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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness." ~ D.H. Lawrence "Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?" "Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost." ~ Seneca "People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect." ~ Daydream Nation "All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death." ~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes "The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road." ~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita "It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." ~ William Blake Think about it Musicalities! Kill that boredom!
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Jhonen Vasquez's site Overheard in New York Passive Aggressive Notes Submarinechannel.com Superdickery UHpinions Whirled | I didn't think that through [4P] Monday, July 3, 2017 Comment! (0) | Recommend! I'm still up :| Sunday, July 2, 2017 "No Sunlight" by Death Cab for Cutie. I heard this in a store today. Got up early to go to the beach today with my mom. I just walked around on the sand while she swam with a friend. There was a Hawaiian monk seal at one end of the beach with her pup, and that area was roped off so people wouldn't get too close, but there were a lot of people at the boundary just watching the seal, and volunteers there to educate people and answer their questions about monk seals. The monk seals are protected, so I guess they get special treatment. I don't really feel like I have much to say at the moment. Just listening to music and imagining people moving to it. Maybe it's from watching so many music videos over the years, but I feel like I always imagine some kind of scene when I listen to any music that actually engages me on any level. There's some feeling or some imagery, and it's vivid and it feels meaningful somehow. Sometimes I describe these things to people, and I feel like the reaction they have to it is an indicator to me of how we mesh. Writing is hard right now. It's pretty late, and I'm kind of at that point in the night where I can't really remember anything good that's ever happened to me and it's like my whole life has just been this one moment and nothing else has ever existed and this is everything, the darkness and the quiet and the solitude. I really shouldn't stay up late so much, I know how it affects me and it's rarely good. It's hard today, though... Since I got up so early, I ended up taking a long nap in the afternoon, during which I had a really intense nightmare. Since then I haven't really been tired enough to sleep more, which is unfortunate since I have to go to the beach again in the morning. In... like.. five hours. Oh frabjous day. ...Instead of sleeping I ended up watching this Jan Svankmajer film called "Jabberwocky", which was oddly soothing in a way. It's not nightmare fuel like his version of Alice in Wonderland, which was kind of nice. I think I felt mildly traumatized after watching that one... Comment! (0) | Recommend! Figuring out new things Friday, June 30, 2017 The next few days are going to be so long... --- Kyle graciously informed me that I should alert my bank as to my Australia trip plans. I guess this would have been an obvious thing to some people, but I've never traveled on my own like this before, and I haven't been out of the country since I had my own debit/credit cards, so... yeah. I didn't think to do it until he told me. Thank you Kyle! --- I went with my uncle and mom and visited the house my grandparents used to live in in Kaimuki today. My uncle has been remodeling it for a few years, but I think it's getting close to being done... Last year my dad flew over to do all the electrical wiring, which was a major part of the renovations. I guess the plan is to rent it out once it's finished. My grandpa built that house, and while it's not very big by modern standards, it's certainly livable, and I think it will be easy to find people who want to live there. Since my Uncle Reuben is the one who lives closest to it, I'm guessing he'll probably be managing the property mainly, but I wonder if I'll have to assume responsibility for it at some point. My parents and other relatives in that generation are all getting older, and I think I'll have to take over for certain things eventually. It's probably a ways off, but I hope they think to prepare me for things before then... There's so much I don't know how to do in life, and I need to learn how to do it. Maybe it's an anxiety thing, but I can never figure out how other people just DO things without getting paralyzed over how to do them. I'm getting better at doing stuff and not pausing to think too much about it, but it's still something I definitely struggle with, and I know I let opportunities pass me by because I'm too hesitant. Just gotta keep trying I guess. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Oops, it's like 5 AM at home Thursday, June 29, 2017 So, I was in Foodland today with my mom and uncle, and this older guy VERY CONSPICUOUSLY checked me out, from the feet up. Like, whoa, dude. You gotta be real obvious for me to notice something like that. Also I thought it was kind of weird that he just did one pass from bottom to top instead of going from top to bottom and then back up, which I guess I think of as the archetypal checking-out maneuver. I wonder if I look old enough now that guys will openly check me out without any reservations about me possibly being a teenager... I have no idea how old I look to other people. When I was flying back home earlier in June, the old dude next to me on the plane seemed surprised that I wasn't in undergrad. The humid air here in Hawaii feels nice when I breathe it in. It just comes into my body without any resistance, and there's no sticky or constricted feeling in my chest. Sometimes breathing dry air feels like breathing gravel, and it's really uncomfortable. The downside of the humidity is that it settles on me like a weight and makes me feel lazier. In a couple weeks I'm going to Australia... I've never been there before, and I'm realizing there are all these little details that will be different. Like... I guess my phone probably won't work there, for one. I'll probably be with Becka the whole time anyway and won't need my phone, so I guess it doesn't really matter. Assuming I still have access to wifi, I should be able to keep in touch with people back home on a limited basis. I also have no idea how buying stuff works in a foreign country. >.> Can I just use my normal cards? I guess... I'll just wing it. Maybe ask my uncle, since he's traveled to foreign countries a lot and he probably knows how it works. Not sure if he's been to Australia, though. Then again, maybe that doesn't matter. This seems more like a general thing than a country-specific thing. I'm just gonna... not worry about it too much. Yeah. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Visiting again Wednesday, June 28, 2017 I'm in Hawaii! We flew in this morning, and the flight was just under five hours... I mostly slept through it, but there was this little girl who kept crying/screaming sporadically throughout the flight for no clear reason. She would just alternate between laughing and having a fine time and wailing. Thankfully the crying fits didn't last too long, but there were a lot of them. My uncle always has some new place he's eating at a lot when we visit. He tends to find somewhere he really likes and just go there a ton until he gets tired of it, haha. This year he's all about the plate lunches at Times Supermarket. To be fair, they're a really good deal. I got a huge misoyaki salmon steak with mashed potatoes, brown rice, and steamed vegetables for a little over $9, including a beverage. My mom and my uncle both ate half of their plates for lunch and had the other half for dinner, but I ate my whole plate for lunch... Not the best idea, honestly, because according to the menu it was 1300+ calories, which is just under my entire daily caloric allowance. >_> I didn't really end up eating dinner, though. Still too full. We're gonna go back there a few times because of how much my uncle likes it (he said he goes at least twice a week), so next time I'll try not to eat everything... Man though... the mashed potatoes were so good. Gonna get so fat on this trip. I really feel like I need to walk around or something. All that food is just sitting in me and it feels gross. Blehhhhh. I'm trying to eat less sugar/refined carbs to see if it affects my hand eczema issues. I had a flareup awhile ago on another finger in addition to the one I normally get it on, and I've been kind of worried. I've read that usually people get it all over their hands, but I've only had it on one finger for years, and I'd really rather not have it everywhere. It's very physically uncomfortable, but at least I'm not as embarrassed about it as I used to be, I guess... For a long time I used to cross my affected finger behind another one because I didn't want anybody to see it, but my third ex always grabbed my hand and uncrossed my fingers whenever he saw me doing that. I can appreciate that about my otherwise pretty bad relationship with him, I guess. People give my uncle gifts a lot because he lets them stay in his house for free, and he had this in his pantry, given to him by a friend... He asked if we wanted to try any before he threw them out, because he didn't like them. My mom and I each took one. It was ah, it was pretty disgusting. Imagine a very very fishy thin wafer with a light cheese creme filling. The smell was nasty, too. So uh, yeah, basically I don't share Japanese taste in snacks. It's nice to be here and all, but I keep thinking about what I'll do when I get back... Seems so far away. @_@ Comment! (1) | Recommend! On hugs Monday, June 26, 2017 [06/27/2017 12:51 AM] Me: I'm really grateful that we became friends. [06/27/2017 12:52 AM] RD: I am too. Youve become important to me We had a conversation tonight that felt really raw and open and honest and vulnerable, and I just wanted to hug him, but I couldn't. I've been thinking about that desire to hug, and what it means. It's part sympathetic, part empathetic, part comforting, part protective. Words are something but they don't feel like enough. A hug conveys a fuller sense of "I'm here with you, right now, in this moment," and also just, "you're not alone." Sometimes when I hear about the pain that people are going through or have been through, I want to give them a hug, as if I could shield them from the world with my body. As if I could absorb some of it for them. I haven't thought about this song in a long time, and it's not even something I'd normally listen to, but for some reason it feels fitting to me tonight. "Sleep Inside" by Lilium. Comment! (0) | Recommend! The rush of talking Sunday, June 25, 2017 I hung out with Fro for something like seven hours today, and we sat on her couch and chatted and got Indian food delivered and it was rejuvenating and wonderful and I've missed hanging out so much. I hope I never end up moving away again. I hope... I can find a way to afford staying here. So... my friend came back today after being off the grid for a couple days, and I was so excited to talk to him again, I just had this absolutely massive smile on my face, and I couldn't really stop smiling for awhile. When I was hanging out with Fro I kept grinning and laughing and it wasn't even about anything we were talking about necessarily, I just felt super happy and giddy and generally great. It's so silly... there were a few points during the hangout when Fro and I weren't directly talking to each other (like we were looking something up or she was getting something, things like that), and during those little moments I was checking my tablet to see if my friend had messaged me, and every time he did, I got a bit of a rush, haha. Can't believe how much I like this guy. I was telling Fro a few things about him... like how it's nice that I don't feel like I have to be "smart" around him. So much of the time I feel like that aspect of me has to be the entirety of how I present myself to people, and like, I mean, I do enjoy intellectual conversations and making high brow jokes and all that, but I don't feel any pressure to do that with him and it's such a relief. We can joke about stupid things with each other and I don't feel embarrassed or like I'm not fitting the image I'm supposed to stick to. I also don't feel like I'm confined to low brow humor, though. Like... with some people, they just wouldn't get a lot of the jokes I make, and that's super disappointing, but I dunno, I guess I don't feel that restricted with him? I can just say anything and it's okay and he'll still like me. It's... like.... I guess I don't even remember the last time I felt like I could say ANYTHING to someone. And maybe there are some boundaries that are there and we just have yet to hit, but I dunno, for now, at least, I feel really comfortable and accepted and just generally happy. Comment! (0) | Recommend! Doing dishes makes me feel productive [4P] Saturday, June 24, 2017 Comment! (0) | Recommend! 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