I am so damn bored,... this is bad. haha. Well I wrapped most of my friends' gift today. Still have to get some tissue paper. The football banquet was cancelled bc we have snow and freezing rain, so it'll be either next weekend or in january. A lot of ppl are hoping for no school tomorrow. I felt like I was in the mood to be all insightful, but it sort of just left me right now. gah. I think I am getting sick, sore throat, body temp changes, headache.. blah. That's gonna suck if I get the flu or something, esp since this year i hear it is bad and since my body couldn't wait until vacation to get sick I hope I won't miss school, cuz from my jaw I already missed so much. SO insightfullness.. yea not coming to me right now. David #2 didn't get into Penn State main which is absolute crap bc his grades and SAT s were much higher than some ppl I know got in, and I feel so bad bc it is his only school. stupid admissions ppl. Li and David.. yea that's all I got to say about that. I guess we caught Saddam today, big woop de do, we'll still be in Iraq for years, so don't get too excited. The OCM got canceled too, so I still have 200,000 soda tabs in my garage. Tim and I had a breif discussion about his wanting a gf, but none of the girls he has liked like him n all that ... and I wish we could've talked about it more. It wasn't uncomfortable for me, but I guess he was. Talking about gf/bf's... some broke up recently, some are still prospering and some ar fighting as always.

One person told me the other day, "it is not worth it, a relationship that is" and i told the person that the worrying, the fighting, the distress, the going thru life unhappy is not worth it, esp now in our lives bc we are just 18... but the experience is worth it, the learning is worth it and the finding out what u want in ur life is worth it. I think that finally some ppl have realized that, everything happens for a reason. Someone else told me that they want a gf bc they have nothing to do on the weekends, tehy don't get out.... ok, so actually 2 guys told me that. What is fucking wrong with hanging out with friends???? Hell, they stick around longer, not fights, no worrying if they don't call u every night and no obligations. Damn, I love hanging out with my friends, it's the best part of life! I can go for weeks without saying one word to someone, hang out with them one night and it be the best time! The problem is, no one is willing to go out and meet new people.. they have this mentality of, oh well, we;re all leaving for college soon, so what is the point? the point is that u can still learn and gain something from interacting with new people. U might actually find what u have been looking for for all this time... or gain something from the experience to better ur life in the future. Ihave realized over the past year, how short of a time it can take for a wonderful relationship to form. I have gained friendships closer and more important to me in the past 16 months than I have ever had in my life! So, even if u just are in for it for a few months, go out there and experience, bc u never know what may come of it.

Comment! (2) | Recommend!

There are many ways to love someone. Sometimes we want love so much, we're not too choosy about who we love. Other times, we make love such a pure and noble thing, no poor human can ever meet our vision. But for the most part, love is a recognition, an opportunity to say, "There is something about you I cherish." It doesn't entail marriage, or even physical love. There's love of parents, love of city or nation, love of life, and love of people. All different, all love. Raymond E. Feist

Comment! (1) | Recommend!

So I thought my night would be unevetful and boring... buuuut. I went out with Courtney, Tom and David for dinner at JoJo's.. mmm, chicken strips. Then went to Palmyra and bowled for an hour... i suck at bowling. "treat the ball like a baby turtle u are throwing back out to sea... like this.. stick ur butt out.... now do the granny throw." (haha, Tom thanks, ur the best!) I just have to keep switching hands.. I did better with my left hand until it got tired so I switched back to my right and BAM got a strike! woohoo. Then went to Harbour, I really need to learn how to play chess so I can participate next time. good times good times.. thanks so much kiddos for being all supportive! ur the greatest! Robbie called at 9, but he had to go home and change and shit so didn't get to chill tonight. Tomorrow, the weather will prolly prohibit the ftball banquet from happening and that makes me very sad. So i was asked how I was like 15 minutes ago, and the person got all surprised when I answered... gooooooooooooooood. Cuz I really am good. I have awesome friends, life is alright and I am happy. I love the times like these when I feel loved and cared about and when people want to spend time with me... it just makes my day. even just talking to them is cool, but being with them is sooo much better! ahh, i better leave before I find something to dissapoint me. I think I'll make cookies. SMILE! night all.

Comment! (2) | Recommend!

I had a weird dream last night... Liz G came to me with some bad news I guess so I started crying over it. Then someone tells me that Tim has hepatitis B or aides so I should call bc he is missing cardnight. So I call him in FL and ask if he is sick and he refuses to tell me.. but I find out his mom told abby's mom that he is sick, so i got all hurt bc he wouldn't tell me. haha funny stuff those dreams are.

I got bitched at this morning bc for some reason my parents think that I have lost weight... and are like, "ur skinny now, that's not right".. haha, so I am not allowed to be skinny? not like i am anyways, but I am not allowed to be? oh mannn, that's humorous, seeing how just 3 years ago I was told, "i'm gonna start watching what ur eating again" when I was 100 lbs. Now that I'm like 20 lbs more than that.. i'm told i can't lose 3lbs?? Goodness, when I actually was out of control my parents didn't realize it and now that I am in control they are all concerned... wtf? oh well. So today I went xmas shopping, got a lot done... spent a lot of money too, but made a lot of good buys on sale. I spent 97 dollars, my dad spent 84 dollars... he bought for the family and my mom, I bought for aunt, uncle, 3 cousins, tim, david, david, and some other friends. God I love christmas.. I don't have anything on my list except CDs and college crap really, but that's ok bc I love giving... that's the best part, the planning on the perfect gift, wrapping and giving. sighh, i def have a lot of creative wrapping to do. Trying to make plans for tonight... later all.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

Every minute... I take a look, to see if ur there.... but ur not. I fall to think that maybe it was something I did, even tho it probably isn't. You're doing work or watching TV or playing some pool... who knows. Every minute I glance to see you there, but you're not, and I should be ok. I wouldn't be so worried if things before had been ok, but before I left u didn't say anything. I hope ur day went well. I miss talking to you like we used to. Smile! because life is mildly wonderful!

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

Since all asians in Hershey play tennis and are mostly all good at it... i decided I ned to learn how to play.. so in 10 minutes I am walking to Li's house and we're gonna go play if the courts are dry. Today was alright. I kept getting tickled and I guess it is so amusing how much I laugh... but I think my nerves are getting desensatized bc I wasn't as sensative to it by the end of the day. school officially sucks and everyone I know n some i don't know want to just drop out right NOW. gosh, glad vacation is soon.... nothing else going on, i'm out. P.S.Ash P- Mr. Murphy can go fuck himself... that is bullshit! Hope ur feeling better.

Comment! (1) | Recommend!