I guess I never updated on yesturday... to reserve energy and space and disgruntled or disasgreeing feelings of ppl who might read this... I'll just say...It was absolutely perfect.

"Did u know I miss you? Oh god I miss you"-konstantine.

Mom made me a nice dinner tonight of fetuccini alfredo with broccoli. I was watching the football game (rams vs seahawks) with my pop for a while n he started to get realllly sentimental. Saying stuff like, "what did I ever do to deserve you?... how am I so lucky?" and I couldn't think of how to respond, because to be honest, I am the one who is lucky! sheeesh. I know I am gonna forget stuff cuz I feel like I haven't really packed. Doesn't look like anything is going on tonight... so back to bonding the pops.

Only glad to return the favor... always.

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Why am I up? I guess I should get used to not sleeping in... and cuz I had this feeling someone else would be awake... 8 hours of sleep is good enough anyway.

Today: memorize monologue, finish packing, revise letter, develope pictures, groceries.

I had a really weird dream last night and unfortunately it was based upon Donna n high school lacrosse. She's haunting me in my dreams too!

this, everything... I love it.

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Last night out... no plans yet but Court and I both packed, then did work in my room, her Praxis test and my letter of rec for my proff. Now we're going to dinner at Panera and *shrug*. Iwish this rain would stop, it should later and maybe we will see some sun tomorrow *gasp*

I am excited...

Edit :1:11am
I have a bump on my forehead from hitting the metal basket at court's house while laughing.. a bump! hahahaha. "why'd u scream?" "he's naked!" "he is naked in MY house?" Went to Panara for 2 hours for dinner.. hmm black bean soup and asagio cheese bagel. Even tho I am supposed to stop eating dairy, u can't say no to an asagio cheese bagel. Returned to Court's for the last ice cream and pool... which I majorly suck at. Left by 12 to come home at a decent time for my parents..

and got an EMAIL from my friend from SEVENTH GRADE Ryan! I emailed him a while ago just on the off shoot that while searching the web I had found the right kid's email... after ALL these years I FINALLY find someone. He is STILL dating his 4th grade sweetheart Hannah too! Aw man, I always thought they would get married,... even in 4th grade. *sigh* On the other hand of closure.. finally saw Robbie today who was too cocky or whatever to even say hi while he was with his girlfriend, I mean freakin a, get over it, I did and just say hi. Whatever... going back to school soon. Said goodbye to everyone tonight... but I still need my hug. "so does this skin thing mean I can't hug u anymore?" "correct... never again in my life can I get a hug" "ok just making sure" hahah. goodnite everyone, safe trips back to school!

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End of the week... found a book to read finally so I am gonna try and finish in two days. haha. It's by the same author that wrote "a walk to remember" and "the notebook"... suprisingly it is a guy, and I wonder what his wife thinks.

I also have to memorize monologue
write letter for Cindy
go to the bank
clean my room/pack.
I have a doct appt tomorrow
gonna stop in and see chuck/coach may thurs or friday too for a bit
gotta go grocery shopping for college

Man, I think I got it figured out! still doesn't solve anything else.

I have a new friend...actually who is a friend of a friend from school, but still. whoop!

Now if check engine lights could be turned off... imagine how much better the world would be!

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It's raining... outside my window and inside my head. Nothing is clear and all I hear are your cries. -mciho

It's funny how I find my bad moods to be so horrific and yet some people find them to be entertaining. I guess I can take that as a good thing, at least I won't stress out about them as much anymore. As long as I can offer someone a laugh at my bizzarre non meggyo behavior, then all is swell. *whoa de ja vu moment*.

It's too hard to ask for what I want.
Wishes are just blinks of the impossible that try to keep us sane. -mciho

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... since everyone who reads this prolly reads one other site I have I dunno why I keep this one... or even anyone at all. I kinda started other ones so I could talk about stuff that not everyone read about, but then slowly everyone finds out so right now I am pretty much forced to write the same censored stuff on each site... which makes it pretty pointless... so I started another one, somewhere and if u can find it, props to you, if not then that's fine too... might be better that way.

Things I might've neglected to mention in recent days...
- bought my first lottery ticket with David W the other night even tho I am way past 18.
- New Year's was filled with pool, eating mint choc chip ice cream outta the carton with chopsticks and 4 hours of sex in the city, everyone's pretty much sucked for one reason or another.
- sick from new year's eve till jan 2nd around 4pm.
- I forgot how much time u can consume by playing cards
- There IS a point to blotting french fries
- There is no guarentee ever
- I love waking up/falling asleep like that
- Got a huuuuge craving for buffalo chicken!
- What is up with the weather?!
- Run away chapstick
- Jake likes my beanbag lounger

I wish... so much... but keep reminding myself that wishes r just blinks of the impossible that try to keep us sane. *sigh*

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