You are Everything To Somebody

Right now at this very minute-----------

Someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you

someone
cares about you

someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided

someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right

someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes

someone
wants to give you a gift

someone
thinks you ARE a gift

someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you

someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts

someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you

someone
wants to protect you

someone
would do anything for you

someone
wants to be forgiven

someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
is praising God for you

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

someone
values your advice

someone
wants to tell you how much they care

someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms

someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms

someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of
you

someone
praises God for your friendship and love

someone
can't wait to see you

someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel

someone
wants to be with you

someone
is hoping they can grow old with you

someone
hears a song that reminds them of you

someone
wants you to know they are there for you

someone
is glad that you're their friend

someone
wants to be your friend

someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is remorseful after losing your
friendship

someone
is wishing that you would notice them

someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you

someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you

someone
needs you to send them this letter

someone
needs your support

someone
needs you to have faith in them

someone
will cry when they read this

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The best part of this weekend.. making new friends (Jill, Mike, Renea and some other kid I dunno the name) and seeing Keith, even if only for an hour and half of which I was showering and getting ready to go out again. Not too eventful of a time, we got to Maryland around 11:30pmThursday, got into rooms (got my own bed) and woke up the next morning at 7, had breakfast at the College Park Diner, and headed out to Choice Hotels to visit their corporate wellnes center and do Q and A with the ppl in charge there, it might be an area I could go into. Then traveled 40 min to the Census Bureau and had to go thru metal detectors. Got to work out there for 1 and 1/2 hours yay! then talked some mor, returned to the Motel, met up with keith, took my shower, dressed, and headed out to the Smithsonians.... which was a disaster. Ridiculous traffic, trying to follow my bus, no parking, too many cars.. in essence I HATE D.C... at least driving wise. So since we got there so late Jill, Renee, two of Jill's friends and then Mike and the other guy walked around for 2 hours and got stopped once by a dude who said he was gonna have to write us up for "not smiling". Long story short... we got outta there, kept walking then eventually made our way to The Improv for Allan Harvey who is one raunchy comedian. I enjoyed my buffalo chicken burrito, their food is really good, and got to see Ken get trashed. Stood on the street corner for almost an hour waiting for our bus, then headed back, went to sleep till 1am or something with a phone call. I didn't even realize I had answered the phone till I found myself talking, then I didn't realize I hadn't said goodnight and said goodnight like 10 min after the fact just to no one.. good thing Renee was sleeping haha. Woke up this morning at 7 again, got on the bus, and got back here around 1:30pm with a stop at McDonalds. "aww I wish I had a bf to come pick me up when I got off the bus!" - some girl as 3 guys stand there waiting to take their gf's bags and DRIVE them back to their dorm as we all trudge along.

It is so peaceful right now.. I got to go to the gym, I wanna go back tho. Got to sit outside and read for a bit, there is virtually no noise expcet my roomie and my typing (I am louder of course) and got to eat dinner and ice cream which I have been craving all day and got pepper shakered by the new comer Mike! *shakes fists*. It is so gosh darn beautiful outside... *sigh*

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In a few weeks...

A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before. We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people bargaining in without calling or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best friends aren't in the bed next to your room?

Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived in it for nineteen years.

But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our best friends through the toughest times of their lives, something their even best friends at home couldn't be there for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend. We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were always there for each other afterwards. There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our place between these two worlds.

In a few weeks.... are you ready?


(Yeah so, I did borrow it from someone else, but it is what it is all about)

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I dunno what it is.. maybe not enough time at the gym tonight, but I am kinda aggitated... *shrug* I kinda feel helpless to two people I care about right now, and am afraid that maybe I won't be enough...

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