Is that a kind of occupational hazard of soul mates ? One's not much without the other ?
- what dreams may come
Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach
"I'll love you till the ocean is folded and hung up to dry" -W.H Auden
I'll wait so longingly for you to need me... want me... notice me...
"If looks be the reflections of the mind, the thoughts that in that head are not what they used to be- those thoughts which I knew so well." - De Maupassant in "A Family"
Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
If you don't laugh at yourself, life is going to seem a lot longer than you want it to.
-garden state
Just to look in your eyes again
Just to lay in your arms
Just to be the first one always there for you
Just to live in your laughter
Just to sing in your heart
Just to be everyone of your dreams come true
Just to sit by your window
Just to touch in the night
Just to offer a prayer each day for you
Just to long for your kisses
Just to dream of your sighs
Just to know that Id give my life for you
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just to wake up each morning
Just to you by my side
Just to know that you're never really far away
Just a reason for living
Just to say I adore
Just to know that you’re here in my heart to stay
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just the words of a love song
Just the beat of my heart
Just the pledge of my life, my love, for you
Hobbies peer educating, road trips, dancing at Ghost Riders, music, listening), going on random excursions. College Slippery Rock, I Like french vanilla cappaccino, pineapple, buffalo chicken, walking in the rain, looking at the stars, watching the sun set, going for long hikes, being around kids, chocolate, mexican food, random road trips, card night I don't Like heights, the dropping feeling on amusement park rides, people who think that they are better than everyone, humidity, olives, people who don't use turn signals
Believe- gavin degraw
more than anyone- gavin degraw
meaning- gavin degraw
folow through- gavin degraw
I'll be- Edwin McCain
The reason- Hoobastank
Iris- Googoodolls
It only hurts when I'm breathing- Shania Twain
Running away- Hoobastank
100 years- five for fighting
blurry- puddle of mud
wonderwall- oasis
champaign supernova- oasis
someday- nickleback
dremaing of u -selena
1st cut is the deepest- sheryl crow
For you to notice- dashboard
My immortal- evanescence
Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
I'll follow the sun- Beatles
Walk Alone- Green Day
Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
can't stop - red hot chili peppers
saliva- rest in pieces
crash and burn- savage garden
every breath u take- the police
White Flag- Dido
One thing- Finger 11
Collide
Drift away- uncle kracker
When a man loves a woman
drops of jupiter- train
let it be- beatles
the dance- garth brooks
she's in love with the boy- garth brooks
If i'm not in love- faith hill
breath- faith hill
there you'll be- faith hill
cry- faith hill
I melt- rascal flats
i'm movin on- rascal flats
these days- rascal flats
love you outloud- rascal flats
Let's be us again- lonestar
amazed- lonestar
I need you- LeAnne Rimes
she's my kind of rain- tim mcgraw
i like, i love it- tim mcgraw
when a man loves a woman
wonderful tonight
unchained melodies
say a lil prayer
aint no mnt high enough
faithfully- journey
open arms- journey
the best parents in the world! ftball games, going for walks, going out to dinner, card night, my FRIENDS, awesome conversations, the ability to experience life to the fullest.
lose 20
sell back book
make mom's cd
clean room/bthroom
gym gym gym
visit eric, becca, kate, katie, kara
Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
I'll be there...always
...I am trying to lose weight, but it keeps on finding me. -author unknown
| Monday. 6.21.04 4:03 pm I believe...
Woke up, took a shower and BIKED to Courtney's house! It is so nice outside so I just HAD to. Took me 35 minutes. Then we biked to Giant, got drinks and put jellybeans on Tom's car since he was working. Little did we know that he was going to come out and eat them! Biked back to Court's, Tim came and we ate leftovers from her party, hung out, drove back to Giant to make sure the jellybeans didn't melt and seep into the engine, played some xbox (at which I am horrrrible at), Dave W came over and now that is what Logan (court's bro), Tim, Court and Dave are doing right now. I am contently tired right now and could very easily fall asleep. I want to bike home again but I will prolly fall asleep on the way. There's only one thing that could make me more content right now...*sigh* Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday. 6.20.04 11:28 pm Chris and I decided on the way home that instead of "absense makes the heart grow fonder" it would more likely make sense to be "absense makes the heart say, 'aw screw it' " So Court's party was fun... merengue, get told by my drunk boss that I should hook up with David A, cards, mmm food and then around 10:30 I felt like I hit a brick wall. I am kind of having trouble breathing, I think it might be from the cleaner stuff from work. Anywho, goodnight. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday. 6.20.04 2:47 pm Worked for 4 1/2 hours today- I don't understand how some people can be so messy, or why they left a frozen chicken in their freezer, or who could sleep in a bed with that many crumbs, or why I am eating partly stale doritos right now... anyways, I gotta take a shower and then I am heading off to Court's grad party. Too bad I can't swim today... hahah but bc David A apparently knows all about periods and everything or anything that goes along with that sort of topic, we now all know that well ummm... hmm if u want to know, ask me. Let's just say now I am not so worried. hahah. Wooh, so the weather (always a topic I bring up when I can't think of anything else) is absolutely gorgeous today! perfect I'd say. Oh man, also I have added to my 'to do list for life'... hiking in the Grand Canyon! David A brought back this picture of the grand canyon from his trip to CA this past week, and ooooooooh my goodness! I couldn't stop gawking at the beauty of it. But yea after my awesome drive to Gettysburg yest with the family I came home and walked the dog, david drove up, "whose the girl in the blue hat?" "hello stranger", court and tom came soon after. We tried to tune my guitar, but to no avail... yet. Everyone was pooped so we watched Sex in the City yet again. Had a very interesting discussion about tampons and sex. hehe. Cleared up sa few concerns we were having. hummmm, nothin else. Enjoy ur day! Comment! (0) | Recommend! It's the best explaination I can give Friday. 6.18.04 10:10 pm *Partly bc I am constantly trying to fill this abyss that has recently been taunting me with the slightest possibility of being filled- yet never will be. Partly bc I want control in times when I feel I have none. It just shows the degree of hunger one can have and yet bc of engrained views and mentalities from before we could walk, the recipricol degree of self remorse/hatred for fulfilling that hunger, whatever it is. I know that what I want I cannot get now... I just have to live with that. In the mean time I have no other way of dealing with my emotions than this... and I don't like how it is interfering with my life. I am sorry I had to leave Jake's party, but I had to. I felt sick bc I felt sick, not bc I was, if that makes sense. I shouldn't feel that way about anything, but what started in the summer of 8th grade, although I have not the discipline to ever fall back in old footsteps, the mentality is there stronger than ever. I realized this week that as happy as I am with my life and who I have become as a person, there is definately one thing about myself that I never have been and am not content or comfortable with at all. It keeps me from believing in so many things that I think THAT might be the reason why I continually doubt the possibility of something wonderful ever happening to me, and I shouldn't be blaming the words or actions of others for creating that doubt. It's frusterating even more bc I know that I should not feel this way, that I should, by this time in my life, know that value, importance, honor, respect and desirability do not depend or should not depend on one thing... yet to expect others to know that or accept that has seemed too hard an expectation so maybe that is why I am giving in. That's the best I can do for now... Comment! (0) | Recommend! Friday. 6.18.04 9:28 pm Friday. 6.18.04 12:03 pm It's a constant road of hopes and dissapointments... one that I am forging thru bc I still have hope that the end is worth it.
I can't wait till college! or till i get my pay check, or see my cousins today, or go to MD July 8th hopefully, or go to Dewey beach for a week, or finish my pop's father's day gift... or even be able to see the bottom of my bedroom floor again. I need bugspray, two grad gifts, suntan lotion, a beach bag, a bathing suit, and sunglasses. No, what I really need is my health, happiness, friends company and family's love. Comment! (0) | Recommend! |
