... to the sister I never had and the other half I can't be in Pitt... I know I can't always do what u know is best for me, or be who I should, so all I ask of you is to trust me. Over the past week I have gotten a different perspective on that word... trust. I realize that when I ask you to do that I am asking a whole lot. I am asking you to let me make mistakes. I don't expect you to be there always esp if I go against your advise, so don't feel like you have to be. I know how much u care and that everything u do and say is to protect me cuz u want the best for me. I am 18, almost 19 and none of us know where I will "ultimately" end up so have some faith that after most things are said and done I WILL have what you hope for me. I believe that, so I hope you can too.

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"You are an amazing person and never let anyone make u think otherwise."- the best roomie in the world!

Response to above-- "crying allows all the bad shit to come out and allows all the good stuff to fill you back up. I have come to accept that crying isnt a weakness, just a healthy stress reliever. I love you meg. and ur roommate is totally right, never, ever let anyone think u are less than perfect. You continue to amaze me with how strong you are and how much u have grown over the past few months...things always get better i swear. good luck with everything and call me whenever u need to." - court

"I need a kleenex" -me
*extends sleeve* -david w

"I'm doing the best i can... and being the best i can. God I hope it's enough"- me.
"It's more than enough for me bud *hug*"- Tom

"I just don't want to ever see you closing yourself off to something that could make you very happy and that u deserve." -kara

Small but mighty moments: stealing my phone, "I have a question for amanda about bananas", all night walk, *hug*s, feeling like I was funny in college writing class, early morning talks with no power... now I'm off to complie my portfolio and revise!

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Smile of the day- It's the small things that make a college student radiate... like mail! I just got my 'Spread Love' by 2 Skinny Dorks cd (which is amazing) annnnd a care package from my rents for finals!!! So I've got some more awesome tunes and food (which could be a bad thing, but oh well)

Quotes of the day- I'm gonna make change for once in my life, it's gonna feel good, it's gonna make a difference, it's gonna feel right... Who am I?I'm starting with that man in mirror and I am asking him to change his ways,... if u wanna make the world a better place take a look at urself and make that change. -2SD

A friendship that can cease has never been real - St Jermone

Hilarity of the day- Meghan, do u have an tearjerker movies? I need a good cry!- katie

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Quote of the day: "... the world is flooded for us both right now, but hey, we're here together with buckets getting the hell back to normal." -david w

Observance of the day: mini m&ms are so much more fun to eat than regular ones for some reason.

Thought of the day: What am I doing?... the only thing I can do, and everyone calls me crazy for it.

To do: sell back books, STUDY for chem, write self assessment, turn in chem lab *tear*, workout.

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woohoo I didn't sleep AT ALL. There is something invigorating about staying up all night. It was very nice walking in the rain for an hour and a half in the mighty dark around campus and the track. David W kept me company for 2 hours on the telephono which was greatly appreciated. Now I'm cold again so I think it is time to change and take a shower.

Light breaks underneath a heavy door
And I try to keep myself awake
Fall all around us on our hotel floor
And you think that you've made a mistake
And there's a pain in my stomach from another sleepless binge
And I struggled to get myself up again

I wanna hang onto something
That won't break away or fall apart
Like the pieces of my heart

And globes and maps are all around me now
I wanna feel you breathe me
Globes and maps I see surround you here
Why won't you believe me?
Globes and maps they charter your way back home
Do you wanna leave or somethin?

And dreams came around you in a hazy rain
You opened your mouth wide to feel them fall
And I write a letter, from a one-way train
But i don't think you'll read it at all

And globes and maps are all around me now
I wanna feel you breathe me
Globes and maps I see surround you here
Why won't you believe me?
Globes and maps they charter your way back home
Do you wanna leave or somethin?

And I can't take this anymore
Well I know that I can't take this anymore
I can't take this anymore
Cuz I know someday I'll see you walk out that door

And globes and maps are all around me now
I wanna feel you breathe me
Globes and maps I see surround you here
Why won't you believe me?
Globes and maps they charter your way back home
So Do you wanna leave? Do you wanna leave?
Globes and maps they charter your way back home
Do you wanna leave or somethin?

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I can't wait for break.... to get everyone one of ur stupendous HUGS!
1st- Pop, 2nd- Nick, 3rd/4th/5th... (cuz it's gonna last just that long)- Tom (cuz phone hugs are awesome but nothing like the real thing bud), 6th- David W, 7th- Court.

"You gotta laugh at the world man, just laugh with it. Because once you understand that everything's funny you'll never be unhappy again." -courtesy of David A

It's a good thing most of my friends here and at Penn state are all insomniacs cuz it gives me something to do when I can't sleep.

I wish you could wake up tomorrow and none of this would've happened and you could be happy... It seems like it was meant to happen for you and I just got in the way, so if I could, I wouldn't have even began... I'm so sorry.

No tears have fallen here tonight...

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