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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness." ~ D.H. Lawrence "Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?" "Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost." ~ Seneca "People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect." ~ Daydream Nation "All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death." ~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes "The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road." ~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita "It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." ~ William Blake Think about it Musicalities! Kill that boredom!
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Jhonen Vasquez's site Overheard in New York Passive Aggressive Notes Submarinechannel.com Superdickery UHpinions Whirled | The monkey's paw Friday, December 9, 2022 For a long time now, I've been interested in the themes of the monkey's paw. I had never actually read the story that the idea originated from until just now, but the idea of a wish coming true-- just not in the way you wanted-- is interesting to me. Clearly it's interesting to a lot of other people too, since the theme comes up not infrequently in popular media. I don't believe in magic in any supernatural sense, but I still think often of the idea that you have to be careful what you want, because it may come to you in a way you don't want. I tend to add a lot of specifiers when I think about things I want and hope for. I'm also disinclined to express desire for things that are general/ambiguous. For example, I would be wary of saying "I want love" because that could end up meaning a lot of things. Do I want to love someone? Be loved? What does "love" mean here? There's no broadly accepted definition of exactly what love looks like, so there's a huge amount of room for interpretation. People often expect that love will manifest in certain actions, but it could also be just a feeling. For all I know, if I wished for love and my wish was granted, I could be loved by someone I would never meet, but who had seen me once somewhere and become struck with the idea of me. Or perhaps I could meet someone I would fall for who would never reciprocate my feelings. I guess if anything, I tend to use this prompt as a jumping off point for philosophical questions and refinement of understanding. If I said "I want someone to love me" it raises the question of what "me" means. For a lot of people that's an easy question because they don't think about identity, but if someone becomes infatuated with your image and knows nothing about your personality, is it fair to say they love you? Or what if you get dementia to the point of losing your ability to communicate entirely and they love what they used to know of you? And of course, since this is roughly about the monkey's paw, if you said "I want someone to love me" with no time conditions, it could very well happen that you happen to meet someone who loves you but is also prone to a murder/suicide type deal and enacts their "love" in that way. So yeah, qualifiers. Qualifiers make a difference. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Unsavory interactions [DP] Thursday, November 3, 2022 Comment! (0) | Recommend! More gratitude Thursday, October 27, 2022 "Needy" by Shrimpnose feat. Maxime. Kyle asked me what I'll do when I finally have money, and it was hard to think of much. I'd like to buy some nice tinned fish, maybe a new pair of boots... nice skincare products? And then I guess I'll just save/invest everything else. I don't need that much for myself right now. I think the money would be better put towards the future than any unnecessary consumption. My parents have always said that they'd fully fund my education, and I'd like to be able to do the same for my kids someday. I know I keep saying this, but I feel like things are going really well for me at the moment. Like, I just feel a lot of gratitude for that. It feels like the sun finally came out and dried all the mud I've been slogging through for years and I can just walk normally. Time moves by so fast and things are going smoothly. My friend Casey from my first year of college got back in touch with me last week, and I've been thinking about that a lot. So many years spent missing her and New York, and having dreams of reconnecting... and now we kind of have? And it's not exactly like I dreamt, but it's still impactful for me and like... emotional. It's meaningful to know that I had such an influence on her that she wanted to reconnect 12 years after we last saw each other. There was one time in between then and now that we chatted, but otherwise we haven't really talked much. I feel like we're probably very different people now than we were when we were 18, but I still have a lot of fondness for her. --- I was browsing some job postings for after I'm done at my agency and several of them said they want someone who can take on 20 clients a week. Right now I only have ~10 client hours a week, and I definitely feel like I could do more. Kind of looking forward to that, when it comes. I feel lucky that I'm doing something that works well for me. For the longest time I didn't think I had a passion, but well... here I am. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Good things! [DP] Friday, October 21, 2022 Comment! (0) | Recommend! Warmth Wednesday, October 12, 2022 "telephone wires" by maxime. Listening to this song makes me feel warm and happy. You can hear the smile in his voice when he's singing "just like that" and it makes me feel nice. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Keeping it up Saturday, October 8, 2022 "Goodbye Horses" by ††† (Crosses). There's something I enjoy about collecting covers of songs I like. It's interesting to hear each artist's take on the song and the different feelings that emerge in each variation. I pretty much always have Nutang open, but I find it hard to write these days. I guess maybe on some level I have an increased desire for privacy because of the work I'm doing. I'm also not sure who reads my blog anymore. While I write mainly for myself, I am also conscious of my audience, if there is one. Added another healthy habit recently. I know eating leafy greens is good for my mental health, but I'm not consistently good about doing it. Lately I've been blending my greens with coconut water (for potassium), ginger, and a bit of honey, and that's felt like something I can maintain. Takes less effort than eating a salad, and honestly, the less effort the better. A major lesson I've come to learn about my depression is that I just need to make healthy things as convenient and easy for myself as possible. Doing just basic life tasks like laundry takes an enormous effort when I'm in the thick of it, so lowering the barriers as much as I can makes a big difference. Even when I don't care about things, I still try to act as if I do, and I think it helps keep me from sliding further into a bad state. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Habits and shifts Sunday, September 4, 2022 "Fixing a Hole" by The Beatles. I've been doing better this past year. Like, a lot better, really, than pretty much any other time within memory for the entirety of my adult life. But I guess like... it's not that I'm the happiest I've ever been or anything. I've had brief periods of intensely good feelings and this isn't that. This is more like general stability and functionality. It feels funny to say that-- "functionality"-- like, haven't I been functioning all this time? Haven't I been moving along in my life, getting things done, making deadlines, and so on? And it's true, I was getting by, for years really. There were some bumps in the road of course, I can't deny that. I've missed assignments, I've dropped classes, I've let opportunities go. I never got into any serious trouble though, nothing life-arresting that I can think of. Not like the stories I hear about people who can't get out of bed or who just stop going to work or things like that. Nothing to be alarmed about. I'm not sure if it's any one thing I've been doing differently, but I've made a number of smaller life changes over the past year that I think have come together to just help me a lot in general. Taking Vitamin C, Vitamin D, and iron every day; stretching every day; exercising most days of the week for at least an hour at a time; reading five pages of a book every day; going to bed at a relatively consistent time before midnight; socializing at regular intervals in person; cleaning and putting things away regularly. Some of these things only feel possible because of other things. For years it felt like kind of a big undertaking to do certain things, but it doesn't feel so hard anymore. I have energy to do more than I have to do. I still feel down some days, but it doesn't seem to consume my existence, or I get back to this higher baseline state relatively quickly. Things that have not changed, though: Still not drinking, smoking, or doing any drugs, including caffeine (except for rare occasions a few times a year when I have green tea). I think I'll keep it this way. No need to mess with things when I seem to have a balance at the moment. I was thinking about writing something about what I've been thinking of as sort of stages of living in an Existentially authentic way, but I haven't quite collected all my thoughts about that yet. Maybe going over some Existential texts would help. I'm currently reading Madness by Marya Hornbacher, and this five-pages-a-day thing, while effective, is a rather slow process. I feel more able to keep going with this rate, because it's such a small/manageable amount per day. So yeah, I dunno, I guess the gist of this post is really just to say that giving myself a series of small daily tasks and trying to get my nutrition in order is making a noticeable difference in a positive way. It hasn't quite given me the boost to blog more frequently yet (which may also be because I end up telling people things directly instead of amassing a bunch of thoughts that are best put out in blog post format?). In any case, I'm doing well. Comment! (7) | Recommend! 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