never been so freakin tired...or annoyed. i have really bad pms and i was so bitchy to Justin tonite. I feel HORIBBLE! I hate it when Im bitchy to him but I cant help it. hes so good to me. fuck me, im a cunt. lol...wow, how literal that could be taken. *sigh* I miss Justin. I jus wanna hug him and jus...never let go.

welll, that one girl...Tysie is out of jail. She was tellin June Bug that shes got nothing to lose and she'll fight us again. Niiiice, riiight? Nooo. But hey, atleast this time..I'm prepared. and self-defense is NOT a crime. so jus remember that. :)

aww today durin gym - leanne, heather, diane, amy, nikita, and I were on a team during basketball and we freaking kicked ass. it was great.

thing i hated most about school today...everyone asking what happened and being nosy. I dunno...maybe I'm crazy but it was madd annoying.

and then Jamie was like 'Amanda, I think its funny how you think you're all tough and then you get your ass kicked...' hmm maybe if he took the time to understand what happened...

whatever

i need sleep

so i am not bitchy with my sexxxay boy tomorrow.

I love him...so fucking much. Its scary...yano?

but i guess i've been over this before...100 times.

I cant believe its been 2 and a half months already. It feels like we jus started dating. I don't mind tho. the begining is the best...:)

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is over. that means, back to school for me tomorrow. hah, wednesdya is gonna be like a freakin monday. great, eh? I'm excited cuz i was bored mostly but...I dont wanna go back to the work and stuff. Plus, I'm way behind in geomatry. I miss Justin. I love him so much. Even though tonite I kept tellin him not to laugh at me and he kept doing it so I hung up on him. It made me angry. Come on...you don't laugh at your girlfriend. you jus don't. =) but anyways, back to schooool tomorrow! :)

i'm scared to go...

people are weird now

they're all gonna be like 'yea she got her ass beat.'

oooh well

any plans for halloween anyone? =) since my boyfriend hasn't asked me to do anything yet...
actually...we kinda already established we were gonna hang out but yea, idk. :) who cares

what do you think of the layout? I hadda re-do it bc my girlie erika messed it up...SOMEHOW! :-p oooh well, i like it better now. but yea...goodbye

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Know all about, yeah, bout your reputation
and now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation.
^that song...perfect.

didnt do much today so far...worked on mine and cornz history outline for american cultures. I figure if I dont do it, its not gonna get done. greaaat, eh? i also straightened my hair with the chemicals and stuff to take out the wave in my roots. aurgh, they're so annoyin. and hten i added numbers to my cell phone and tried to figure some shit out. blah

I also got a letter from Matt. damn, hes great. =) hes great, what can i say. he said the funniest thing. hes like his last name is mood? imagine this, 'amanda mood' haha it made me laugh

whatever

goodbye

oooh ilove you Jen!

oooh, yes riiight. how could i almost forget. god, doesn't Justin look GREAT in that picture? ---> god damn. :) anyways

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didn't really do anything to exciting. we split wood and stuff. haha that wasnt fun but, it was okay cuz now my dad doesn't not like him as much. =) Then we watched white chicks and irobot or something like that. haha white chicks is jus soo funny, i went and saw it with sara when it first came out but it was still jus as funny.

I felt so sick and sore today, it was crazy. And Justin and me like to play around so that didn't help bc I'd scrape one of my bites or something. hah, how funny does that sound?

He kinda made me upset today bc his mom was like, "I heard you got into a little fight the other day..." or something like that and she said it in a sympathetic voice and Justin started laughing. I'm sorry but god, how could he laugh about it. It's not even funny. I mean, I guess it's funny if you hate me and want me to get my ass wooped but it's not funny when I'm your girl friend. Oooh well tho. It happens. We also had a little...not really a fight, jus a...tif about scott/last sunday. he doesn't trust me at all. that's pretty sad because, I have never been this good to a boyfriend. I mean...the way I feel about him is so much stronger then I've ever felt and like...I'd rather get hurt then hurt him. That's how much he means to me. He's got too good of a heart to hurt and he means well altho, sometimes things don't always come out right. I love him...

On to bigger and badder things, 4 months till my 16th b-day. I know it's awhile but...still.

My dad's crazy sometimes. Actually, alot but here's why.--He told me that he'd rather me kill someone with a knife and have to pay the lawyers to get me off easier then to have to come visit me in the hospital. He is crazy, but I guess I can understand his point. He'd rather have me in alot of trouble and be alive then get off without any trouble but be paralyzed or dead. I dunno, sometimes he makes sense.

Kym and I were talkin' the other night about how our fathers are always so angry at the world and have so much hatred towards people and we never really understood why until this shit happened. It makes me angry that someone could hurt me, when I didn't even do anything. And it makes me even angrier, that some people expect me to just let it go and move on. I know it's not over and I'm going to be prepared next time.

But anyways, I don't feel much like writing anything else.

Jus that I love you so much Justin. =)

ooh and check out that pic of him, I happen to think he looks HOTT! ---->

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So, I finally decided to tell the story in my words. I was suspended yesterday so Kym said she'd skip school and we could chill since we haven't gotten to in awhile. I was like hell yes. =) I happen to love the streets and freedom of Elmira.

We hung out all day and watched TV and went out for a bit. By the time we got back, it was about 5ish and we called Ruth to see what she was up too. She was eating pizza so yano, we were so there. haha we got around and left at about 5 to six. We walk outside and see all the black people outside. One of 'em were like, 'they're the ones who threatened to blow up our house.' Now, I never said that and neither did Kym so we jus ignored 'em and kept to ourselves. As we were walking away, they were threatening us and everything but I jus kept to myself. We were TOTALLY outnumbered so, yea. Ignore 'em, they'll go away. Riiight? Dead wrong.

Well, we were about 50 ft away and we hear hollering so we turn around and what do we see? Two black chicks standing at the corner saying they're going to kick our asses when we come back. We ignored them and I figured we'd have Kym's dad pick us up or something. Then we hear footsteps running up behind us and I could see them running at us out of the corner of my eye. The one chick starts asking us why we threatened to blow up there house. I was like, 'God, I haven't been here in like 6 weeks, it couldn't have been me.' And she's like 'you sure?' and I was like 'yesssss.' and then she's like 'positive?' and I was about to turn around and just walk away and as I turned around she jumped on me and pulled my hair and threw me to the ground. By this time, the other girl is jumping in and kicking me in the head numerous times. Kym jumped at her and tried to get her to stop kicking me...and it worked. But, she started pulling Kym's hair. The girl who had me was biting my back and wouldn't let go. She then attempted to rip out two of my earrings, but fortunately, I had in earrings then pull out easily so my ears didn't get ripped. Somehow, during the struggle, my nose ring was snatched and it's badly infected and sore now. I finally started to get loose and the girl started biting me 'effin boob. I mean, right next to my nipple. It hurt like a freaking bitch.

At this time, the college guys who were playing football jump over the fence and start pulling the girl off from me. As he was doing this, the girl had a hold of my hair and wouldn't let go. While he was pulling her, my hair was just coming out in clumps. The girl then bites the guy and I finally get loose and so does he.

Some of the girls that were playing football start screaming that the cops our on there way and the girls start talking there shit. They're like 'I aint scared of the police...' as they run off. Within a minute, the police arrive and they ask if any of us needed immediate medical attention and we're all like no. They question us for a few mins and then ask us if we're going to want to press charges.

Of course, we do. You don't just jump someone for no reason. I honestly did not do anything to deserve that shit. If I had been talking' smack to her, it'd be different...but that wasn't the case. The police give us a ride back to Kym's house and start questioning the neighbors on the girls where about. You know how it is, no one has seen them...and no one knows who they are. We all sit around and wait for one of our parents to show up. There is no answer at my house. Kym's dad is no where to be found, and neither is Helen. The cops started saying I needed to go to the emergency room and I was like, 'Hell no.' There was no way I was going for a few bites and a very sore head.

We got in touch with Helen who came over right away. She said she wanted me to go to the hospital and she called my house and told my parents. They were flipping', but came up and met us at the hospital. My mom said I had all my shots and stuff and the nurse said all they were going to do is give me an antibiotic which isn't going to do anything. So, we left and went over to Kym's to see if they'd found the girls.

While we were gone, Kym's dad was at her house sitting on the balcony watching what was going on outside. The two girls who jumped us were standing right in front of Kym's place bragging about it. Come on, how dumb is that. He called the police and watched the girls run inside as the police showed up.

When we got back to Kym's, the police asked me and Kym to sit in the back of his car and they were going to bring the girls out and we were to identify them. The first one came out--she had changed her clothes and taken out her braids. You could tell they had just been taken out so, we knew it was her. She was 15, and so she was released into her mothers custody. [Who later ended up being arrested for god only knows what.] The mother was flipping' on the girl...it was hilarious.

They brought the next girl out, and we could tell it was her because she had her knappy, overly-dried and processed hair. She had another little hat on and some kind of ugly red jump suit. It was so obvious they had changed there ugly little outfits. She was 18, so as soon as we told the police it was her, she was arrested on the spot. =)

The police told us we had to go down to the station and file a complaint and fill out the reports. We went down and the girl was brought in behind us and we could hear her just a crying' and screaming. She shouldn't have been beaten up on innocent little girls. O:-) Anyways, we waited around for like 45 mins when finally Frank came up with the great idea of going to get donuts. Ruth went with my dad, mom, and Helen and got me a caramel iced latte. I love them. I love Ruth, she's so sweet...so is Kym. She feels so bad because I got the worst of it physically, but she got it worse mentally cause she was held back while I got the crap beat out of me.

But anyways, Kym went in for questioning first and was done in about 45 mins. I went in second and got pics taken of all my injuries and stuff. They had this woman come in and take the pictures because...they were of my boobs and stuff soo that was a little weird. I then told the guy what happened and everything and was out of there about an hr. later.

So that's my story of the worst night of my life. Let me tell you something though. After being put through that, it's made me a little more angry with the world, and a little more understanding of how life really is. And it sucks.

But Kym and Ruth - I wanted to say thank you girls for being there and I do not blame either one of you. I love you ladies...

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here's the pics of my bites...im not gettin any pics of my face cuz...yea...its not to bad but its bad enough where I dont want ne one seeing it. hah

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