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and so it begins again
Sunday. 8.30.09 7:32 pm
The only benefit to having a job like this is that it's routine. The money is the biggest reason anyone has a job, but the routine of it gets me out of my house on a regular basis. Otherwise, I'm pretty sure I'd end up as a semi-hermit. I only say "semi" because I do tend to leave my house on weekends. But during the week, I only really go to and from work.

Monday is always the hardest day of the week. Or just the day in which you happen to go back to work after more than a day off. For example, next week Tuesday will be hard for me because I'll have just finished a three day weekend {due to the building being closed for Labor Day.}

Anywho, I can eat actual food again. The blister is still there and it's really sensitive to hot foods, flavor-wise. I ate some buffalo wings from Wendy's last night {really good, btw} and every time the sauce hit my blister it stung. Same thing with the flaming hot Cheetos. Either way, I'm happy that I can eat normally again.

There is a catch ... I can't afford to buy anything. I really, really don't like using my credit card {especially since I only have a few hundred left, total} but in this type of situation, that's all I have. As soon as Blockbuster takes out their money for the month, my bank account will be negative and there's really nothing I can do about it right now.

I'm trying to think of something that I can buy that I can cook that will last me the whole two weeks until I get paid again. Nothing is really coming to mind. Besides maybe spaghetti salad ... I might have to make that. One pound of cooked spaghetti should be able to last a single person two weeks, shouldn't it?

I really want Carl's Jr. I just want their jalapeno chicken sandwich and some chili cheese fries ... maybe for my birthday ... if I have the money. I'll probably just settle for the cake. Something no person should be without on their birthday.

Uhm, so yeah. It's almost quarter till 8 right now. I should probably sleep. My alarm is set for 2am.

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thursday is not friday
Thursday. 8.27.09 4:03 pm
Every Thursday for the past who knows how long, I always seem to be continuously reminding myself that I still have one more night to work. That today is not Friday and I do not get the next day off. It's terribly frustrating.

Argh!

Anywho, I'm still on my yogurt and pudding diet. However, I've discovered that if I eat things in little, tiny pieces and chew slowly I can eat normal food. So whenever I do happen to have normal food, I'm eating like a toddler. I'm looking very forward to being able to stuff my mouth again without worry of taking another chunk out of the inside of my lower lip.

The swelling has gone down some, but the white blister mark is still very there. And it hurts. I have a feeling it won't be completely gone over the course of tomorrow. One can still hope though, right?

I'm pretty tired. Maybe I'll go to bed early today. Here's to hoping I'll actually get some reasonable, decent sleep tonight.

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no chewing
Tuesday. 8.25.09 6:13 pm
Today was the first time in a while that I left my apartment after I had already showered for the day. And it wasn't to bring food to Jake. I needed to go to the grocery store, but on my way home I decided I'd just put it off again. I knew that I had bread at home so I could still make PB&J ...

I did just that, but I couldn't finish it. Why, you ask?

A couple days ago I bit the inside of my lower lip pretty hard and it left a blister. Over the last couple days, though, I've still been able to chew gum and eat regular food. Well today, I was almost finished with my sandwich when chomp! I bit down hard on that blister. If I'm not mistaken, I'm pretty sure I even took a small chunk out of what was already healing.

That sucker hurts! Even when I talk I can feel my teeth up against it. So over the next few days I'm restricting myself to a yogurt and pudding diet. Basically any kind of food that doesn't require me to chew it. So ice cream is still a go. But gum is not. I have to go three days without chewing gum. Ugh.

Luckily Food 4 Less had yogurt on sale for $.50 a piece. I bought ten. I'm really hoping it's healed enough so I can eat normal by the weekend. Otherwise it's back to Food 4 Less to buy more yogurt.

It's starting to cool off a little, finally. The last few days it's only gotten up to 99. At night it feels nice. When I leave my apartment to go to work {at 2:40am} it's only in the 70s. I can't wait until it only gets into the 70s during the day.

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lucid dreams
Monday. 8.24.09 6:34 pm
I'm currently in the progress of working my way towards lucid dreaming. I remember at least one lucid dream that I had when I was younger. It was pretty fun. I knew I was dreaming and instead of my conscious self trying to wake me, I was able to control what I did in the dream.

Apparently lucid dreaming helps with nightmares. It doesn't stop them from happening, but it helps you realize that you're just dreaming and gives you the ability to wake up from it before you get startled awake.

I don't have nightmares often, but definitely more often than a 22 year old should.

I've only been working towards it for a few days, but in keeping a dream log, I'm already remembering my dreams a little easier. Rather than simply forgetting them as soon as I wake up. Or only remembering one per night as opposed to two or three. I can keep track of more than one.

It's still not even close to perfect. I can't remember every one yet. I don't even think people who have been doing it for years can remember every single dream they have. Even if they can lucid dream.

Anywho, my job is beginning to really piss me off. It's getting on everyone's nerves. At least the people who have been there for more than a few months. The people who knew and remember a different time. Mainly a time when things weren't going to shit.

I wanted to talk about Jacob, but I guess I don't really have much different to say than I did last time. Not much has changed in that department.

Alright, I suppose that's it.

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the plan for the day ...
Saturday. 8.22.09 5:54 pm
... has gone well so far. I planned on staying in my apartment the whole day. I wasn't feeling well when I woke up, so that's pretty much what made the decision. I'm feeling better now, but I still don't plan on leaving to go anywhere. Honestly, there really is nowhere to go. Especially when you only have $11 in your bank account until payday {which is this Friday.}

I cooked some more food today. I only have enough for two containers/days of left overs. I also had a bowl today. I fixed up mac and cheese with beef and corn. It was tasty stuff. Simple yet tasty.

I'm supposed to be going out tomorrow to play pool. It'll be a change up from the usual bowling {which I did last night, instead.}

I also saw District 9 last night. It was good. I'm not going to say amazing because it started out a little slow; they took their time actually getting into the movie, but it was worth going to see. I'd recommend it.

It's kind of funny listening to foreign people curse. Only because we're not used to their accents.

Alright, I suppose that's about all I've got for today. Hopefully pool goes well tomorrow. I haven't played in almost 4 years.

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making my daily rounds
Thursday. 8.20.09 4:39 pm
Wow, about all I have to say is that I'm bored. I've been bouncing back and forth between here, youtube, myspace and facebook. In pretty much that order.

I have no plans for this weekend. I don't think I'll be out driving around quite as much. I still plan on getting out of my apartment though. If nothing more than to go bowling {which seems to be a weekend thing.} Sadly, even though I seem to go bowling at least once a week, I'm only getting slightly better. My game average went up from a 100 to a 110. Either way, I have fun. It'd still be nice to beat my all time high score of 151. I haven't even come close since that day.

In completely other news, I'm going to write about random stuff and I think I feel a mini rant coming on. So if you'd like to stop reading here, I won't mind.

I know that there are a few guys at work that have an attraction towards me. Most of them are drivers; at least that I'm aware of. Who knows how many more people actually feel the same way they do that I'm just completely unaware of. As of right now I'm aware of 9 guys that I see on a daily basis that are attracted to me. At least, they're the ones who are open about it. Who knows how many more feel that way, but don't say or act towards anything.

Some of them I'm comfortable talking more openly about things compared to the others. It's probably just the way I get along with those specific people. Only one person that I know if is slightly jealous and that's because he's friends with one of the people I'm more comfortable with talking to. I just don't feel the same way towards him. Oh well. He'll just have to get over himself.

I'm having some issues with not being able to be myself again. I have things I want to talk about and it's driving me crazy not being able to talk about them. To anyone. No one can know. And it's really starting to get to me. I can't act on certain things either because of the same reason. I've had to deal with this before and eventually it got to me too much.

I'm pretty sure I'd be able to talk to a professional about it without feeling like I'm saying too much, but unfortunately can't afford that right now. I'm going to look into it when I get insurance.

Maybe I'll write up a private entry with all of the things I need to get off my chest.

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