.... *shrug*

Went to run some quick errands n got some guitar strings. On the way out of the store however, we got caught in a DOWN POUR, complete with gusts of wind and all. I got SOAKED, in my white capris and all, "hey that's what underwear is for right?" Looked like I just got out of the shower. As we drove home the rain kind of slowed down and by the time I was dropped off at my door it was sprinkling... it IS perfect walking rain.

11pm- Went to the Cocoa Grill with David W and Tom. Had my two cups of coffee. Tim and Cary met up with us. As they left Tom and I stayed and caught up with Laine and Carrie for TWO hours! I love talking to them about stuff... we always laugh but at the same time talk about serious stuff and they are so understanding. One thing we all have in common is that we all know ourselves. *happy sigh* So tonight (3 1/2 hours) which I thought would be boring like my day turned out to be 100% awesome. Thanks for the hug dude, and thanks to my friends who (as we discussed the diff meanings of love tonight) I can honestly say to most of them, I love you. There are qualities about you that I cherish, admire and bring out a better part in me.

things are working out with u two... and that makes me happy... P.S. ur such a romantic. *wink* she will/should be very happy.

Pick up of the day-
"ok ok, someone needs a hug tonight..."
"*nod* the sad thing is, I do."
"there's nothing wrong with that"
"hehe, cuz hugs are the cOoLeSt *sigh* :("
--Thank you.

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wow that was weird... one of my entries was deleted over nite... so I guess what I had said just wasn't meant to be read? Perhapsss. fate is weird like that. Woke up this morning around 9 am to my mom sitting on my bed asking me what color sheets/comforter I wanted. Then she calls up the stairs for me to walk the dog. Go back to sleep, woke up around 1pm and decided to get up just bc it was so late. Got the daily "while on break phone call" just now. Gonna go to the mall to get guitar strings around 4:30. Getting pretty nervous about my driver's test tomorrow cuz I NEED to pass. Other than that, just trying to live another day as it comes... no thinking, analyzing or getting involved. It's quite the boring way to live, but it is the way I have chosen right now.

Amazing- Josh Kelly
You paint a picture on the wall
Cause you've got a lot to tell me
but you don't think you could say it better oh baby

You're bringing up times I can't recall
And I'm sure they made your point
but I just can't seem to remember yeah

And I know you got the feeling
and I can't say I'm agreeing
with your topic of conversation
So just listen to the reasons
and the handset I've been giving
to the thoughts of my imagination

(CHORUS)
So come on let me see
I say baby you are amazing
I want to let you see
that you are everything and more to me
I will let you be I will I will

Cause I saw you walking down the hall
and I had a lot to tell you
but I didn't think you could say it better oh baby

You're good at makin me feel so small
and I know you made your point
but I just don't want to remember yeah

and I know you've got the feelin
and I cant say I'm agreein with your topic of conversation
So just listen to the reasons
and the hints that I've been given
to the thoughts of my imagination

Cause I'm dancing around
in your world of play
I'm takin my time to make sure you stay
I would give my life to make it okay yeah

So come on let me see...

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Today
18 loved their room key so much they took it with them.
22 called in claiming that they have a "medical condition" that required them to bring an unauthorized dog into their room which got hair alll over the place and only then revealed to us this "medical condition" after he was charged for the room damages. "He wasted 25 minutes of my fuckin day!"
Last week
45 stole the phone.
28 is "an odd breed"
36 kicked Melissa n Logan out of her room but was "only in there for 3 minutes!" so why didn't we give her towels after she was done?! and ooops, was the walkie talkie in there too?
41 leaves a $50 tip!
A diff 45 left their room "completely trashed, I want to kill them!" "Courtney, they were in the office just now and heard everything u said."

... ah yes, the ridiculous life of working at a hotel. Today was hell... I did 22 rooms pretty much on my own (while one of the guys did the bathroom) then did all of East outside cleaning and stocking... but I was out by 1:30. It's only gonna get worse and Christy threatened to keep a Diary for Tom (the owner) about these next 10 days that they are away telling about all the shit going on, hehe. I think it would hilarious if she really did. "They're on vacation, they aren't even in the country anymore! Everyone deserves a vacation now and then isn't that right?! (as Christy tries to get thru the thick skull of this "medically conditioned dude")"

EDIT 6:16pm- went and played ultimate frisbee with Tom, Tim, Eric and Ana (?) Larson, and their friend. It was crazily hot out but soooooo much fun! I haven't had that much good outdoors fun in a whiiiile. I walked back to the car drenched and disgusting which just made that shower soon after ever so awesome, *sigh*. Around 7:30 going out with the boyzzzz to dinner at JoJo's and then the coffeeshop (prolly meeting up with Ana [whew, raising the numbers of female representation tonight] after she gets out of work there). Another grueling day of work tomorrow... laterrrr, feel free to drop a line tonight.

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If I could explain it I would... right here right now... but I can't. This is when a glance, a certain look, a glimpse of something in one's eye, tells what words cannot. For now, space is what I can give, so I will. Time is ahead and there is nothing I can do, so I shall wait. Sometimes those two things can heal what words cannot... I just have to let it happen.

Bon Voyage Court and family... Buenos Dias stress.

Thanks for always keeping my head on my shoulders and telling me it was ok to let my heart fly away. For always keeping an optimistic look at things and re enforcing my own belief that it is better to have taken the chance for something marvelous even tho the dissapointment is gonna be hell... for always believing in people. It's funny how when I go to you for advise about an insecurity I have, u give me my words back that had helped u thru the same one.

me: I have thought about everything so much I don't think I can reasonably look at the situation anymore with clarity bc I think I have screwed so much of things out of whack... cuz i'd over analyze and i think that is where i went wrong. i doubted everything because I never thought it would be possible for anyone to feel the same as i did and thru my own insecurity gave the idea that i really didn't care.
tom: yeah... i used to do that too, you know what really really helped me?
me: what
tom: something on your site actually, you posted a quote about wisdom a guy picked up or something, and one of the things read something like "at age 30 I realized that some people can love you so much but not know how to show it" or something.

I can't find the actually quote anymore, but here's a related one... "Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

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Just maybe...
I still want you
I don't want to give up
I wasn't fair
You mean too much
we can work things out

Just maybe...
I had to make the wrong decision to know what the right one is

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"You see," he says to the girl, "you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too-even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling." -tuesdays with morrie

Daniel: So what's the problem, Samuel? Is it just Mum or is it something else? Maybe... school - are you being bullied? Or is it something worse? Can you give me any clues at all?
Sam: You really want to know?
Daniel: I really want to know.
Sam: Even though you won't be able to do anything to help?
Daniel: Even if that's the case.
Sam: OK. The truth is actually... I'm in love.
Daniel: Sorry?
Sam: I know I should be thinking about Mum all the time, and I am. But the truth is I'm in love and I was before she died, and there's nothing I can do about it.
Daniel: Aren't you a bit young to be in love?
Sam: No.
Daniel: Oh, OK, right. Well, I'm a little relieved.
Sam: Why?
Daniel: Well, you know - I thought it might be something worse.
Sam: [incredulous] Worse than the total agony of being in love?
Daniel: Oh. No, you're right. Total agony.
-love actually

[Aurelia jumps into the lake with hardly any clothes on to save Jamie's book]
Jamie: Oh God, she's in. And now she'll think I'm a total spaz if I don't go in too.
[takes off his sweater]
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] Fuck. It's cold.
[Jamie falls in]
Jamie: Fuck. It's freezing! Fuck!
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] This stuff better be good.
Jamie: It's not worth it you know, this isn't bloody Shakespeare.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] I don't want to drown saving some shit my grandmother could have written.
Jamie: Just stop, stop.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] What kind of idiot doesn't make copies?
Jamie: I really must do copies.
Jamie: You know, there'd better not be eels in here. I can't stand eels.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] Try not to disturb the eels.
Jamie: [Jamie screams in shock because of the eels] Oh God, what the hell is that?
-love actually

Gandalf: ...that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.
-lotr

Paige: Could you please put a shirt on or something?
Eddie: If you're going to be a doctor, you're going to have to get used to naked men.
-prince and me

John Keating: Why do we need language?
Neil: To communicate...
John Keating: Nooo! To woo women!
-dead poet's society

[Keating is standing on his desk]
John Keating: Why do I stand up here?
Dalton: To feel taller!
John Keating: No! I stand upon my desk to remind myself that we must constantly look at things in a different way.
-dead poet's society

Paul: I believe the imagination is the passport that we create to help take us into the real world. I believe the imagination is merely another phrase for what is most uniquely us. Jung says, "The greatest sin is to be unconscious."
-6 degrees of seperation

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