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Played some "Life" quickest game ever, done in like 30 minutes. Picked up Ash, went to Harbour, played some bullshit, saw Brett Roberts and Kyle Lewis. Drove around, dropped Ash home. Drove around........................stopped................................... home. Went to bed around 12am. Woke up at 4:30am with a bad cough which I still have. Sorting things out.... I hate complication, but my whole life is 100 different complications.

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Merry Christmas. Well, this has got to be the least christmas like christmas I have ever had. We did nothing like we ususally do that makes it christmas. *sigh* My brother is here too, which should be nice but it never is anymore. It is more disheartening. I opened a bunch last night and some this morning before my bro got here. I am in the mood to celebrate the holiday with my friends more than my family... which is sort of sad. I have to go to my damn grandparents tonight too... this year it is all fucked up. Next year will be dif too cuz I'll be home from college. When you know what you are getting, the food is no longer a drive of happiness and it is not about the magic of santa anymore, i think the holiday loses some of its specialness. Sigh, it looks like October outside, not freakin December 25! All I want for this Christmas is to hear from a few people. I did get a lot of good stuff.. like clothes, comfy stuff for college, bath and body works stuff, CDs, books, n assorted stuff for college. I got nothing I didn't want and didn't not get anything I really wanted. Have a wonderful day.

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I miss talking to you... when I said I was lonely cuz I had no one to talk to.. that wasn't all true. I went to school, I talked to people there, but not you.

My dad went back to the doctor's today and he lost 9 pounds and his cholesterol went down major.. to like 4.8 or something. (5 is good) He still has a far while to go but I'm happy for him. I want him to live to see those grandkids he's always talking about. Which at the rate I am going, he won't see me dating anyone till I'm like 32 or something, which means he's got to wait a whiiiiile. I have to spend this evening with my damn grandparents. i wish I liked them more, cuz they are the only ones I have ever known. All I wanted this christmas for our traditions was for our family to still have christmas eve together... no interruptions like visiting the grandparents. grrrr. It doesn't feeel like christmas at all. I like the snow on the ground, the fireplace lit, the cold air, the bundled up with hot chocolate christmas... and it is a freakin 50 degrees raining outside, with clouds and no fireplace. Hot choc is out of the question cuz I am sitting here with a tshirt and shorts on. haha. man o man.

I miss so many things. I try to please everyone. I want to help more than I can. I expect more than most are capable of giving. Is that too much? Is it worth it? I dunno.

I am afraid that I will never get to thank Mrs Curry or say goodbye to her. Some people are saying she will pass away before the New Year and I didn't know that. She is truley a magical person for having continued to serve us this far with so much care. I don't know what I will regret saying if she leaves before I can say thank you. It will definately be the biggest funeral Hershey will have in a while. Oh god,... funeral... how aweful. Maybe I will write her a card and send it to her soon. Everyone let those this holiday season know what they mean to you. All I want for christmas is a letter.. a thoughtful letter. Just let me know what is on your mind. [email protected]

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So, since Sunday... Let's start there. Football banquet was quite enjoyable. "whoa, look at all their food! Man, those silly ftball players.".. 5 minutes later Meghan walks by with 3 plates of food too. haha. Sentimental, nice DVD, I want one, maybe i can get my dad to sneak me the money cuz my mom right now is majorly paranoid about the money we DON'T have. (i hate that). I was surprised at the end bc they wanted me to read my article I had written about the team back in october... My legs never shake when I am nervous, but mannn they were going crazily shakin then.

Monday brought in half of my gifts for ppl. Thanks to all. Tuesday brought in the remaining half. Card night almost got cancelled bc my mom was freaking out about some shit. It was like PMS all around the family last night. So I didn't call anyone else cuz I didn't want to have to call them back and be like, sorry not tonight. Buuut, in the end everyone was cool with it. Good times. Yay, Tim won egyptian rat screw. "Some things never change." Are u playing footsies with me? We need another conference about our signal. Mmm dog biscuit. Are those hamburgers? oh mann, so al of my friends don't like at least two of my other friends, so getting everyone together now is hard. However, I will never stop inviting anyone just bc they have an issue with someone else bc I love everyone and each person adds to the night. (ps.Tom, ur hilarious) Courtney take care of ur back.

This morning woke up to hear my dad utter the most beautiful words... the computer is working! Then went to the mall to help a friend pick out gifts. (which is why I smell like 4 diff scents right now) "Let's turn here, and I knowww I can find the mall somehow" We really do spend at least 9 months of our lives at red traffic lights. good times. Walking over to Ash's soon to do Key club fun stuff. later all and have an amazing holiday!

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