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Sharp teeth test your skin
too late, you let an angel in
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
―D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
―Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
―Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories — if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
―The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

“The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road.”
― Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita






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Musicalities!
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics

Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Aquapunk
Axe Cop
Basic Instructions
Bear Nuts
Beeserker

Blue Milk Special
Bobbins
Broodhollow
Bug
Buttersafe
Camp Weedonwantcha
Chainsawsuit
ChannelATE
Cigarro & Cerveja
Conspiracy Friends!
Crunchy Bunches

Curia Regis
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Diesel Sweeties
Distillum
DUBBLEBABY
Dumm Comics
Eat That Toast!
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
E-merl.com
The End
Evil Diva
Evil Inc.
Existential Comics
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Forming (Explicit)

Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
Mirror
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hollow Mountain
IDK Comics
Inscribing Ardi
The Intrepid Girlbot
JBabb Comics
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
L.A.W.L.S.
The League of Evil Genius

Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
Meaty Yogurt
Medium Large
The Meek
Metacarpolis
Monsterhood
Monsterkind
The Moon Prince
Moon Town
Moth (Some nudity)
Mr. Lovenstein
Muddlers Beat

Natalie Dee
Nedroid
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Optipess
Out There
Phuzzy Comics
P.I. Jane
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
Powernap
Red Meat
Rice Boy
Robbie and Bobby
Rosscott, Inc.
Safely Endangered
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Savage Chickens
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Serenity Rose
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Stinking Hellebore
Strong Female Protagonist
Subnormality
The Super Fogeys
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy
Mirror

Witchy
xkcd
Yellow Peril (PG-13)

Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
American Hell
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
Bobwhite
The Book of Biff
Brat-halla
Brightest
Bullfinch
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Daisy is Dead
Dream Life
Edemia
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Floodmud
Freaks!

Green Wake
Gun Show
Hello with Cheese
Helpful Figures
Intragalactic
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing

Manta-man
Meat and Plastic
Minimalism Sucks
Mis-
Moe
The Nerds of Paradise
Nimona
No Reason Comics
Odd-Fish
One Swoop Fell
Owen's Uncles
Patches
Pictures for Sad Children
Raymondo Person
A Redtail's Dream

Riotfish
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
Saint's Way
Shortpacked!
Sin Titulo
Snowflakes
Split Lip
Spooky Doofus
SubCulture
Super Buzzkill
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
Thermohalia
Troubletown
Ugly Girl
YU + ME
2815 Monument

Pure Flash Awesomeness
Aardvardkbutter.com
Angry Alien
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
The Frown
Hoogerbrugge

Other
Bogleech
Clients from Hell
Brian Despain
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Submarinechannel.com
Superdickery
UHpinions
Whirled
Looky here
free counters
Something of value
Sunday, June 4, 2017
"My Sentimental Melody" by The Magnetic Fields.

I live on the blue planet
That I saw in your eyes
But now I can't stay
Knowing it's made
Of beautiful lies

---

Love can kill people, can't it?
Well it still may kill me
Each drop of rain
Is a glass of champagne
It's sweet and it's free
When I drink I don't panic
When I drink I don't die
When I'm far gone
It's all just a song
Just beautiful lies


---

I met up with someone yesterday. He's a pretty interesting guy, and I enjoyed talking to him. One of the few extraverts I've met... Socializing was very easy and natural for him, and he said he'd noticed that for people who weren't naturally outgoing, it was hard for them to pick it up. I asked him where he thought I fell on that spectrum, and he said I actually seemed fairly adept at socializing, but he could tell that I had to put effort into it, whereas it came effortlessly to him.

We'd talked for awhile online before meeting up, and at one point he said something that really struck me. I told him I felt kind of bad for shopping and buying things I was only going to wear once or twice, and he responded with "Yeah but those few things that you've only worn once or twice probably looked G R E A T when you actually wore them haha this is actually an adorable and stereotypically 'feminine' quality for you to possess :P"

I guess the reason that this struck me the way it did was because I've always felt kind of guilty for liking shopping, like I'm a bad person for being materialistic at all. My last couple boyfriends had a really negative view of shopping and I didn't feel like it was something I could ever be open about or even approach in conversation with them. Talking to Juliano about it surprised me and made me feel like there are people out there who would accept that part of me and even appreciate it. After that came up in conversation, he asked me a couple different times, unprompted, if I'd bought anything new recently or done any shopping, and I showed him and it felt nice. When we hung out, he also noticed the necklace I was wearing and said he liked it, and I told him about how I only got it because it was a really good deal (under $2), and I never even really wear jewelry usually.

Compliments like the one he gave me about shopping always stay with me. I remember a long time ago, back when Xanga was still a thing (this could have been 10+ years ago now...), Gwenny wrote a post for me as a belated birthday thing. She reframed my pickiness/sensitivity as discerning taste, and said that I was picky, but that meant I picked the best food, best people, etc. I wish I could get her original wording, but Xanga has been gone for a long time. I did email her a few years ago asking if she could download her Xanga archives and send me the post, but apparently she never did. Anyway, that meant a lot to me, because my parents and other people have criticized me a lot in my life for being picky and overly sensitive. In some ways that's been a positive thing, because I've learned how to be more open to new things, but it was also really helpful for me to have some part of that validated and accepted.

It's been a pretty rare occurrence to have something about me I thought was only negative valued by someone else, but I never forget it when it happens. I'd really like to be able to pass that along to other people if I can. I think it kind of goes along with what my dad said about his friend-- that she can find a sincere compliment to give to anyone. I still want to be able to do that, but I haven't been working on it recently... Need to pick that back up.

I should really keep some kind of long term self-development to do list so I don't forget these things. >.>

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I'm almost doooooooone [2P]
Thursday, June 1, 2017
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Just feel like saying
Friday, May 26, 2017
I'm feeling really appreciative of my friends today!

That's all.

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Moods and friendships
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Usually my mood noticeably improves during the spring/summer, and this year seems like no exception. I feel generally good! Like, not hugely depressed. Kind of light, with some energy. It's not every single day, but it's more days than not. This is the time of year when I'm fun and it's easy to be there for people and support them or entertain them. And it feels like it will always be that way and I've finally gotten past all the depression stuff.

But I know that's not true, of course. I mean, I've gone through this cycle a few times now, over several years. Unfortunately it seems to follow a kind of pattern where I feel good in the spring/summer, meet someone, we develop feelings for each other, and then things start to get worse in the fall as my mood drops. And then all the promises I sincerely made when I was feeling good start to fall apart. I've gotta be more careful... The last few times I thought to myself, "I'm always so cautious, I should take a risk and see if it pays off," and it didn't pay off, haha. I mean, I still learned things from those experiences, but I guess I haven't found a good midpoint between caution and risk-taking yet.

What I HAVE learned is how to identify and exit bad situations earlier. Not in an impulsive way where I have a kneejerk reaction to anything that looks "toxic" I mean, but I think a lot more about what's going on and whether it seems like healthy behavior, as well as what factors are feeding into that. In the past I would make a lot of excuses for what was going on and feel like I would stick it out until things got better, but I don't feel like I have any obligation to do that now. Things might get better in the future but I don't have to wait for that if I don't want to. I do make a distinction between taking some distance and cutting people out of my life, though. I don't think there's anybody that I've really 100% cut out of my life, but I will definitely stop putting in as much effort to maintain a friendship if I don't feel like it's going well. If the other person wants to pick up the slack and try to keep things going, that's fine. Kyle and I eventually became friends again, and I think even Trevor and I are on better terms now, although I needed about a year's worth of a break from each of them.

Not sure where I was going with this, but it got kind of rambly so I'll stop here.

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Something I appreciated a few days ago [2P]
Sunday, May 21, 2017
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TAMAFP [4P]
Thursday, May 18, 2017
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Draining/recharging [DP]
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
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Ruining other people's sleep schedules [DP]
Monday, May 15, 2017
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