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bowling part deux
Tuesday. 6.27.06 2:51 am
YES!! We went bowling tonight because Northside was actually able to bowl tonight. I had a lot of fun. I still suck at bowling; I was better this time though. I got a couple strikes. Then on like the 3rd game I started to bowl really well and somehow the game got reset so the scores were gone. I wasn't mad though. Brandon, Dana, Joanna, and a few other people that I didn't know of from Northside were there. All I care about was that Dana was there. I actually got to see him. That's all that mattered to me. My mind was distracted all night too. I wanted so badly to say something or do something. But I don't think he'd be even remotely interested in me. Maybe I dunno. He's like 11 years older than me, which is quite a difference, but age doesn't really matter as long as we're both legal right? LoL. Anywho I wanted so badly to hook up with him. I almost kinda want someone to say something to him about me crushing on him just to see what his reaction is, but then again I don't because I don't want it to be a bad reaction. So the only people I told I know that I can trust to keep it to themselves. I almost said something about when me and Joey had our thing, but I decided against it. And I'm glad I did, cuz they see Joey on a regular basis and what we did is a little more in depth than just a simple 'I wanna hook up with you' type of thing. I know that nothing is gonna happen between me and Dana. Something did happen between me and Joey. I mean its nothing big or bad, but the fact that I'm still working there and that we still work together it would be awkward. Anywho, I still want to hook up with Dana even if it is only once. I think it would be sorta fun, but then again I don't know how he does things. He might be into the weird shit that I find to be too much. He might find the things that I'm into not good enough for him too. Oh well. I can hope right? Dana is online, but I don't know where he is online or what his e-mail is or anything; and I'm even sorta afraid to ask for that just in case he's all weirded out by it and is like 'why do you want my e-mail?' Anywho I hope that I see him again soon. And hey ya never know with these things right? Okay I have to go to work in 9 hours so I'm gonna try and get a decent night sleep. I'll write more later.

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yet another day off
Monday. 6.26.06 5:37 pm
I hate my neighbor. I live in a fucking apt so the walls are obviously shared. My frickin neighbor finds it okay to play their music up so goddamn loud that its rattling my fuckin windows!! I HATE that. I'm at least curtious and don't turn it up that loud. I mean if you want to play your music that damn loud MOVE INTO A FUCKING HOUSE!! Where you don't have to worry about the 3 people who share the same walls (and floor) as you. I've already said something and what did they do? Turn it down long enough for me to get back into my apt. Then it went right back up. At least they're somewhat nice enought to not have it up that loud at night when everone is sleeping. Anywho now that I've gotten that out, I'm off again today. This is weird, not going to work on a Monday. I'm thinkin about going up there and getting some food. Its like 20 till 4 so the evening 'rush' will be coming soon. I dunno. I kinda don't wanna go anywhere. Tomorrow is Tuesday which means we go bowling tomorrow. Tonight Northside is supposedly going to go bowling cuz 'they can't do Tuesdays since thats their busy day and no one is available to go' Whatever. They're just scared. Of what I'm not really sure cuz we're not that good, but oh well. LoL. I just wanna see Dana. I don't even really care about bowling cuz I suck at it. I haven't seen Dana since he stopped working at the Eastside. He's apparently only allowed to word at the Northside. Vinnie Jr. won't let him come down here anymore to work. He's needed too much up there. Oh well I'm pretty sure I'll see him eventually. So Brandon finally got online and replied to my message. I'm glad he's doin good. I didn't know he was a country boy though. But hey whatever works for him. I'm so bored right now. Not as bored as I was last night though cuz I could always get dressed and go out for a while. Unlike at 2 in the morning when I can't really go anywhere. Even if I had a car I couldn't really go out anywhere at 2 in the morning. This isn't exactly a 24 hour town. Oh well. I'm not really sure what else to write so I'll get on later and write.

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New episode of Tourgasm
Sunday. 6.25.06 11:39 pm
There was a new episode of Tourgasm on tonight. It was awsome just like the other two. This one however Dane's girlfriend was introduced. It was sweet, him getting out of the van looking for her and then an embracing hug. I had an instant of jealousy, but I got over it immediately. Its sweet that he's got someone whom he loves and cares about that much. Oh well. I still love the guy and his comedy. That's not gonna stop me from loving him. I love other commedians who are married and have kids so just cuz one guy has a girlfriend, doesn't mean anything. It just means he's happy. Well apparently Chris never found this stuff and if he did, he didn't let on. He was talking to me last night and he was laughing about shit so I'm guessing everything is still cool. Although I don't feel like I'm crushing on him as much as I was. I thought about it and its sort of a waste of my time to like a guy who, like I said, I'm probably not going to see. So I'm back to liking no one again. And I'm fine with it just like before. I haven't been laid since like I don't even remembe. It hasn't been that long; maybe a few months. But just like the guy thing I don't want it. I'm not even remotely interested. There's no one that I have on my mind to want to be with so the thought of sex is like nonexistant. I need to get my DVD back from Lance cuz I want Allie and Tiffany to see it; I can always let him borrow it again. I'm not sure if Marcus has seen it. That was sort of the whole point in letting Lance borrow it was so that he could get it to Marcus. I think he finally got it to Marcus's, but I'm not sure if he's seen it yet. I'll call Lance tomorrow. Anywho I don't know what else to write so I'll write later.
So this whole week is screwed up. I work every other day this week so I have 3 days off. I don't mind as long as I get my hours. Now if I don't get my hours then I am going to have a problem. I just watched Tourgasm again. I didn't have that jealous reaction when I saw Dane's girlfriend. Which is definately good. So I'm yet again extremely bored. I have no one to talk to cuz there's no one online right now. But the fact that its quarter to midnight here which means that its quarter till 3 in the morning on the east coast means that no one is online. That means that Chris won't be on for quite some time. But I mean I don't really talk to him; he's always busy with his music. I like it though. I'm watching Harold and Kumar Go to While Castle cuz there's nothing on TV either. But its a good movie so its not a complete waste. I'm so frickin bored I don't even know what to say. I'm so bored that I'm not tired, but I'm not really up to staying awake. I know that if I lay down, I'm going to toss and turn and not fall asleep for a while. But if I stay awake I know that I'm not gonna have anything to do. So I'll just remain bored. Ugh. I kinda wanna go out somewhere. But I have nowhere to go. I have no one to go anywhere with. So I'm SOL. I can't stop yawning. But I'm not tired. I'm just bored out of my mind. Did I mention I was bored? I think I did. I can't say enough how much I'm bored. Alright I have not a clue what else to say. I'll write whenever.

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a day off
Saturday. 6.24.06 7:33 pm
Today is my first day off this week. I had to go out though. I had to go to the bank, Blockbuster and I decided I was gonna go up to work too. I haven't been up there on my day off in a while and there was a good crew this morning so I hung out for a bit. I got something to eat while I was there. That's actually the whole point in me going up there. Was to get free food. I didn't really want food from work but I knew that if I went anywhere else I had to pay for it. Technically I'm supposed to pay for the food that I get at work if I'm not working, but I never do. Well on occasion I pay for it, but for the most part I don't. And no one says anything to me. I just go in, make my food and eat it. None of them care. I've probably taken about a paycheck's worth of food. Oh well. As long as no one says anything to me I'm gonna keep doing it. I don't do it all the time either. Only every once in a while. Its too freakin hot outside to go anywhere. Man I cannot wait till I get out of this town. Anywho I'm watching Dane Cook's Harmfull if Swallowed DVD. He's so damn funny. There's absolutly nothing on TV right now. Hence the DVD. Oh, I'm thinking that maybe I've done something err, said something to Chris cuz he's not talking to me. I couldn't have done anything cuz of the distance between us. So I'm wondering if I've said anything to make him not want to talk to me. I'm hoping that he didn't find this and read it. Cuz like I said that would be weird. Oh well. So he's not talking to me. I went without talking to him for two years I'm pretty sure I can do it again. So I'm gonna be going to see Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest when it comes out. I'm looking very forward to it. I love the first one I'm sure I'll love the second one. Alright I have no idea what else I'm gonna write about. I'll get on later and write if anything interesting happens.
Ugh. I don't exactly know what to do. I finally stop liking David in that way so what happens? I start crushing on a guy that I hardly know anymore, that I haven't spoken to since graduation and that I'm most likely never going to see? What the hell is wrong with me? I don't get it. I only knew Chris for like maybe a year. When I graduated I never thought I'd even hear from any of these people again. But now thanks to myspace I found a few of them. Maybe David was right. Maybe I should just foget about having an account. I should just stick to this. I know I can rely on this site. No I think I'll keep the account, but ... Damnit!!! I wish I could figure out what to do. I know that if I had a boyfriend I wouldn't be thinking about him, but I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want a relationship with anyone. I'm just not interested. Whatever. Maybe if I don't talk to him for a while it'll stop the crush. Oh well. I'll write again later

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Shitty day
Saturday. 6.24.06 12:14 am
Today was one of the shittiest days I've had in a while. It started at quarter till 10 this morning. I apparently was supposed to open this morning however no one told me. And when Joey called asking if I was at work, I said no and he went off on me. He old me all these things that I really didn't give a shit about and he somehow made it entirely my fault that I didn't know what my schedule was. I take some of the blame because yes I could have checked, but he also could have called to let me know considering I wasn't going to be there to check it. So I had to frickin rush to get to work so that I could get the ovens turned on. When I get there (now I'm already pissed off) I see the schedule and see that I'm only working 4 days this week. How am I supposed to get my hours?? I don't understand why I'm only on there 4 days so I through my shit down and get even more pissed at Joey. After I'm able to clam down enough to stop shaking, I called Joey to let him know that I was there, that the ovens were on and to find out what the hell was up with my schedule. Since I'm opening 3 out of the 4 days and I'd be staying late on a couple of those days I couldn't work more than 4 days otherwise I'd be on overtime. So my day started out shitty and it didn't get any better. I had cramps, I had a headache and I was pissed off. As the day went by it went from being pissed off to being just annoyed. I know that if I stayed pissed off I wasn't going to be able to concentrate. Oh another thing that happened while I was on my way to work was that I almost got hit by a car. I was in the crosswalk, there was a red light, so some dumbass decided that he was gonna screech to a halt so that he didn't hit me. I just simply said 'go ahead hit me'. .I would have loved to have called Joey and tell him that I wouldn't be able to get to work because I was in an ambulence going to the hospital cuz I got hit by a fucking car. And ya know what? Even though I had the right of way because I was crossing in the crosswalk and there was a red light signaling the cars to stop and it was very obviously the driver's fault, Joey still would have found a way to blame me for getting hit by the car. He would have thrown something like if had known that you were opening you wouldn't have been rushing to get to work so you wouldn't have been hit by a car. I know that he would have done that because that's how he is. I mean sure he's a good guy but he can be a real asshole. Anywho like I said the day didn't get any better as it went on. It didn't really get any worse, but it didn't get any better either. So I'm glad that I'm home now and I'm very glad that I don't have to work tomorrow. I do have to go up to the shopping center to go to the bank and to Blockbuster, but other than that I don't have to do anything. I'm probably going to be stopping by work just to say hi to Erin and Tiffany and to maybe get something to drink, but I won't be staying. Alright I'm done writing for the night. I got out what I wanted to get out. I'll write agian later and hopefully it'll be with better news.

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Friday. 6.23.06 12:07 am
LoL I took Weenie and put him on my lamp and took a picture of him. I then put it on my myspace and told my sister. It was hers and then she gave it to me before I left to come back home. So I have no idea why I just typed that but hey it was what I was thinking about. So I mentioned Nutang to Chris last night so he decided he was going to look into it. I'm so glad he lost interest real quick and that its not that easy to find people on here if you don't know what you're looking for. I didn't want him to read what I had written about him. It'd be very awkward. It'd be worse if I say him on a regular basis, but since I don't it wouldn't be as awkward. It'd still be strange though. I don't have really anything else to say. I'll write later when I do have something to say.
Okay I don't get something. Chris is not on my mind all the time. And I don't think about hooking up with him. However, I get sorta bummed out if I don't get to talk to him, I think I'd get sorta .. I don't wanna say jealous, but somewhere along those lines, if he were to get a girlfriend. But then I'd be happy if he did. I don't fuckin know. I'm glad that he doesn't have this name though. I don't really know how he'd react or how I'd react to his reaction. Anywho I'm watching Tourgasm again for the umpteenth time. I can't stop. Even though I'm not laughing as much I just can't stop. I'm looking incredibly forward to when the DVD comes out. It'll become mine when it does. Even if I have to stick to the food at work for a couple days I don't care. It'll be well worth it. So I know that my life is not interesting at all. At least not right now. I'm not really trying to make it intersting though. I'm guessing that something will happen in my near future that will change my life again whether it be a small hardly noticable change or a bigger more noticable change. And it's gonna be a change for the better too. Its not gonna be bad. Its gonna be a good change. I have no idea what the change is gonna be or exactly when its gonna happen. I just have a feeling and I know that its gonna be good and soon. Have you ever had that sort of feeling? I have, but they are few and far between. Usually its something bad, but this time its good. Alright I'm gonna end this here so that I don't jinx the feeling. I'll write again whenever.

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