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Tuesday. 5.6.08 1:53 pm
The truck was horrid today. I joked saying that the truck didn't just suck today, it blew. Someone then decided to add to it asking me if there was a difference. I said yes, of course. One's more intense.

Work got a little better after truck. There was some good food waiting for us for when we finished truck, I didn't have to work on the floor and the person I was {sort-of} training was picking up on things pretty quickly. He'd already worked at another store for a short while so he kind of knew what was going on. There were slight differences in certain things, though, that he had to learn. But he didn't have to be told more than once how to do something.

Anywho, my migraine has diminished some. It's back to a normal headache. It started to go away after I ate something. I'm not sure why it got worse after I ate yesterday, but whatever.

I'll be sleeping for more than 4 hours tonight so maybe that'll help out in keeping the near-constant headache at a dull minimum. Something I'm pretty good at handling.

I ordered The Host today. I also ordered The Hollow by Nora Roberts for my mom for Mother's Day. I don't think I'll be able to afford to take her to Olive Garden as planned so I need to compensate. It's the next book in the series she's been reading and it's something she wants so it works.

Alrighty, that's it for today. I can't think of anything else worth writing about.

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hmm {edit}
Monday. 5.5.08 3:16 pm
I worked a full shift today. Which means my hours are up over 25 for the week. It's still incredibly lame because it's not 40, but 27, 28 is better than 19.

I got about 3 hours of sleep last night. Which is only about an hour less than I normally get when I'm working, but when I woke up it felt like I had only gotten 30 minutes of sleep. So when I got home from work, I layed down for a few hours.

I'm still tired. And now I have a headache.

One of my friends from middle school got married at the end of April. He finally put the pictures up on myspace. They're a beautiful couple. They both look so happy. Then again, I would assume most people would look happy on their wedding day. Their wedding was held place outside in a garden-like setting. All the plants and stuff made it look a little crowded, but it was still nice.

The only reason I'd have mine indoors {besides the fact I think the sun is evil} is because I want to get married in the late fall. Somewhere where there's snow. It'd be too cool outside to be wearing the sleeveless dress I have in mind.

Anywho, my sister is pretty badly sun-burnt. She used sunscreen, but it doesn't do much good if you fall asleep while you're outside tanning. She stayed home from school today because of the severity. When she gets up later I'm going to see if she wants me to put Aloe on her back. I'm a little jealous because once her burn is gone she'll have a nice, dark tan. Me? I burn and go right back to white. It's a little lame.

I got my goverment check. It was direct-deposited into my account today. I was going to take it and get contacts, but now I'm thinking about just saving it. Either withdrawing it or depositing it into my savings so I won't touch it. Something tells me that the eye doctor will be more than $300. Ugh. I need to go though.

There's so much I need to do and I don't even have close to enough to do it with. A few of the things I say I 'need' are more of a severe want, but the things I just 'want,' I can live without for a while longer. Examples: I need/want clothes. It's not that I don't have any, but I have so few that I can wear, I'm doing laundry more than once a week. I need/want a car. I was going to go up and chill out with Jake for a few hours tonight, but they won't let me take the car.

This whole not-having-enough-money-to-do-jack-squat is really getting on my nerves. The fact that gas prices are at $3.60/gallon {unleaded} makes the want to go out and do stuff a harder decision than it rightfully should be. I remember complaining when gas prices were up at $1.87. Now I'm pissed cuz where my friend lives {in Illinois} gas prices are $3.09. WTF?! How lame is that?

Blah. I think I'm done ranting for now. Till next time.

{EDIT} I haven't been watching TV much lately. It's been off more often than not. I'm not really sure why I have a sudden lack of interest in the TV, but I guess it's good for me. And it saves some energy. Maybe it's just because there hasn't been anything on that's worth watching.

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uhm ... yeah
Sunday. 5.4.08 3:12 pm
Sooo, the weekend didn't go as planned. It started out really well. I surprised Jake up at his work earlier than when I had told him. Even though we didn't meet up with his cousins, we still went out and had a good time. And as I also said, I got to stay at his place.

His throat has been hurting for the past week, but only at night and not too bad. Friday night is when it started to get worse. Then yesterday, it was killing him. As it is today. At least today his skin isn't super sensitive like it was yesterday.

His cousins came down, but one of them ended up with the flu. So Jake and his cousin were both sick. No partying, no drinking, no night out on the town. I'm not sure what his cousin did, but Jake spent most of yesterday and today sleeping while I watched episodes of House and the movie Donnie Darko somewhere in the middle.

Even though we didn't get to spend the weekend doing as planned, I was still happy. For the most part. I was away from my house and I was with Jake. That's what mattered most to me. Having fun and doing all the things we planned would have only made it that much better.

Anywho, I got called in to work tomorrow so I guess it's a good thing I came home today rather than staying one more night. It's one of those "I'd rather not be at home, but I need the money" type of things. I guess you'd call it a catch-22.

Right now I just want Jake to get better. I, of course, want his cousin to feel better also, but Jake's well being is more important to me, for obvious reasons. I just wish there was more that I could do for him than just sit back and wait.

In other news I've lost 6 pounds in the 3 weeks since I last weighed myself. Only this time I didn't starve myself. I didn't do it in the healthiest way, but I have still been eating. I've cut back on my chocolate intake and my fast food intake. I haven't been drinking as much water, but still about 2+ liters a day. If I could lose about 10 more pounds I'll be satisfied, but if I don't gain anything back from where I'm at, that'll be fine with me too.

Alright, I've written quite a bit for someone who really didn't do too much over the weekend so I guess I'll end it here.

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Saturday. 5.3.08 1:14 am
Just got back from seeing Iron Man. Amazing movie. I give it my full recommendation.

I'm also staying the night at Jake's. Something I've been wanting to do for quite a while. I'm not sure why his mom gave in, but I'm happy about it.

I'll be busy the whole weekend so I'm not sure when I'll be writing again. It won't be any later than Monday, though.

And trust me, I'll be writing about the happenings of the weekend.

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mood-altered entry
Thursday. 5.1.08 6:19 pm
Isn't it funny how your mood is what solely affects the contents of a blog? If you're feeling down, angry or apathetic, that's how the blog is going to come off as. If you're happy and energetic, that's how the blog is going to come out as.

See, the reason I bring it up is because I had an entry in mind that I had started formulating at work, but then my mood changed and I forgot what I was going to write. The only thing I remember was the title. Which, if I can think of a good enough entry, might use for a future blog.

Anywho, I still keep getting random pangs in my stomach. Sometimes it's just cramps, other times it feels like I'm going to be sick. Originally I thought it was because I wasn't eating very much, or at all, but it was still happening after I had eaten. Then I thought, maybe it was what I had eaten, but that couldn't be it either; what I had eaten wasn't varied from my usual 'diet.'

It sucks feeling sick to my stomach all of a sudden. It makes eating rather difficult. One minute I'm hungry, the next I feel like puking. It's one of the more annoying ailments to deal with.

I have to feed Lotus. She's getting twitchy.

Blah! I wanted to drink with Jake tonight, but I have to work in the morning and if I go over there, one of us would have to drive me home before morning. As much as I enjoy getting money, I wish I could just say screw it. I've been wanting to drink for the last few days, but because of work, I haven't.

I will be drinking this weekend, though. Even if I have to work Sunday, I will be consuming alcohol. Believe me, I'm looking forward to it.

Alrighty I think that's it for today. I never did write that hand-written entry. Maybe I'll go do that now.

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as the headache continues
Wednesday. 4.30.08 5:36 pm
I've said it before and I'ma say it again. I'm sick of living with my family.

It seems the more invovled I get with Jacob, the less my family and I get along. I can't seem to do right by them anymore.

Take today, for example. I wasn't supposed to work today, but Monica asked me to go in. So I did. It meant not being able to sleep in and spend more time with Jake, but it meant money. Something I am in desperate need of.

So I went in, worked my shift and when I get off, ma was just getting there. I got in the car, she asked when Jake would be coming over and when I told her later tonight, she suddenly got pissed.

Apparently, since I was supposed to be off today, Steve made plans for after work since he would have the car. Well, with me needing a ride home, ma had to take the car. Steve had to cancel his plans.

This was somehow my fault.

Forgive me for taking an extra shift so that I would be able to get an extra $30 on my next paycheck. Forgive me for being a lazy, pain in the ass who would rather go home in a car than walk in the heat. Next time, take the fucking car. I'll find my way home.

*sigh* I have to stop before it turns into more of a rant.

Anywho, the stress is starting to build up. As of late, my headaches are more prominant than usual. I really should get it looked at, but I don't for two reasons. One, I can't afford to go to the doctor {the main reason I haven't gone to any doctor} and two, because honestly, I'm afraid of what kind of diagnosis would be in store for me.

Blah! I'm done writing for today. I'm just not feeling it anymore.

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