That was nice... went to get ice cream with Court, Tom and Chris and visited David W who was working. Soft serve WITH tons of sprinkles! Ended up sitting on the picnic bench until it got too cold out, then moved to Court's car and chatted about Pro-life/choice, the speaker today, road trips to Baltimore, seems to be the place to be with everyone, and how u can take 322 west to Ohio, 83S to MD, 95 to FL, and so forth... maps are the coolest. Anyway, also took a short drive to see the tree that chris hit back in the fall... I remember that day, it really started our long departed friendship back up when he imed me and said, " what is the nicest thing i have ever done for you?" and I coudln't think of one awesome thing, bc there were so many, so I just said, "when u would say, we love meggyo! "... I remember really feeling helpless in that situation bc I knew how horrible he felt, and all I wanted to do was assure him that everything was ok... that is what I find myself doing a lot of the time.. assuring others that things will work out, funny how they then turn it back on me and tell me my own advise.

Sigh... just sitting with high school friends in a car as the sun goes down.... I will miss this.

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I think almost everyone was pleasently surprised by the speaker today... as skeptical as I was going in, I came out with a lot even if I didn't agree with everythinggggg, I still apreciated 99% of it. I thought I had my morales all set, n I still do, but still there are so many more things to consider, and I am greatful that I know it allll. Danggggg.

Things have changed, I guess I tend to always say for the better bc I force myself to look at them as being better, but as with any situation u can look at it both ways. But read the entry below and I guess that that ismy philosophy about the reason why u meet everyone.

*** People come into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime. When you
know which one it is for a person, you will know what to do for that
person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to
provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually.

They may seem like a Godsend, and they are! They are there for the
reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or
at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the
relationship to an end. Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a
stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered,
and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come
to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make
you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is
real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build
upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept
the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind
but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

- from my cool cousin who lives in MD.

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It is raining cats and dogs here, so I think our game will always be canceled... funny how our make up game will now have to be made up. If we have no game I hope we have no practice, so I can go for a walk in the rain... I need it. *singing in the rain* always solves everything right? hehe

Just another day in the Chocolate Bubble.

We're talking about existentialism in AP english and mannn, it is interesting how things in ur life connect with things discussed in the classroom. The whole: man kind being free but having to take moral responsibility, being anxious, trying to avoid making decisions, man is tossed around in a world that he can't control, sees possibility of improvement, that you need to act authentically so that u can create your existence/pride...

I guess that that is life's greatest challenge. That u never do know the outcome, but instead of sitting around trying to avoid a bad outcome, man must decide for himself, not for others, but only for him, what chances are worth taken. One must live, not just watch life roll on past them. You can ride the train or be the driver of your own life. Decide where you want to go. Maybe u'll get lost on the way, but at least you know where you want to be, where you are going and where you have been.
"I'm running out of time, and I'm running out of reason"
"A star is always worth wishing upon, because even if ur wish does not come true, u have at least witnessed one of nature's magestic beauties."
Ok.. end of insight for the day.

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I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
- hoobastank

Why do I feel like I've just been hit a billion times in the stomach and cannot even cry out with pain?

I was and always will be willing to take the risks... bc I think that it is worth it.

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I could write out forever... but instead I just ask you to please... please... a lot of things and I think u know what those things would be. So I'll just say please and hope you get it. Please... most of all, trust me.

My friends none the less do what they feel i right... to either protect me or ensure my happiness, and granted I would and do do everything in my power to do the same... sometimes I think that there are things that other ppl cannot and do not understand... or is it just that we are too blind to see clearly so our friends are the ones that can point out the faults in our everlasting dreams?

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Once again, what I went thru has enabled me to help someone else... I am not proud of my weaknesses, but at least they have allowed me to conenct with people and genuinely understand what they are feeling. I am sorrry that u are having to go thru this. It is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of wanting help, and that in itself takes great strength.

Woke up to say, hello you. Preoccupied minds don't make for great conversation, sorry.

Off to another day of... no idea. It's raining once again, but not the nice warm rain. *sigh* I feel so ancy. I also feel like I am forgetting to do a lot. Yest: Shirt making, Gabe's, Neato Burrito, SWAT, stary sky... a good night.

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