Is that a kind of occupational hazard of soul mates ? One's not much without the other ?
- what dreams may come
Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach
"I'll love you till the ocean is folded and hung up to dry" -W.H Auden
I'll wait so longingly for you to need me... want me... notice me...
"If looks be the reflections of the mind, the thoughts that in that head are not what they used to be- those thoughts which I knew so well." - De Maupassant in "A Family"
Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
If you don't laugh at yourself, life is going to seem a lot longer than you want it to.
-garden state
Just to look in your eyes again
Just to lay in your arms
Just to be the first one always there for you
Just to live in your laughter
Just to sing in your heart
Just to be everyone of your dreams come true
Just to sit by your window
Just to touch in the night
Just to offer a prayer each day for you
Just to long for your kisses
Just to dream of your sighs
Just to know that Id give my life for you
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just to wake up each morning
Just to you by my side
Just to know that you're never really far away
Just a reason for living
Just to say I adore
Just to know that you’re here in my heart to stay
For you for the rest of my life
For you all the best of my life
For you alone, only for you
Just the words of a love song
Just the beat of my heart
Just the pledge of my life, my love, for you
Hobbies peer educating, road trips, dancing at Ghost Riders, music, listening), going on random excursions. College Slippery Rock, I Like french vanilla cappaccino, pineapple, buffalo chicken, walking in the rain, looking at the stars, watching the sun set, going for long hikes, being around kids, chocolate, mexican food, random road trips, card night I don't Like heights, the dropping feeling on amusement park rides, people who think that they are better than everyone, humidity, olives, people who don't use turn signals
Believe- gavin degraw
more than anyone- gavin degraw
meaning- gavin degraw
folow through- gavin degraw
I'll be- Edwin McCain
The reason- Hoobastank
Iris- Googoodolls
It only hurts when I'm breathing- Shania Twain
Running away- Hoobastank
100 years- five for fighting
blurry- puddle of mud
wonderwall- oasis
champaign supernova- oasis
someday- nickleback
dremaing of u -selena
1st cut is the deepest- sheryl crow
For you to notice- dashboard
My immortal- evanescence
Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
I'll follow the sun- Beatles
Walk Alone- Green Day
Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
can't stop - red hot chili peppers
saliva- rest in pieces
crash and burn- savage garden
every breath u take- the police
White Flag- Dido
One thing- Finger 11
Collide
Drift away- uncle kracker
When a man loves a woman
drops of jupiter- train
let it be- beatles
the dance- garth brooks
she's in love with the boy- garth brooks
If i'm not in love- faith hill
breath- faith hill
there you'll be- faith hill
cry- faith hill
I melt- rascal flats
i'm movin on- rascal flats
these days- rascal flats
love you outloud- rascal flats
Let's be us again- lonestar
amazed- lonestar
I need you- LeAnne Rimes
she's my kind of rain- tim mcgraw
i like, i love it- tim mcgraw
when a man loves a woman
wonderful tonight
unchained melodies
say a lil prayer
aint no mnt high enough
faithfully- journey
open arms- journey
the best parents in the world! ftball games, going for walks, going out to dinner, card night, my FRIENDS, awesome conversations, the ability to experience life to the fullest.
lose 20
sell back book
make mom's cd
clean room/bthroom
gym gym gym
visit eric, becca, kate, katie, kara
Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
I'll be there...always
...I am trying to lose weight, but it keeps on finding me. -author unknown
| Wednesday. 1.14.04 8:19 pm I thought it was suitable to put this up again... (I think I got it from Michelle last year)
have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart , if you don't , you might break theirs. Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't . You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own. when you least suspect it , or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
I want to tell you that you are a friend. You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
Comment! (4) | Recommend! Tuesday. 1.13.04 3:47 pm I finally made up my mind of what I wanted, of what I was willin to do, and thennnnn all HELL BREAKS LOOSE. My two best friends are fighting, i am fighting, we are all jsut fighting and we end up going around in circles alll day. Classic guy excuse for getting out of something that THEY wanted, that THEY Started, that THEY were in control of is, "i don't want to break her heart later on..." fuck that! You think that a girl is not smart enough to know how her heart may be broken, that if she was worried about being hurt and that she did not trust u enough with it that she would give it to u???? Guys are just clueless to how girls work sometimes. And that excuse of breaking their heart,... aww that makes u look so nice and manly and kind. But ya know what? It is a lame excuse and I can see right thru it! Don't worry about me, worry about urself. I went into this knowing full well of the concequences. If I wasn't willing to take the risk I wouldn't still be here.
Bad timing... the cause of EVERY SINGLE FUCKING problem. Not just my problems or dissagreements, but everyone's. I have had the opportunity to listen to a lot of ppl vent over the past few years and bad timing, or mis timing is the cause of most problems.
People just need to talk to each other... not to someone else who will carry the message to the other person. One can bat back ideas with someone not involved, but that does not mean that that makes the person now involved or has the right to butt their head and translate what was said. It is up to the individuals involved to talk it out themselves.
I keep apologizing because I keep making up that the reasons for all these problems is something I did... it is easier to fix urself and your own mentality than to try and change that of someone else's.
We try to plan everything. We try to figure out exactly what we want before we go diving head first. But as I just realized, as much planning and thinking you do, it is impossible to prevent it from falling on ur head and messing up things. Emotions change, ideas change, just being in a new situation makes complications. We cannot prevent that from happening, but what we can do is accept that changes do happen, that we can't predict or lay out exactly what we want to occure. We have to take the unexpected effects and deal with them, decide how to follow the path now. Not get frusterated bc it is not what we planned on, bc we thought we could overcome these predictable barriers. No one can avoid surprises. We try and try and try... and lose. But that is not reson to give up, to not find another way. Even if that "other way" is to change plans completely.
P.S. People are also fuckin hipocrites. In one way or another ALL of them are. (myself included)
Comment! (3) | Recommend! Monday. 1.12.04 4:56 pm ... finally things are resolved. (let's hope). School was the shits bc I was so out of it. My mind was on other things. Now, I think things are cool. What else is there.... I dunno, just trying to get thru these next few months. keeping old friendships, building new ones. and around and around the world goes.... hehe. wow I have nothing to talk about. Just glad we now have an understanding. whew. Comment! (2) | Recommend! Sunday. 1.11.04 7:26 pm What a fucking day... sorry that all my attention can't be spent on someone to work things out. This is seriously just the pits. Once again, not like anyone needs to know, but my brother just had another blow up... started screaming and shit about the police, and how they are nazis and they follow him, bang down his doors, stare at him, and all this shit. why the FUCK does he always get in trouble? is it that freaking hard to live ur own life, not bothering anyone, obeying these simple laws??? This happens alllll the time with him! I don't understand at all. WHY? aghhh. I don't expect anyone to understand or even try to comprehend how this feels or what goes on. I just need to vent. I just need someone to hold me. But yea, that is out of the picture too right now. gahhhh. I hate the thoughts that run thru my head before I block them out, of just wanting it to end. Because with my brother it could end, very easily, it almost did before, three times. (that I know of) I just want to curl up with someone there behind me telling me everything is ok. but the only person who would do that is out... doing other things, prolly mad at me right now too. sigh.... it'll all be ok. breath. it'll all be ok.
Comment! (1) | Recommend! Sunday. 1.11.04 6:03 pm ******.....I'm sorry I misled you, I'm sorry I doubted you, I'm sorry I keep changing my mind. I want to know that I will not regret it and I guess I am the only one that can decide this. Not my friends or you. I have to decide on what my morals are. I, me, myself, not what I think makes you happy, or what makes my friends happy, or what seems to be right to society. That is selfish but it is the first time when I will do this, bc it is the first decision I have to make that will effect me in future years. No feelings = someone is going to get hurt. I respect you. I am very thankful for everything you have done to make me feel like it is ok. I am willing to make it work but only willing to go so far. If that is not ok with you, then it won't work. This is my final say, no more changing my mind. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday. 1.11.04 3:31 pm Price to play- staind
We fail to see
How destructive we can be
Taking without giving back
Till the damage can be seen
Can u see?
Can u see?
The more u take, the more u blame
But everything still feels the same
The more u hurt, the more u strain
The price u pay to play the game
All you seek and all u gain
And all u step on with no shame
There are no rules, no one to blame
The price u pay to play the game
Apathy, the chosen way to be
Blindly look the other way
While u waste away with me
Can u see?
Can u see?
What u pay to play the game Comment! (1) | Recommend! |