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so shit happens.... a lot! Oh well, right? What can u do when life constantly hands u a platter of unsatisfactory shit? Now if everyone was in the same boat, maybe I wouldnt' feel so bad, or if those who were getting it better actually appeared to appreciate it or work for it, but no what bothers me is that those who get it tend to not appreciate it or don't work for it. They go about life, carelessly, complaining, oblivious, ignorant, immature, and don't care about others. So i realized that maybe I just have a huge ego and think that the amount I am willing to give is more than what the normal joe gives, but then again I have rarely experienced the sort of giving that I feel I give. sooo big ego meghan realizes that maybe all that caring, continuous support, forgiving, and whatnot is NOT worth it! I mean, why should I care so much when it is never reciprocated. I used to tell myself that it was bc i am a better person. Is it that or is it just that I am stubborn as all get out? trusting ppl too much and then not learning when I get nothing in return... well I shouldn't say nothing, bc I do get some things, but not what I want.... so maybe THAT is my problem, I expect to recieve what I give, EXACTLY what I give, but everyone is only capable of giving what THEY can give. What I can give is very different from what THEY can give... I shouldn't expect a mirror image, bc no one is the same. wooh, glad I got that sorted out...

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School was ok.. spanish sucked sooo much! After school, stayed till 3:45pm then went to babysitting, her soccer practice got canceled so we went back to the house, chilled then went to swimming practice. Went to Giant to get dinner, candy for the ftball team, n food for tomorrow. Came to Harbour coffeehouse with ash, bc I was craving a visit! shit, I burned my whole mouth, man I want some coffee but I guess hot choc will have to do since i want to fall asleep tonight. Forgot my stupid hw in the car... dumb me. Oh well a nice night to relax. Game tomorrow, gonna be at school until we leave at 5pm. GOOD LUCK TROJANS! Some guy just decided to watch the matrix preview on the computer, some guy was here from Slippery Rock but I don't know where he went... I was gonna talk to him too. Sigh. No one is online... so I'm out.

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A long good ass day... school pretty much sucked. Twice I found myself near conversations about how much it takes for these ppl to get drunk, thier plans, preferred drinks, etc. How sad. Anywho, after school went to football practice, I didn't get really cold until 45 min left... and of course that was right after Jeff offered me his jacket. Mad winds out there. Chuck had me take the driving test for the golf cart... little did he know that I have NEVER driven (except that one time), even a go-cart.... but I passed the test. I don't know what I would've done if I had not driven that one time with leigh. I couldn't back up into the parking spot next to this 2003 Mitsubishi, so I just sort of got in a good position to drive into it, and asked, "ooops you wanted me to back up into it??" Got a tour of the middle school training room, crossed Homestead Road, made a Uturn, came back, and parked horribly. Whew... I have such poor driving skills, he prolly expected better. Too bad I didn't have a huge ass watter heater cuz I would totally have made the ftball team hot choc today... 5 ppl/coaches asked me if there was any haha. good times, got hw to do... and some warming up of the body, cuz i am freeeeezing! later, i'm out.

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I love lonnnnng days.... like today! Went to school, taped some ppl in the trainer's room, went down to the football practice from 3:30-5:30.... broch got hurt again, jeff's calf is acting up, this really annoying kid's ankle hurt, anthony needed his shoes taped, coach may wanted chuck to call dr. parrish, this other dude needed a knee pad, some 9th graders were locked out of the drying room, this soph developed hives, and it rained... i like the rain. Coach May told me to get his umbrella for myself, but I don't mind the rain at all. Then sopping wet, I walked into Journalism to do late layout until 6:30... got my page done except the column pictures and the editorial cartoon. Went to Giant to get my mom stuff, bought yogart and chicken for dinner, came home to eat... and now 7:35pm... I am going to start my hw until Gilmore Girls comes on at 8, then can't watch One Tree Hill bc I have so much hw to do. My day was very productive and busy... I like those days. As a side note, I have to have chuck look at my foot, bc while running back and forth all during practice, my toe/foot acted up reallllllly bad... not good. So yeah, have no clue what to do about that. sigh... ok, well, I'm out.

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Yes indeed, this girl right here experienced her first time driving!!!!!! woohoooo! So I went out with Liegh and Milica last nightm, just chiliin, looking for things to do with NO money. We decided on window shopping at the Hershey Outlets, but once we got there they wre closed. So i made mention that the parking lot is a really good place to learn to drive... so Leigh hopped out of the car, and let me drive!!! I was like, "umm, now what do I do??" So I got the hang of it and after 10 min I thought I was doing pretty well at like probably 25mph haha I kind of forgot to look in any of the mirrors or speedometer... but I made a turn badly and bumped into the damn curb.. luckily it only hit her tire... wooh. So that was the end of that. then we went to ETOWN and chilled with some of Leigh's old friends, watched Identity at some guy's house and left around 10pm , went to wendy's got some food and came home. godo times. I can't believe I went driving!!!! Sooo much fun, so stressful too. Leigh is so awesome! So moral of the story, when u are bored out of ur mind, bring ME driving!

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