Is that a kind of occupational hazard of soul mates ? One's not much without the other ?
- what dreams may come
Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach
"I'll love you till the ocean is folded and hung up to dry" -W.H Auden
I'll wait so longingly for you to need me... want me... notice me...
"If looks be the reflections of the mind, the thoughts that in that head are not what they used to be- those thoughts which I knew so well." - De Maupassant in "A Family"
Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
If you don't laugh at yourself, life is going to seem a lot longer than you want it to.
-garden state
Just to look in your eyes again
Just to lay in your arms
Just to be the first one always there for you
Just to live in your laughter
Just to sing in your heart
Just to be everyone of your dreams come true
Just to sit by your window
Just to touch in the night
Just to offer a prayer each day for you
Just to long for your kisses
Just to dream of your sighs
Just to know that Id give my life for you
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just to wake up each morning
Just to you by my side
Just to know that you're never really far away
Just a reason for living
Just to say I adore
Just to know that you’re here in my heart to stay
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just the words of a love song
Just the beat of my heart
Just the pledge of my life, my love, for you
Hobbies peer educating, road trips, dancing at Ghost Riders, music, listening), going on random excursions. College Slippery Rock, I Like french vanilla cappaccino, pineapple, buffalo chicken, walking in the rain, looking at the stars, watching the sun set, going for long hikes, being around kids, chocolate, mexican food, random road trips, card night I don't Like heights, the dropping feeling on amusement park rides, people who think that they are better than everyone, humidity, olives, people who don't use turn signals
Believe- gavin degraw
more than anyone- gavin degraw
meaning- gavin degraw
folow through- gavin degraw
I'll be- Edwin McCain
The reason- Hoobastank
Iris- Googoodolls
It only hurts when I'm breathing- Shania Twain
Running away- Hoobastank
100 years- five for fighting
blurry- puddle of mud
wonderwall- oasis
champaign supernova- oasis
someday- nickleback
dremaing of u -selena
1st cut is the deepest- sheryl crow
For you to notice- dashboard
My immortal- evanescence
Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
I'll follow the sun- Beatles
Walk Alone- Green Day
Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
can't stop - red hot chili peppers
saliva- rest in pieces
crash and burn- savage garden
every breath u take- the police
White Flag- Dido
One thing- Finger 11
Collide
Drift away- uncle kracker
When a man loves a woman
drops of jupiter- train
let it be- beatles
the dance- garth brooks
she's in love with the boy- garth brooks
If i'm not in love- faith hill
breath- faith hill
there you'll be- faith hill
cry- faith hill
I melt- rascal flats
i'm movin on- rascal flats
these days- rascal flats
love you outloud- rascal flats
Let's be us again- lonestar
amazed- lonestar
I need you- LeAnne Rimes
she's my kind of rain- tim mcgraw
i like, i love it- tim mcgraw
when a man loves a woman
wonderful tonight
unchained melodies
say a lil prayer
aint no mnt high enough
faithfully- journey
open arms- journey
the best parents in the world! ftball games, going for walks, going out to dinner, card night, my FRIENDS, awesome conversations, the ability to experience life to the fullest.
lose 20
sell back book
make mom's cd
clean room/bthroom
gym gym gym
visit eric, becca, kate, katie, kara
Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
I'll be there...always
...I am trying to lose weight, but it keeps on finding me. -author unknown
| Saturday. 12.20.03 11:22 pm Went shopping, worked on some xmas gifts, went shopping for my xmas gifts (so that I could pick them out for myself haha), then got picked up by David and Li, Caitlin, he and I went to the Allen. (many laughs, "where are we going?" "we're looking at christmas ligths! No we're going bowling!" Saw Ryan Smith right as i walked in, aww so cute. There was a weird de ja vu where I saw Aaron Smith with that same hat on, and everything.... weird. Listened to some good music, played and lost Egyptian Rat screw. I really liked the atmosphere, cool place indeed. So that was my night, now tomorrow I have to wake up early so I can have all day to work on xmas presents that are in major need of wrapping and making!! ahh! Then football banquet at 7. night all. Comment! (2) | Recommend! Saturday. 12.20.03 4:29 pm When u don't know the answers, start looking at your question, and see if it is fair to be asking.
Words of helpfulness from a friend: (i will used "X" for the person we are talking about) U always try to come up w/ reasons to justify what people do but i think u have every right to be pissed off . u try to see things their way too. u have to think of yourself sometimes. i understand where you're coming from, but.... the thing is, u cant get pissed at people for little things they do wrong, but when they do something big, then you can't think of them anymore.You have to think about yourself because if u keep thinking of others over yourself, it really is not going to pay off. i mean its a great concept that you're thinkin of others a lot, but you have to think about when do they do that for you? u are a really good friend meggy but if it is a true friendship, then people gotta reciprocate. (Me- that's what I am afraid of. they don't reciprocate it so it is easier to just live with it than to stop caring about someone when I care so much.) yeah i know how that is... which is why its hard to find people that you can call your true friends. you have to know what their limits are, because most people have so many problems of their own, and its not that they're bad people i just dont think they're capable of having the kind of friendship that you expect. a lot of these people are struggling with so many of their own problems that they probably dont even have time to think of anyone else... the kid really does have serious problems that "X" needs to resolve for "X"self and "X" cant think of other people when "X's" own life is a mess i suppose... (I know and that is why I can't hold it against "X", why I can't get mad, bc I have no problems really, so i am supposed to be the strong one.) i know you want to be a good friend to "X" because "X" needs one apparently, but you cant let that be hurtful to you in return... you can only do so much. (I want to help, I think that I can, that I am capable of loving enough to help. But most people don't want help) if "X" does, then you can make a difference, but right now.. we can just hope that "X" realizes that "X" should let you in. u care about "X" more than any of the people "X" hangs out. but i think that its come to the point where, u've really come through for "X". i know "X's" afraid of getting hurt by people, but honestly i dont think "X" has to worry about that w/you.
Comment! (0) | Recommend! things just aren't how they are supposed to be Friday. 12.19.03 8:16 pm Friday. 12.19.03 3:58 pm Can I just reitereate how much I hate not being able to drive! Trying to make plans for tonight... It shouldn't be the worst feeling ever, but it is.. I wish I could do something more. I know I can't when they don't want me to, and that is why my obsession with helping people isn't always good, I get too involved.
Tomorrow: last finishing christmas shopping, lacrosse open gym, and maybe cards.
It seems like no one could understand, yet I am here to try. If I can't understand at least let me support you while you fight and fall. When someone's with you, you can't hit the bottom, because I'm there to hit the bottom first..
Comment! (0) | Recommend! Thursday. 12.18.03 3:57 pm Saw Lord of the Rings: the Return of the King... all I got to say is, well a few things haha. First, it was awesome! You have to understand a lot from the book to really appreciate all that Jackson did with the film, but even if u don't know the inside stuff it is quite entertaining... all 3 hours and 20 minutes of it! Sean Astin's acting was amazing, "Pippen" has a beautiful singing voice, Orlando Bloom was only in 3 scenes so I wasn't able to gawk at his gorgeousness, I like how Liv Tyler isn't stick fucking skinny, Viggo Mortenson is wonderful, the scenery, costumes, makeup, stunts, etc surpassed amazment. But that is is the magic of LOTR I guess.
My mom and I got to the theater an hour before it started. I was 4th in line.. "I will have to remember this moment, as I stand FIRST in line to the Lord of the Rings movie. It will definately be a defining moment in my life."-- really cute guy standing infront of us with his cute gf. I also saw a guy who looked exactly like what Tim will look like 7 years from now.
Got in the mail my dad's annual box of chocolates that i eat from some guy he works with, and a Christmas smile from Caitlin! "Somehow, not only at Christmas, but all the long year through, the joy that you give to others, is the joy that comes back to you."- Whittier.
Comment! (0) | Recommend! I love meeting new people Wednesday. 12.17.03 3:37 pm Oh man, good times in study hall. "I forged my signature.." "that's a criminal offense, if the school were to turn that over to the police...." "ahhh! I'm going to court!" Silly silly Clint. First person to make me feel like I have a sense of humor, who loves food as much as I do and who laughs at like everything too. I ate so freakin much, I like binged at lunch today... damn. It started snowing during school, so i hope it stops so that I can still go see the Lord of the Rings : the return of the king tonight at 8pm... woohoo I am so excited. Orlando Bloom is gorgeous! Gorgeous means beyond beautiful, but if u look at the word, it is quite ugly. haha. Things are plain and boring... no highs from having freat connections with people, or awesome conversations. Things are at an absolute plateau, there is just nothing to talk about. Ftball banquet re-schedualed to this Sunday. Leigh's bday tomorrow. Got a gift card to FYE today in the mail from Mrs Segal, that was so nice of her. ok, well nothing else, i'm out. Comment! (2) | Recommend! |
