All buffed out in my new SRU clothing... I'm sitting in study hall. I still can't tell if I am having side effects from the shots I got Friday... my arms are def swollen and I still have a headache.

Anywho... *slanted smiley*

Last night turned out to be very cool. Went dress looking with Li. Then got a call from Courtney to go over since we all haven't chilled in a whiiiiiiile. So around 5pm I came home from shopping, picked up my dad and drove to Court's. Tom, David W and Court were there. We sat down to play cards but ended up just talking about poetry (cuz court was working on a paper and we are all in AP enlgish) and of course I discusses the awesomeness of Slippery Rock. Then we went to get some dinner at Wendy's around 7pm... walked outside and from the house to the car were soaked by a sudden downpour of rain! Driving was a bit interesting... "there was ur turn" "oh yea guys, I said that we were going to DRIVE to Wendy's, I never said we were going to EAT." hahahaha. Ran in to get our food. Waited like 10 min for a spicy chicken sandwhich, returned to the car, drove back to Court's and finished our already half eaten dinner. Sat around till 10pm talking... I can't even really remember what about, but we sprawled out on the couches and just conversed about whatever came to our minds, some of it I guess was deep while some of it was casual like plans for Friday. It had been a while since we did that... and I forgot how much I love it! So we dispersed at 10 so those of us who did homework could do it, and those of us who didn't could go home and sleep. Next time it rains we are playing football for sure. good times good times. It is amazing how things are still changing, what with relationships with people and whatnot. *sigh* 3 big games this week. (thur and sat). Let's hope our team doesn't destroy each other first, I heard that a lot of bitching n screaming went on amongst our own team last thursday.

hmmm yea I think that is about it. *crossing fingers no practice today*

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Everyone is over flowing with enthusiasm n excitement and I feel like in every other aspect of this senior year teenage life I feel in control and focused... which just shows how insignificant this event really is. I guess when I look back on my life it does not matter enough to me. A lot of people experience it just bc they are expected to. ... sorry, but it would take a lot to make me care that much. Call it naive, call it non traditional, call it disrespectful to ur friends even... I call it, making the most of my life in the way I want to. None the less, Li wants to take me out shopping/looking for a dress... so I shall follow like a puppy on a leash. Why fight when the other person isn't looking? "Goin with the flow" shall be my temporary mantra.

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Orientation... " I wasss on the tennis team until I got kicked off 3 days ago for reasons I cannot mention... and I like long walks on the beach *blush*" hahahahahahaha. It was cute. We had to play this get to know you game where you tear off as many sheets of toilet paper u think u would need at one time... then the dude asks u to say one interesting fact about urself for each sheet. I felt bad for those people who tore off like 12 peices. So our Oteam leader was cool, short, adopted, runs track 800m, very energetic and friendly, loves screaming and painting his chest at football games and wears this adorable fisher's hat. Anywho, so orientation was full of filling out surveys upon surveys. Most of th people there were majoring in exercise science, secondary or elementary education in history, language or physical ed. Got my schedual for the first semester: exercise science, 3+3 PT, honors program

MWF- intro to exercise science 8-8:50am
intro to dance 10-10:50am
Gen chem 12-12:50am
TR- Amer Natl Govt 9:30-10:45am
coll writing Honors- 11-12:15pm
FYRST seminar 2-3:15pm
T only- gen chem lab 5:30-8pm

During advisory whatever it was called I sat next to this dude is going for athletic trainer. Lives near Bucknell, wrestles good enough to be on their Division I team next year, kinda tall, dark... not like it matters. Most of the new freshmen seemed cool, except this one girl who was also 4'11 1/2 inches who also wore capris, who was like, "well one interesting fact is that I didn't get picked for homecoming court this year, n I was really mad about that." All I could think was, get a life hun. I really liked the honors program director and what they have to offer so I am glad that I joined. I also get priority class schedualling with the seniors so I will get all the classes I want/need and travel sooo many places.

I also bought 2 books last night at Barnes and Noble near the Hotel we stayed at. "Appetites" which is about the various appetites/starvations of women including, love, power, control, sex, intellect, and how women use food as a way to symbolize the lack of these other concepts... forming into casual to severe eating disorders. Also bought "First Person Plural" and my mom sat reading that while I started Appetites and she was half way done by the end of the night, silly speed reader. Bought shorts, a long sleeve tshirt and a sweatshirt to show off my ROCK PRIDE!

So now, sitting here, uncomfortable for a lot of reasons and just waiting for the night to direct me.

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Can I just say... WOW!

This morning was awesome... went to consultation with Dr Pepper, my favorite guy, about this surgery. Looks good, and since I am "a pretty girl already" (haha we know how that goes) it will most likely be covered by insurance bc it is being done for mechanical reasons not aesthetic ones. 3 days in the hospital and 6-8 weeks on liquid diet, one year later my jaw will be just like new. So then after that enlightening visit I drove (yes I drove) over to Panera Bread and my dad and I had sort of a date. hehe. Got coffee and a bagel and sat and talked for a good hour. Thennnn, here comes the even awesomer part! Drove back over to the physican, Dr. Garcia who I had not had before. Waited, got weighed (frown) and measured (ditto). He walks thru the door, asks where I go to school and turns to me and says, "are u going into medicine?" I nod. He says, " orthopedics or physical therapy?" I say PT. He says, " well today I am going to try and change your mind. I want you in orthepedic surgery, we need them. So throw that idea of PT out the window, ok?" I was stunned... more like if I wasn't sitting already I would've fallen over! First it was my mom a few months ago who said to me that she saw me as a doctor/surgeon more than a physical therapist. Then it is my friends who tell me and NOW a COMPLETE stranger who had just shook my hand not even 1 min ago and seen my face for the first time who is telling what I am destined to do with my LIFE!

Throughout the exam he kept saying stuff... well with this u gotta be a dective and figure it out why ur skin is such and such, and did u know that ur lumbar back in 8 degrees curved? and what are you doing for this? but inbetweeen alll this normalness he kept saying, "so why pt? if u go for that then u only need a few more credits to complete med school, so that is what u need to do. Have I convinced you enough yet to change your mind?" Then when I told him that I was going to Slippery Rock he was even more excited and told me that their anatomy program is BETTER than any Ivy league school, the only schools with a better program are some med schools!! I was blown away by that tooo! Everything is just fitting in sooooooooo incredibley perfectly for once and I am in awe.

There are certainly no coincident meetings, and having been forced to have my appt with this guy instead of my normal physician may change my life. He also told me on the way out that if I have any questions or concerns while I am away at school, to feel free to call his office anytime of day. Wow. When I was changing back into my clothes he went out to see my dad. He told him that I need to become an orthopedic surgeon and my dad said, "yes, but a pediatric ortho surgeon" and the Doctor practically jumped up and down at THAT! hahaha. I don't know how or what I do or am that makes people like that.

Mrs Donohue knew that I was destined for great things and supported that with all her heart when I was under her eye for 13 years dancing "the dance world would lose a great thing if Meghan did not continue" I think that is why she hasn't responded to my emails all year, bc I stopped dancing. Coach May is doing the same in his own, "take care of this girl" way. Now Dr Garcia who knew me for 5 seconds before blurting out that I need to change my life plan sees something in me. Now that I am completely floating on a cloud, I am looking foward to however many years of schooling it takes to do what I am meant to do! I am sooooo excited!

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What one thinks is the cause of someone else's happiness or sorrow is what that person perceives to be the cause. That false perception can be enhanced when we blame our emotions on what others expect us to blame them on, or maybe we blame them on those things just because it is impossible to explain or expect someone else to understand the real cause, maybe we don't even understand it ourselves. As friends we do our best to guide our comrades thru good times and bad based on our perception of what the problem or enlightenment is, however the complications of the human mind and emotions can trick us onto misleading paths... So, that is why direct communication is always the key to solving or devulging one's radiance or blahness. Everytime one's emotions are passed thru another person, the perception and cause is scewed over and over... and then nothin is known for sure.

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