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Right now I wish...
the world was flat
Quotes of the day
Is that a kind of occupational hazard of soul mates ? One's not much without the other ?
- what dreams may come

Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach

"I'll love you till the ocean is folded and hung up to dry" -W.H Auden

I'll wait so longingly for you to need me... want me... notice me...

"If looks be the reflections of the mind, the thoughts that in that head are not what they used to be- those thoughts which I knew so well." - De Maupassant in "A Family"

Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.

If you don't laugh at yourself, life is going to seem a lot longer than you want it to.
-garden state
For you-- John Denver
Just to look in your eyes again
Just to lay in your arms
Just to be the first one always there for you
Just to live in your laughter
Just to sing in your heart
Just to be everyone of your dreams come true

Just to sit by your window
Just to touch in the night
Just to offer a prayer each day for you
Just to long for your kisses
Just to dream of your sighs
Just to know that Id give my life for you
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you

Just to wake up each morning
Just to you by my side
Just to know that you're never really far away
Just a reason for living
Just to say I adore
Just to know that you’re here in my heart to stay

For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you

Just the words of a love song
Just the beat of my heart
Just the pledge of my life, my love, for you
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Hobbies peer educating, road trips, dancing at Ghost Riders, music, listening), going on random excursions.

College Slippery Rock,

I Like french vanilla cappaccino, pineapple, buffalo chicken, walking in the rain, looking at the stars, watching the sun set, going for long hikes, being around kids, chocolate, mexican food, random road trips, card night

I don't Like heights, the dropping feeling on amusement park rides, people who think that they are better than everyone, humidity, olives, people who don't use turn signals

awesome cd in mind
Believe- gavin degraw
more than anyone- gavin degraw
meaning- gavin degraw
folow through- gavin degraw
I'll be- Edwin McCain
The reason- Hoobastank
Iris- Googoodolls
It only hurts when I'm breathing- Shania Twain
Running away- Hoobastank
100 years- five for fighting
blurry- puddle of mud
wonderwall- oasis
champaign supernova- oasis
someday- nickleback
dremaing of u -selena
1st cut is the deepest- sheryl crow
For you to notice- dashboard
My immortal- evanescence
Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
I'll follow the sun- Beatles
Walk Alone- Green Day
Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
can't stop - red hot chili peppers
saliva- rest in pieces
crash and burn- savage garden
every breath u take- the police
White Flag- Dido
One thing- Finger 11
Collide
Drift away- uncle kracker
When a man loves a woman
drops of jupiter- train
let it be- beatles
country cd in mind
the dance- garth brooks
she's in love with the boy- garth brooks
If i'm not in love- faith hill
breath- faith hill
there you'll be- faith hill
cry- faith hill
I melt- rascal flats
i'm movin on- rascal flats
these days- rascal flats
love you outloud- rascal flats
Let's be us again- lonestar
amazed- lonestar
I need you- LeAnne Rimes
she's my kind of rain- tim mcgraw
i like, i love it- tim mcgraw
favorite oldies cd
when a man loves a woman
wonderful tonight
unchained melodies
say a lil prayer
aint no mnt high enough
faithfully- journey
open arms- journey
I am happy because
new friends
What I am greatful for
the best parents in the world! ftball games, going for walks, going out to dinner, card night, my FRIENDS, awesome conversations, the ability to experience life to the fullest.
to do...
lose 20
sell back book
make mom's cd
clean room/bthroom
gym gym gym
visit eric, becca, kate, katie, kara
currently...
Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.

I'll be there...always

...I am trying to lose weight, but it keeps on finding me. -author unknown
I never thought it'd be me... I still don't.
Saturday. 4.23.05 9:53 am
It took three strikes for me to learn.... yet I still can't comprehend the severity of the situation, the fact that I was used, abused, taken advantage of, and that my unconditional trust in people really isn't worth it and just gets not only me hurt (physically and mentally) but it really hurts those people that care about me as well. I hate that I come in and alawys have bad news and know that it upsets my roomie... I also hate how I didn't listen to people's skepticism and advise, even that of my own boyfriend, and ended up in exactly the situation they said I would be in if I continued to be friends with this person. And the extent that people will go to to LIE about what they did. Dude, I was awake, I felt it, I felt it fuckin THREE times. Then people ask me, why didn't you punch him, why didn't you scream? The truth is, it took me the amount of time it took him to do that to me two times to THINK of a plan... and since I am not aggressive-- verbally or physically, all I could come up with was walk out of the room and go home. So by time number three that is what I did, only to get a call later asking, "why'd u walk out? what's going on? I did WHAT? I was sleeping till u walked out, I would NEVER do that, I would never fuck up three times after u gave me 2 more chances.. I promised" You lost... you lost me and the respect of all of my friends. You lost out on a great experience to be part of all of our lives.

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stuck here
Monday. 4.18.05 10:29 pm
Once again... I feel so helpless, so tied down by my geographical location, by my inability to just take a car and drive right now 5 hours east to the one person I care about most next to my parents. I'm sorry I have spent so much time listening to other people. I am sorry that I made you feel like what you were doing for me/us wasn't a big deal. It IS a big deal and I couldn't be happier if I tried that you will be joining me next year at school. I know and understand the sacrifices you are making of your family, your friends, your comfort zones, and I wish I could make it easier for you. I'm sorry I can't be there right now for you. Maybe it's not me that you need, maybe you need your friends. They are there for you. I am not. I want nothing more than for you to feel like you can express everything and anything you ever want, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant. I WANT to hear you. Picking battles is not about bottling stuff up inside of you until it bursts, it's something I need to do more of and you need to do less of. We handle things differently, where I tend to be impuslive and u tend to be passive... how about evening that out?

"I have said nothing because there is nothing I can say that would describe how I feel as perfectly as you deserve it.”

If only it could be expressed in words sweetheart...."A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous."- Ingrid Bergmen

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there's a breeze
Monday. 4.18.05 5:16 pm
There's a GOOD change in the air... seriously, that was so ironic... silly caitlin, I swear she has a sixth sense sometimes, maybe it is the whole connection to God *shrug*.

Today I really didn't do anything productive except start my goodbye letter to Amanda and look up what my ring size is haha, it is 6 1/2 which I thought it might be cuz that is the same as my shoe size most of the time. But yea, I almost started crying while trying to think of all the things I wanted to say to my roomie before she leaves. I think part of my funk mood is me dealing with leaving college for the summer and the people I have come to care so much about.

*nod* I understand now. I love you.
... off to begin the rest of my night.

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some good ppl stay good.. thank goodness!
Monday. 4.18.05 1:20 am
Life lessons might hurt but... overall in the end there are those you love, and more importantly, those that love you. Thank you.

"we gotta watch out for each other" I couldn't have imagined for a better college group

Mistake are the portals to discovery... aint that the truth, we just gotta find the reasons and be open to that discovery. (those mistakes are referencing to stuff with Mike, just to clarify)

I just finished talking to one of my favorite people I grew up with and danced with for oh so many years, Laurel! Oh my gosh, she is graduating from college this year!!! I can't believe we have aged so much... she is with her bf she was with in high school and after taking one year off,they have been together for another three years. I remember how perfect they were together. I also remember how thoughtful and amazing Laurel was and I was so happy to hear that she is just as amazing as she was 4 years ago.

I felt like I was talking to my older sister, or even mother. We talked about school, friends, guys, "is he wonderful?" -- such a typical laurel question that really made me smile. We've both had similar experiences while never even experiencing the same life which makes me think that perhaps everyone at some point in their existance does experience the same things, the same temptations, the same challenges and what determines where they go from there is how they deal with these things. I have found myself in situations recently i never thought I'd be in. But wow... so refreshing to talk to her. To hear the same advise I have heard for the past eight months, but to hear it from her really makes me think. It for some reason, doesnt make me think that I am making the wrong choice, but that I am allowed to be confident in my own decisionsand will too, if I make a mistake, find the right one, n that things will work out. She had to go thru a bad relationship to find out that the right one was the one she had in high school, so I guess the morale of that part of the convo was to protect myself, make sure I am happy (which I am), and let things fall into place as they should. I am really inspired, Laurel really has good energy.

*** I can't believe I have connected to so many old friends over the past three days, made so many decisions and experienced so many things... I really feel like reality is slipping thru my fingers. Sometimes I catch myself walking somewhere and "waking up" to a different world, wondering, where I am going, or where I came from... and that is not meant in a metaphorical sense either. I shouldn't mention that my memory is getting worse either... haha. I feel like sometimes I am living in such different lives, all at once. Suddenly my pre school/middle school life is coming back to me while my life consuming memories of dancing are being relived, while I am "living" out college both here at school and another life at home. If I have a mental breakdown soon, this would be why.***

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fucked
Saturday. 4.16.05 9:07 am
Perhaps I know what I should do... but how does one find the strength or assurance do it? Amanda, you are truely my strength when I have none, and I don't have any clue as to how I am going to survive next year without you.

How many ways can Meghan fuck up? Well, let me count the ways... I dissappoint my closest friends here, I make dangerous, bad decisions that I know I shouldn't have made while I was making them, I am being compulsive and dishonest, I am theee biggest hypocrit of the whole freakin world, I do not deserve anyone right now, where the HELL did my morales go?, I am turning into the person I never wanted to be, I am not listening to my intution because it is too scary, my actions are speaking louder than words, I am not being strong enough to do the right thing... I am hurting people, including myself.

Ever wake up and feel like if you could only go back to sleep and wake up without ever having done what you did or let anything happen to you? or if you could scrub the dirtiness from your skin that you think is on the outside but is really inside you could atone for your sins? I tried, it doesn't work.

I don't want to throw away the good, I just want to know if there is better... this is what happens when u never got something your entire life and then you get it in the wrong form at the wrong time... u don't know what to do with it.

Lesson of the year: don't judge others' actions, because soon enough you will be doing the same damn thing. This is why forgiveness is important. I finally forgive you.

It's the friends who in the times when u can't just ask anyone, can't just go to anyone, can't just spill out ur heart because u have no idea what it is feeling... those are the friends who helped me today.

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our room was THE place to be last night
Tuesday. 4.12.05 12:39 pm
No one ever comes to visit us esp at night, however last night I had tons of ppl in our room. "meghan, did you know that a plane crashed in warren?!" *five minutes later someone knocks on the door* meghan, did you know that a plane crashed in warren?!... repeat that times 20 and u will know how my night went last night plus some drama with a cd and random room phone calls. Add in talk about dental dams, closet doors, exit signs and kara walking into my room at 12am slamming the door shut and crying out, "he had a boner!" I don't understand... *sigh* 3 1/2 more weeks... then home.

It's nice not to have my future planned out anymore, however I think it is also causing for some slippage. Everything will right itself soon enough and I have so many people backing me up in everything in my life, telling me that I will do the right thing, that I am a good person, that I can get anywhere I want in my life... and I appreciate that even if I am not so sure.

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