend to dispose of in various Shred-It boxes. At least that's supposed to be a secure method of disposing of confidential paperwork.

Anywho, since it's been a year of writing entries, I will probably continue to write something every day since it's become kind of an automatic habit. The only difference is that if I were to miss a day or two here and there, I won't feel guilty for screwing up my challenge. I have a new challenge for myself this year and it's something that this blog can only help by allowing me to type out my frustrations.

Until next time. . .

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Plot twist!
Tuesday. 12.31.13 5:45 pm
"When something goes wrong in your life, just yell 'plot twist!' and move on."

That's my motto for 2014. It couldn't have come at a better time, either. I'm not moving yet. My application was denied because of the money I owe to the apartment in Vegas that I had to abandon. I got really upset at first and then I got pissed off. Now I'm just kind of in a shit mood. I know that it happened for a reason, but since that reason has yet to make itself known, I just keep going at a steady pace.

I need to take these next few months and really focus on eliminating the debt that I owe. It's really not that great, probably somewhere in the vicinity of less than $15,000, but still. The current plan is to stay where I'm at, continue working the two jobs and attempt to make as much of my debt go away as quickly as possible. Perhaps I can be completely debt free by the time I turn 28. I have 10 months.

No plans for this evening since I have to work tomorrow morning. There was a tentative plan to go hang out with a friend from work and his girlfriend, but I have yet to hear from him so I'm assuming he either forgot or changed his mind. Either way, it's probably better that I'm not out in the massive crowd of people ... especially if I'm not able to drink.

Just as Christmas didn't really feel like Christmas, New Year's Eve doesn't really feel like it. For me, it's just another Tuesday and tomorrow will be just another Wednesday.

This is my final entry for the year. I've missed 12 days. 354 entries for the year 2013, including today. Despite the fact that I missed a week and a half, I think I did pretty good with this challenge. Now, I will do my best to continue with this daily entry stuff, but there's no specific challenge I'm setting for myself for 2014. At least not when it comes to writing blog entries.

Until next year. . .

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Type, pause, type
Monday. 12.30.13 7:33 pm
Apparently I'm kind of popular tonight since I'm currently holding 3 active text conversations and 2 kind of active ones. Every time I start typing a new sentence, I have to pause to answer the texts then return to typing this. Either this is going to take forever or I'm not going to have much written down before I finally give up for the night.

I discovered today that I'm actually rather open about who I am in to. Which, in the long run, could probably come back and bite me pretty hard. I should start keeping shit to myself ... at least when I'm at work. I don't want the wrong person to hear something and misinterpret it and spread rumors. It's hard enough making sure everyone is all on the same page about shit as is.

Pause ... type.

I really need to start cleaning, but I am seriously unmotivated to really do anything productive once I'm done working for the day. Which is why Friday will be the most productive of days. I want to get the whole of my room clean and presentable by the time I go to bed Friday. We'll see if it happens.

Alright, time to laze about and hopefully get to bed at a reasonable time since my nap lasted longer than it should have.

Until tomorrow. . .

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A little extra
Sunday. 12.29.13 6:44 pm
I worked an extra 4 hours today. I'll be working an extra 8 on Saturday. Each bit of extra money will help right now, especially with the move coming up. As much as I hate moving, I'm looking forward to being in a nicer place. And if it's not nicer, I will only be doing a 9 month lease so perhaps I'll be moving again around my birthday. Hey, by then perhaps I'll be able to afford a nicer place either in the same area or closer to the city again. Who knows what the future will hold. For now, however, I just looking forward to having more space again.

Is it bad that I'm already counting down the days until my off day when today was my Monday? Work hasn't gotten that bad yet. I think the three weeks away was enough to get me to reset my mind toward work. I'm sure something will happen eventually that will test my loyalties to the company, but when that time comes I know it'll be the sign to move on.

Two more days left in 2013. I'll have to count, but I think I only missed 7 days. Give or take. I'll put up my final tally on the last day of the year. I'm not sure if I'll continue this daily exercise in 2014, but I've definitely created the habit of coming here every day so perhaps this coming year will be the year of the comments. We'll have to see what happens.

Alright, I am supposed to be having a friend over sometime soon, though I'm not sure when he's supposed to be here. I guess I should probably clean up a little before he arrives.

Until tomorrow. . .

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All the wrong places
Saturday. 12.28.13 10:09 pm
I hate when zits show up in all the wrong places. Such as the middle of your chest or the side of your mouth ... right where people look. I haven't had one in the middle of my forehead in quite some time, but that's a bad spot too. I guess there really is no ideal location for a zit, but there are some places where it's less obvious. How am I supposed to wear cleavage showing shirts if there's an ugly distraction sitting right in the middle?

Work was kind of busy, but nowhere near as busy as it was last Saturday. I guess with Christmas being over, people have gotten all of their shopping done and over with. I really think my manager has noticed that I'm not paying near as much attention to him as before because he keeps hovering around my register. Either I'm doing something wrong or he's trying to get my attention. It's not going to work. I can see that he's there without actually looking at him. He really does have a nice ass, though, so when I see that he's walking away from me, I tend to stare. So long as no one catches me, I'm good.

With my other coworker that I'm interested in, I guess some things are better left in fantasy. Knowing that nothing will happen between us isn't going to stop me from dreaming about it. Hell, I had a dream just last night about us being out on a date and walking around holding hands. It was really sweet and I think those are the ones that get to me more. The sexual ones drive me crazy, but it's the sweet stuff I really enjoy. Oh well. Guess I just keep dreaming.

Anywho, I think that's it. Only a few more days left in the year. Kind of crazy, right?

Until tomorrow. . .

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