It's a fact... I'm hopeless... and hopelessly ridiculous.

From my first moment you gave me wings
Let me fly and believed in my dreams
From that first moment you cherished me so
The journey through life would be hard with out you

I found these lyrics.. and they sort stunned me... wow that sounds really conceited...

If I were you
I'd think it over
Take your time
Before you leave
Everyone wants the perfect lover
If I were you
I'd fall in love with me- the judds

Oh wow! Dang, dudes u gotta take lessons from Tom...
TBSchaffer: dude card shopping, it makes me smile every time
meggyo86: that is awesome
TBSchaffer: yeah so.. i dunno, if we get to work things out then i'm definitely gonna get her more cards again
meggyo86: hehe
TBSchaffer: the thing is, i did for a bit, then i ran out, because i'd already used all the good ones Giant had
meggyo86: hahahhaha
TBSchaffer: but man, rhoad's pharmacy in hummelstown is a freakin' goldmine of great cards
meggyo86: oh man, i know!
TBSchaffer: and believe me, i'm picky, haha
TBSchaffer: flowers and cards man, they have to be perfect
TBSchaffer: otherwise it's just not right
meggyo86: awww!
TBSchaffer: hahaha
TBSchaffer: i mean, you can't just get a card with a sucky drawing
TBSchaffer: cause then it's like "man this is lame"

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Here we lay again
On two separate beds, riding phone lines
To meet a familiar voice and pictures drawn from memory
We reflect on miscommunications and misunderstandings
And missing each other too...
much to have had to let go
Turn our music down and we whisper,
"Say what you're thinking right now."
Jumping to conclusions
Made me fall away from you.
I'm so glad that the truth,
has brought back together me and you
We're sitting on the ground (sitting on the ground)
And we whisper, (and we whisper)
"Say what you're thinking out loud."-starting line

So I finally slept in today... till 12pm! (except for those brief interruptions from my dad who is stuck in Detroit) Now I just feel like I am totally wasting the day. I have not been outside yet but I want to bike to Court's house sometime. I had one nightmare I guess u could call it last night... I guess those spiders got to me. I also decided last night while I was reading this very good book that I want to take up rowing in college... however I doubt on a varsity level bc I will have just started. We shall see, but I am honestly interested! "small yet mighty" as I said abotu David's arms and as he said about me. It reminds me of another quote," I am not vertically challenged, I am spacially efficent."

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Well well well.... today was, all I can say, overall nice. Tim, Ana, Tom, Court, David W and Chris showed up at my house and we went out canoeing. I forgot how fast Tim drives and how cool Ana is to talk to. Being around them again made me suddenly have a new sense of humor. hehe. We were planning on only doing the 2 hour ride but the dude said that it was impossible to dock there so we went to the 4 hour dock instead... took us 3 1/4 hours to it. I was geting eaten alive by deerflies and for some reason my hand swelled up really bad and still is... 5 hours later... so after canoeing we went to David's house to change, (so I could look like a sexy chica *wink* in my new skirt) and we ventured off to Olive Garden for breadsticks, soup and salad all u can eat for $5.95! It was mighty delicious, but also bc we were starving by the time we got there since none of us ate breakfast and we didn't eat till 3. whew, "could we get some more breadsticks... could we get some more salad too.. could u just walk to the kitchen and back again?" Then before everyone fell asleep right there in the restaurant we went to Court's to crash and watched the 3rd LOFTR. I thought I would fall asleep but I didn't, just rocked back and forth in this nifty chair. hehe. Caught myself thinking occasionally what it would be like if someone else were there watching it with us. Came home, had a bit of an upset in Tom's car... I hope he is ok, even tho now his tire isn't. So now I await the night... wondering what it has in store for me.

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Cry me a river.... because I cannot.

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Short day at work this morning. Got to use my spanish skills to communicate with one of the workers, hehe. I wish I had some school work to do for college, bc esp on the days I don't work, I have nothing to do... except spend my tips. Like tomorrow we are going out to lunch, we want to go canoeing, etc.

I've figured it out, thank goodness!

P ain in M y asS...

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I realized on the way home from dinner at Neato Burrito and the Cornerstone coffeeshop 30 min from here, that I am realllly going to miss some people. I love our car rides, our over coffee and meal discussions, our random adventures and carefree lifestyle. Our countless times when we need or give advise and it's not that I can't imagine not finding other amazingly perfect people that inspire me everyday and are there for me endlessly, but that I realized I don't WANT to lose them or have to find someone else to take their place in my life. I met them, some of them just recently and they have made my life so awesome that I cannot even describe it, if they can do that in a few months why the hell would I want to let them go now when we have so much more to live? I was so set to go off to college and meet new people, and now I suddenly don't want to... dang.

It seems like I am the only one to ever give anyone the benefit of the doubt, to excuse any fault or mistake they make, to give them another chance, to try and see the better part in them... and then if I get trampled on or hurt everyone points and says, "told u so." and I nod and say, "u were right, I won't do it again." but I do... and I do it over and over... and I don't know if I am not strong enough to change or if I can't. I'd like to think that it is bc I learned in a subconscious manner to love unconditionally, or that it makes me a better person, but really, it seems like from everyone else's point of view that i am just being a complete idiot who is setting myself up for dissapointment and pain. "Even if u learn what u don't want, that is worth learning."- carrie.

" I love talking to you... ever since I first met u I felt like we could connect and I feel so awesome after I'd talk and listen to you."- caitlin. I love conversations bc I love connecting with people, it is true. I dunno if our connections and understandings are bc I have been blessed enough to find people who share the same ideals and thoughts with me (however I am friends with very different people in a way) or if I someohow just make that connection possible... I think really that if people let me, we can make that connection.

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