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So when I start to see some face in neon dreams
engulfed in fantasies, the world seems more inviting
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
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Halloweenings I guess [2P]
Monday, November 1, 2010
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Pear bread
Friday, October 29, 2010
I made pear bread today from THIS RECIPE.

Since I diced my pears instead of slicing them thinly, there are soft chunks spread throughout the loaves.


I also made a mini loaf, which unfortunately didn't hold together because I tried to get it out of the baking dish too early. :P

Didn't matter though, because it still tasted awesome. This is what's left:

(Enlarged to show detail, of course)

I really like the way this came out. I only had to use one bowl and one spoon to mix it all in, so the cleanup was pretty straightforward. (I don't count the knife I used to cut the pears or the measuring cups/spoons because those are negligible)

I've been meaning to write a story for old times' sake and do a few other things, but I haven't really started anything yet. One of these days, I guess. X|

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Destinations and ideas
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
So I'm in one of those moods where I've got an idea and it seems completely awesome, so I end up dedicating myself to it completely (and feverishly) for awhile.

I don't like it here, as I may have mentioned before.

I miss New York. Actually, mostly I just miss having stuff to do and places to go. I can't do anything here so most of the time I just hang around at home. By myself. In a fat metaphorical puddle of sadness.

ANYWAY, I'm thinking about going back to New York for school. Strangely enough I miss the college environment. (Actually I miss having friends; that might be it)

I'm looking into The New School. I don't remember what didn't appeal to me about it the last time I considered it, but right now it looks good. I figure I could probably major in Creative Writing and perhaps become a children's author?

If I can remain committed to this idea then I might actually be motivated to not become a hobo and die in a gutter somewhere!

It's strange, comparing how excited I feel right now to what I view as my "normal" disposition... which is to say rather depressed and resigned.

BUT HEY MAYBE I HAVE A FUTURE AFTER ALL!? Crazy stuff. We shall see. I'm hoping this doesn't fizzle out like it did when I thought being a kindergarten teacher would be absolutely freaking amazing.

---Edit---

I'm wondering if this ridiculously excited state has anything to do with exhaustion? I feel like running around and laughing and generally doing things.

When she was good, she was very very good,
But when she was bad, she was horrid.

That'll be me in a nutshell.

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Dropped into the midst
Sunday, October 24, 2010
"What do you think?" she asks me. She's wearing a satiny purple nightie with lace on the edges. I tell her I think it looks good. She's a little anxious about it but I give her an encouraging smile and tell her to go.

"I like it," she says. "I think it looks really mech."

Intuitively I know she means it's reminiscent of combat machines, the kind that only exist in movies and fiction. But she's right, of course. It is very mech.

She exits the room, closing the door, and walks to where he's sitting on the sofa pull-out bed. I think to myself that of course it must only be natural that he'd move onto her once he broke up with her daughter. They're all around the same age anyway. Still, I feel a little off inside, knowing what once was. Thinking about looks and smiles that aren't mine anymore.

I don't know who this woman is, or her daughter. They just exist, and they have existed. I am only visiting their home.

"Mech?" he texts me.

"Just tell her she's sexy" I reply. I think about the words coming out of his mouth and the off feeling turns to sickness. What's done is done though, and it's over for me.


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I don't know what to make of these dreams.

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The wrong kind of thinking that still feels right
Saturday, October 23, 2010


Do I need that kind of survival on my record to be taken seriously?

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I don't even know anymore
Saturday, October 23, 2010


Um.

---Edit---

Things are going downhill again. I kind of just want to throw up right now...

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Being female
Friday, October 22, 2010
On OKC my visitor count went from an average of 17 per week to 103 per week.

Just a couple of days ago the average was 59...

Fun fun.

In very NOT fun news, my ex is in the hospital. :/ He says he should be fine, and Alice keeps telling me that too, but it's so hard not to worry about him...

Also we watched Bonnie and Clyde in Film yesterday and all I could think about as I watched it was how the females in the Barrow Gang kept messing everything up with their emotional outbursts. Especially Blanche. I HATE BLANCHE. I can understand why she was nominated for an Oscar for her performance though, because I just wanted to punch her in the face the entire time.

---Edit---

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I wish
Thursday, October 21, 2010


I wish you were always with a smile
I wish you were happy all the while
I wish you were never in despair
And life could be a sweet affair
I wish that my love could bring to you
Happiness and joy to cling to you


I don't know what to say. I feel like I'm in one of those isolated moments I'll always remember the feeling of.

I wish... things weren't like this. Everything.

---Edit---

What the

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