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Sharp teeth test your skin
too late, you let an angel in
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
―D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
―Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
―Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories — if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
―The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

“The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road.”
― Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita






TICoSME
Musicalities!
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics

Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Aquapunk
Axe Cop
Basic Instructions
Bear Nuts
Beeserker

Blue Milk Special
Bobbins
Broodhollow
Bug
Buttersafe
Camp Weedonwantcha
Chainsawsuit
ChannelATE
Cigarro & Cerveja
Conspiracy Friends!
Crunchy Bunches

Curia Regis
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Diesel Sweeties
Distillum
DUBBLEBABY
Dumm Comics
Eat That Toast!
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
E-merl.com
The End
Evil Diva
Evil Inc.
Existential Comics
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Forming (Explicit)

Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
Mirror
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hollow Mountain
IDK Comics
Inscribing Ardi
The Intrepid Girlbot
JBabb Comics
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
L.A.W.L.S.
The League of Evil Genius

Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
Meaty Yogurt
Medium Large
The Meek
Metacarpolis
Monsterhood
Monsterkind
The Moon Prince
Moon Town
Moth (Some nudity)
Mr. Lovenstein
Muddlers Beat

Natalie Dee
Nedroid
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Optipess
Out There
Phuzzy Comics
P.I. Jane
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
Powernap
Red Meat
Rice Boy
Robbie and Bobby
Rosscott, Inc.
Safely Endangered
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Savage Chickens
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Serenity Rose
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Stinking Hellebore
Strong Female Protagonist
Subnormality
The Super Fogeys
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy
Mirror

Witchy
xkcd
Yellow Peril (PG-13)

Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
American Hell
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
Bobwhite
The Book of Biff
Brat-halla
Brightest
Bullfinch
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Daisy is Dead
Dream Life
Edemia
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Floodmud
Freaks!

Green Wake
Gun Show
Hello with Cheese
Helpful Figures
Intragalactic
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing

Manta-man
Meat and Plastic
Minimalism Sucks
Mis-
Moe
The Nerds of Paradise
Nimona
No Reason Comics
Odd-Fish
One Swoop Fell
Owen's Uncles
Patches
Pictures for Sad Children
Raymondo Person
A Redtail's Dream

Riotfish
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
Saint's Way
Shortpacked!
Sin Titulo
Snowflakes
Split Lip
Spooky Doofus
SubCulture
Super Buzzkill
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
Thermohalia
Troubletown
Ugly Girl
YU + ME
2815 Monument

Pure Flash Awesomeness
Aardvardkbutter.com
Angry Alien
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
The Frown
Hoogerbrugge

Other
Bogleech
Clients from Hell
Brian Despain
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Submarinechannel.com
Superdickery
UHpinions
Whirled
Looky here
free counters
Stuck in the shade
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
"Happy Idiot" by TV on the Radio.


This song reminds me of how I felt about happy people when I was a teenager. I thought they must just be stupid or ignorant, because there was obviously too much bad in the world to be happy if you actually knew about it or understood it.

It's a bit strange, I guess, to think about that now. The world hasn't gotten better since I had that attitude-- if anything, maybe it's gotten worse-- but I feel a lot more positive about it regardless.

I'm looking forward to being done with this week and finals. Gonna hang out with my boyfriend for a few days, maybe we'll do something fun together. Or just... play video games and cuddle. Who knows. He said he has a surprise for me. :3

That guy I started talking to wasn't on tonight, but I'm hoping we'll get to chat again soon. I'd like to talk to him about a part of his profile... Something he put in his "I spend a lot of time thinking about" section that I think a lot about too. I'm sure there are other people who think about it, but I've never seen it on someone else's profile before. Recently I've been browsing profiles and have seen some things that I really relate to, and it makes me wonder if I should make my profile less vague. Perhaps I would attract more like-minded people if I actually said things on it... Talking about oneself is hard, though.

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Just happy [DP]
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Peeps chat
Saturday, March 21, 2015
"Sinzing Sunset Boulevard" by Moodorama.

I have been listening to this song a lot. It's very... calming.

When you appeared, suddenly I saw myself again
Nobody knew who I was, not even me
Did I find me, or another us? Who knows?
But I don't care anymore


---

Me: We used to have yelling contests in elementary school and I never won.
Boyfriend: Wow, you suck.
Me: We didn't have them for very long because the yard duty teacher would tell us to stop.
Boyfriend: Haha
Boyfriend: That is not surprising.
Boyfriend: You annoying little brats.
Me: My elementary school is surrounded by houses so hopefully nobody thought we were being murdered.
Boyfriend: They were probably hoping you were getting murdered so then you'd stop screaming.
Me: You're such a grumpus
Boyfriend: Why thank you.
Boyfriend: I just try to be the best I can.

---

I've been visiting 99% matches on OKC. So far, a few of them have messaged me, which is cool. One of them seems fairly interesting, and has been replying a lot. This other conversation with a guy in Canada was promising but went downhill kinda fast. He's sort of boring and isn't doing much to keep the conversation going. It got to "so, how come you don't drink?" (we're both teetotalers) and then... yeah. Stagnant. Oh well.

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Me: Your Twitter talk made me want to look at mine.
Matt: Why am I not stalking you?
Matt: What is yours?
Me: Haha, I don't use it for very interesting things.
Matt: I don't care. I need to stalk you in all venues

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Just TMF songs
Thursday, March 19, 2015
"When You're Old and Lonely" by The Magnetic Fields.

When you're old and lonely
And the rush of life is past
Days go by too slowly and
The years go by too fast

When your golden loneliness is
Heavier than stone
You can call me up and say,
"My God, I'm all alone, all alone."


"Heroes" by The Magnetic Fields.

Though nothing will keep us together
We could steal time, just for one day
We can be heroes, forever and ever
What do you say?

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Shaken
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
At my crisis line shift, I talked to a 14 year old kid who had attempted suicide by cutting. Like, attempted literally right before calling, I guess. The kid was trying to stem the flow of blood with a towel while we were on the phone. Wouldn't give me an address or anything, only a phone number, so all I could do was pass the phone number on to the fire department and hope things worked out.

Right before my shift ended, the kid called me back and said my alias faintly. When I said "Hello? [Kid's name]?" the kid hung up.

I felt pretty shaken when I was driving home, and for awhile after getting home.

I feel better now though. I ate some Goldfish and listened to music and looked at pictures of my boyfriend because why not, sometimes that makes me feel better for some reason.

Of course, I hope the kid is okay, but the reality is that I'll probably never know. I guess I should just be grateful that I can bounce back so quickly. Something like this would probably stick with a lot of people. I'm taking the fact that it did impact me as a good thing. It means I'm not desensitized. So I still feel stuff, and things get to me, but they don't have a lasting negative effect.

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Reestablishing contact
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
In the IRC chat I've been going to, I ran into a guy I knew from a chatroom several years ago. It was a bit surreal catching up. He lives in San Francisco now, and just broke up with his girlfriend. They were together for two years and apparently she just decided she'd rather sleep with some random guy from a bar than continue their relationship. He's understandably hurt and bitter because of it, but he's doing his best to move on.

He said he will probably come back to the chat, so maybe we will get to talk again. I was feeling kind of bad myself before we talked about his situation, but my own bad feelings were kind of displaced by my sadness and shock about his situation.

---

After class today, I went to see a documentary about domestic violence. It was very heavy and kind of graphic and I cried a bit several times during it, but I tried very hard not to let anybody see. Sometimes I didn't even know why I wanted to cry. The whole thing was just really hard-hitting. I ended up drinking a ton of water, which seemed to help prevent me from going from "eyes watering a lot" to "straight up crying" during the movie. It made that feeling go away at least, the one where you feel like something is caught in your throat.

The second half of school today was kind of just hard in general. In my last class the lecture was about intimate partner violence and rape. Generally unpleasant stuff. Even though it was kind of dry and academic it was still not fun to hear about. And then the documentary afterward... well... I wasn't feeling great when I got home.

I'm really tired now, but I stayed up late talking to that guy from the chat. Even though I wanted to go to sleep, I didn't want to stop chatting. He went to sleep a bit ago though, so I guess I might as well sleep now too.

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Cure all
Monday, March 16, 2015
[7:15:25 PM] Dan: I'll just get a prostitute
[7:15:33 PM] Dan: Will that solve my problems
[7:15:49 PM] Me: Yes, all of them
[7:17:42 PM] Dan: Finally
[7:17:52 PM] Dan: I actually had a friend suggest it
[7:25:55 PM] Me: I feel like you might have mentioned that before.
[7:25:58 PM] Me: I honestly don't know what that would fix.
[7:27:00 PM] Dan: BACKED UP BALLS, NIGGUH
[7:37:16 PM] Me: Oh yeah, that's where all the sadness lives
[7:38:07 PM] Dan: duh
[7:44:05 PM] Me: I could see this as a news article
[7:44:17 PM] Me: "SCIENTISTS DISCOVER SADNESS LIES IN TESTICLES"
[7:44:21 PM] Me: "FEMALES ALL FAKING"
[7:48:37 PM] Dan: World changed

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Virtue ethics again
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Still thinking about virtue ethics.

Aristotle's proposed goal in virtue ethics is to achieve eudaimonia, which is a long term contentment with the course of one's life, but also a state of human flourishing. A eudaimon life is a life with few regrets, in which one reaches the full potential that could be expected for what one is.

My Ethics prof likes to use the example of a rosebush. A rosebush that is flourishing has green leaves, many blooms, and is healthy and vibrant etc. It is the best for what you could expect of a rosebush. It isn't, as he likes to say, "bionic"-- it isn't some sort of unnaturally enabled rosebush that can walk around and do stuff rosebushes don't normally do. The rosebush needs certain conditions to get it to a flourishing state-- it needs the right amount of water, the right kind of soil, the right amount of sunlight, and so on.

A rosebush cannot flourish if it gets the same amount of sunlight that would be best for a fern. It also cannot flourish if it gets the same amount of water as a cactus. In the former scenario there is excess, and in the latter there is deficiency. It is necessary to find the golden mean between the states of excess and deficiency. This golden mean is virtue.

Aristotle felt that humans were uniquely capable of reason. To reach our full potential we need to make use of that and reason well. We’re reasoning well when we determine where the golden mean is for us-- when we figure out where virtue lies.

To become a virtuous person you need to practice virtue. Another example my prof used was someone who plays a musical instrument. There are good violin players and bad violin players. How do you become a good violin player? By practicing, yes, but not just by practicing. You have to practice playing well. You could play violin eight hours a day and still be a bad violin player if you practice badly.

I think when I first decided I wanted to be the best person I could be, I went a little overboard with some things, but I've been figuring out where a good middle ground is. Like, I realized some point along the way that trying to be 100% selfless wasn't going to work because if I didn't spend at least some time on myself, I wouldn't be healthy enough to effectively support other people. Just trying to make sure I don't slide back though...

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