My uterus hurts...
We are all starting to see the effects of females living together, on the same floor that is, and especially between friends/roommates. When one gets it, everyone gets it. Must be quite amusing for the janitorial staff. haha. Another thing about college is that when a girl receives a care package from a friend or parnent, there is always bound to be 1) chocolate 2) tampons etc 3) whatever the real purpose of sending the package was. I should be getting my winter coat soon.

Every month there is always one day when everything is going on.. this month it is Nov 2nd- pre pt meeting, ex science majors mtg, magician show at 8, presentation in ex sc, not to mention 2 classes and lab, and I am sure there is more. I didn't sleep very well last night, just due to the fact that my hair was up instead of free flowing, the oddity of it kept waking me up. Everyone this morning who lives in Bard was talking about the "gun shot" heard last night around midnight, yet no one knows what it was.

Topic of lunch today, as it is everyday when I sit with Diana and (I'm so bad with names, I forget her name) was rings. It's interesting to just sit back and listen which is what I do every time rather than partake, besides, I'm too busy eating. hehe. The materialistic attitude some ppl have sort of disgusts me. The "all I care about is a huge diamond on my finger" aura. I mean it is obviously a topic that crosses every girl's mind at one time in their life whether or not they are with someone, but at least for me, that phase came and went pretty darn fast, I think within one class period of study hall where I joined in on the "looking on the internet for the perfect ring". Then I was done. I'd like to think that the sentiment behind the bigger concept of choosing to be with someone for the rest of your life is more important and romantic even than a big ol' rock protruding from ur small finger. Sure, it is tradition to have a ring, but for me, I don't need to flash around a BIG expensive ring to show my devotion or commitment, all I would think about is the fact that the gem keeps getting caught on things like my sweater, or hair etc. I think ppl can tell just by how u act how genuine or thoughtful the promise is. You could even look at how celebrity's huge ass gem didn't promise a wonderful marriage, cuz they definitely ended quick enough. To want something only for the sake of wanting it and showing it off defeats and I think undermines the whole reason/meaning behind the ring. Ok, end of schpeal.

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Sometimes it is hard to tell... where I stop and you begin, or if what I am thinking are my thoughts or yours, or whether my tears are because of something in my life or because of something in yours, or if I smile at something I see or because I am thinking about you, if I fall alseep at night alone or by your side...

I... don't know what to say. Besides that it is disappointing, it is more... disheartening. Very much so. Not because anyone necessarily is entitled to have expectations of a friend, but because the reasons behind doing somethings is that there is some unhappiness or discontentment that they are trying to fill... and that is disheartening. I am starting to see more and more my friends lose sight of who they were, and I know that we all grow up sometimes into ppl who we weren't, but I'd like to believe that those ppl who we once were are our true selves, the ones not pressured by others, ourselves or society's stresses that forces us into something we are not. Old habits die hard, I know. I just always hoped that for those I care about, that they could find some way of not having to rely on them and move on, further, better, because all I ever want for any of you is the best. The best quality of life, the best happiness, the best you can be.

Pessimism sometimes just pisses me off... especially when it is due to ignorance.

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Oh my gosh... our hallway is INSANE! It is freakishly awesome tho, I am gonna take pictures tomorrow. OUR door on the other hand, is... one of a kind. It started off saying "BOOO... the end" then amanda added what she calls, "love clumps" of spider web, (she just threw a football at me!) leaves, and some silly story that goes along with it. The corn stalks were a fire hazard supposedly. I got my pict back from the summer, football game, and a few other random things that I just put in my handy dandy photo book that my mom sent me. Today I had .. akward experience # 2... and I don't understand why it is so complicated to be just friends. Anyway, I really do like college life. But right now my roomie is trying to sleep and I have a date in my dreams to go meet, so I am off.

Thought of the day: Being a girl is so... haha but I wouldn't trade it for the world!

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Some people drink to escape... I think sleeping is slightly a better choice. Unfortunately I have not been sleeping to escape but just bc I am tired, so yes, *bows head in defeat* tomorrow when I find time in b/w 4 classes and a meeting I will visit the health center again and ask to get my blood checked for mono.

The imagination is one of the strongest powers humans have...It can bring two people who are 300 miles apart right next to each other. It can make what is not possible, bareable.

... 4 1/2 weeks down, 4 1/2 to go... in the mean time... sometimes I still feel as if I am in a dream, and I wonder if whoever's it is, if they are enjoying it... because I know I am.

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Today was... nice. Woke up around 9am, got dressed, got Ryan, met up with Jared and Emily, and so them plus Amanda and myself walked to breakfast. I guess I eat slowly, but I think it is just that I eat so much food that it takes me so long to get thru it all. Alllmost got caught taking the salt shaker up with my tray. Then Emily and Amanda went back to the dorm bc they did not want to watch the parade so the rest of us walked to find a spot, met up with Dave who was harrassed out of bed by Katie calling him every 5 min to get up. Watched the parade which was... not so wonderful, but oh well, we went, supported Kate, Kaite and Kara who were with their (dun dun dun 2nd place finish) SARB float! Ghoast busters indeed! Thennn went back to the dorm, showered, waited for my rents who arrived around 1pm, they tailgated and made a yummy lunch, then we went to the FOOTBALL game where we lost majorly, ate some popcorn, got a back rub from the pops *smile*... Today was a good day with them, lots o smiles, back rubs, hugs, some conversing, football, got a "free" hat, went to dinner at Luigi's which was... interesting. Then said our goodbyes and they left. Amanda and I had some very good conversations about where she wants to go to college next year, her life path, her dreams, (hahaha getting married over the phone indeed), and then that led to a discussion about marriage, weddings, and impressions until Bethany came in to get her hair done for a party. Now we are the bums not going out on a Saturday night.... what to do, I think I migh suggest watching a movie.

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Monday
Personal Fitness 9-9:50am
College writing II 11-11:50am

Tuesday
Intro to psych 9:30-10:45am
Interpreting lit 11-12:15am
General chem. 2-3:15pm

Wednesday
Applied anatomy 8-8:50am
Personal fitness 9-9:50am
College Writing II 11-11:50am
Chem. Lab II 1-3:50pm

Thursday
Intro to psych 9:30-10:45
Interpreting Lit 11:12:15pm
General chem. 2-3:15pm

Friday
Applied anatomy 8-8:50am
Personal Fitness 9-9:50am
College Writing II 11-11:50am

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