soo...my weekend was pretty okay. I went to Justins sat. and we went up to the mall with Scott and Sam. That was interesting. I honestly don't care for Sam much but what could I do. Sat nite we went back to his house and jus hung out and got some food. We watched some tv and he fell asleep.

sunday, we didnt do much. went to his band concert[yea he plays the trumpet, got a problem biiiitch?>:O] haha he did great of course. I met Jo. shes cool...woah she was like bouncing off the walls tho. I was all like :-x cause there was allll these people around that I didn't know. I always feel really gay like that when shit like that happens.

sunday night he took me home and then Nat came up. She brought up her prom dress, shes letting me borrow it for prom since someone stole my money. :( but her dress is sooo gorgeous. Its all white and its long and wow...its pretty. It fits me pretty well too. Its a little long but I'm going to deal with it cause I'm not getting a dress thats not mine hemmed, etc..but it'll be okay. I'll def. be getitng a few pics. Wooohoo...I'm excited.

but yea, monday night sara came up and we chilled for a bit. hahaha I love her. I love everyone tho.

tonight, tiff came up and she did my hair up like shes going to do it for prom. It's going to look awesome. I'm not even kidding. Woo, I'm SOOO physced about prom. I dunno why...I jus am. Hopefully we have an awesome time. Justin got a white tux and i got a white dress...lmao, his mom was like...'You'll look like virgins...' and started laughing hysterically cause she knows we're not. I was like...'funny lisa, reallllly funny' hahaha...it was pretty funny but it made me and her uneasy I think.

but yea, then tiff and I went to the mall. I got a few new things. Eeekers...a cute shirt and a pair of shorts, a new jacket...and some under garments. lmao.

well I gtg cook something, Im hungry.

I love you Justin!

BTW...suspended AGAIN tomororw. im so sicka this bullshit. Im suspended for uhh...telling mr brann to shut up. screw him...

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someone stole my damn wallet. it really pisses me off. i had 160 dollars in it to pay off my prom dress and my layaway slip. I called the store and asked if I could get my money refunded or get the dress without my slipa nd they said no. that sucks. so much. so looks like I'm borrowing a dress. it pisses me off. I'm not even that pissed that someone stole the money, Im pissed that someone stole it and they KNEW the money was to pay off my dress. That's like...saying they wanna ruin prom. stupid fuckers. GRR>:O [Yesss, that means I kinda have a general idea of who took it...] so yea..im kinda bitchy

not to mention...so is my boyfriend. hes seriously sucha grouch lately. idk what to do anymore. blahhh...

whatever...

plans for the weekend? ... I dont know... maybe Justins...but idk anymore...

well im out...

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sat was mine and Justins 9 months. That's all I really have to say about the weekend. It def. wasn't the best...:-/who the hell knows...

Justins parents let me drive home when they took me home sunday. lol, I did sooo frigign shitty. Like...so horibble. His mom is fuckin...GRR. whatever.

whatever...

Im suspended tomorrow. what a fucking surprise. Its for not doing my sat...which I had for not doing my detentions which I had for getting kicked outta class with natalie and chewing gum in mr starks class. Its so gay. I told abreu i wasnt doing my detentions ever so jus to give me a day out, but does she listen...no. Lol...like...12 weeks later, im jus getting punished for it. whatever. school is so damn gay

hurrrs a quiz i took:-p

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Amanda
Birthday:	2/24/89
Birthplace:	towanda
Current Location:	gillett
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5'2
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	italian and german
The Shoes You Wore Today:	brown walmart sandals...
Your Weakness:	Justin
Your Fears:	not knowing what I want
Your Perfect Pizza:	peperoni and cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get my license?
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	haha
Thoughts First Waking Up:	I can get 10 more mins in
Your Best Physical Feature:	NONE:-p
Your Bedtime:	whenever
Your Most Missed Memory:	...wont go thurrr
Pepsi or Coke:	water
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	I like both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla ice cream but chocolate cake:-p
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes:-[
Do you Sing:	YES:)
Do you Shower Daily:	yupper
Have you Been in Love:	maybe
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	idk, i think
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	naww boo
Do you think you are Attractive:	naww
Are you a Health Freak:	naww
Do you get along with your Parents:	naww
Do you like Thunderstorms:	oooh boy, yes
Do you play an Instrument:	nawww..
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yea but not ALOT
In the past month have you Smoked:	...kinda
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nopers
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	i guess?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	eww never
In the past month have you been on Stage:	for our english cafe, doe shtat count?
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	naww
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope, i dropped that habit after getting busted:-p
Ever been Drunk:	yuppers
Ever been called a Tease:	i guess
Ever been Beaten up:	yup
Ever Shoplifted:	yesssss
How do you want to Die:	like in the notebook...awww
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a lawyer...thats all I know? :-/
What country would you most like to Visit:	italy
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	green
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	shaggy
Height:	taller then meee
Weight:	bufffff
Best Clothing Style:	preppy or skaterish...also, the hole cowboy get up totally turns me on
Number of Drugs I have taken:	idk...none that I didnt NEED.
Number of CDs I own:	idk
Number of Piercings:	17
Number of Tattoos:	0...yettt
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	none
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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I jus listened to an old cd I had and it had a bunch of songs on it that reminded me of a guy I was with for a little while. I was thinking about putting one of 'em in my info on aol...and then I started looking up the lyrics and...when I read it, I knew I couldn't put that in my info. It's so wrong...yano? Like...I don't think anyone should EVER quote a song that reminds them of someone else no matter how long ago it be. ... Idk how to explain it, jus...when I hear certains songs...BAM, it reminds me of someone or something. It's crazy...this one song, every time I hear it, I remember singing it to Beaner on the phone. And this other one, I remember it as the belly button song cause when leasha allie and I went and got our BB's pierced, the song was on before we got there and after we left. It's fucking crazy. I mean, alot of other songs remind me of MORE meaningful things but, you get the point. The song welcome to my life, it reminds me of when Kym and I got beat up. It's crazy...idk why but, thats been on my mind ALOT lately. The song thing, not getting beat up.

alot of other shits been on my mind tho. Like, this summer I want to get a job. I havent even began looking for one or found one, but I want one. I mentioned it to Justin and he pretty much told me I couldn't get one. It pissed me off. No man in this world is ever going to control my actions [besides the padre]. As much as I think the world of Justin, I won't give up something I wanna do bc he wants me to. He works two jobs now, and I wait around for him every night after work...waiting to talk to him, and I don't wanna do that all summer. Of course, he seems to think its TOTALLY fair for him to have two jobs but I can't even have one. It's not fair. He's like, 'I'll pay for whatever you want and give you money, I jus dont want you to have a job.' I'm like...FUCK THAT. I don't want that. It's gay. I'll jus end up a moocher and I don't fucking do that shit to my boyfriend. Not to mention, I don't want to come to rely on a man. EVER. It's dumb and it'll jus leave me really hurt when its all said in done. I dunno, does anyone else agree with me? I mean, I can understand Justins point about how we'll never get to see each other because our hours wont be the same...but still. Why should he be allowed to have 2 jobs and i cant even have one? ... I dunno, maybe I'm wrong.

I was thinkin' about allie earlier. I really miss her. It's so crazy. She's done so many mean things to me and stuff but, it doesn't change anything. I miss her...so much.

I gotta go cause Keith needs help. WOOHOO

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Monday nite I think it was...I babysat for Joshys sister for a few hrs and then chilled with him and a bunch of people. hes down in NC already. BOOHOO...that shit seriously makes me friggin bawl my eyes out. It sucks...but what can yah do? It was a crazy night tho, everyone was drinking and smoking...stuff. I was like...'yup Im the prud girl who doesnt do that shit bc her boyfriend doesnt think she needs to.' lmao, I didnt really say that and wasnt really thinkin it but its kinda the truth but ooh well, hes worth it. :-*

yesterday, Tiff was telling Beaner about a comment I made toward her about being a lesbian [joking of course] and then Beaner was like...yea well, if I ever was gay, I'd wanna be gay with your boyfriend. lmao, it was hilarous coming from Beaner whose anti-gay and even funnier cause Justins pretty much the same way. I laughed...I got a kick out of it.

I needa get my grades up. My English one I'm not worried about but the rest of 'em are jus going downhill so bad. I can't stand it. It's horibble. I needa get my fucking act together. We have about 23ish days of school left. I'm excited as hell for the summer but man...it's hard to believe that I'll be one year closer to graduating and it's going to suck ass without Natalie and Tim and Tom durin web design. Mostly Natalie tho. Aww how I jus love her. We're def. gonna have to chill over the summer and stuff.

Weekend Plans? Nothing definite yet...I guess Justin and I aren't going to the Sohpmore Hop. I kinda wanted to go but its jus too much fucking around for one god damn dance. Plus, I need all the money I have right now to finish paying off my prom dress. I have enough right now to pay for the rest of my dress but thas about it.

Current annoyance?:
people who are like, "I love you so much" after about the first week of there relationship. That pisses me off more then anything in the world. You dont LOVE someone as a friggin week, or even a month. You can only begin to really love someone when the thought of losing them is more pain then you can bear. That's love. Not...when you can find someone else within a week and talk shit on the ex after you guys break up. If you ever really LOVED someone, you will ALWAYS love them. Yea...okay, I'm done bitching about that.

For English, I'm doing my speech on the number one killer of teens; car accidents. Its pretty hard. Theres so much shit due this week...fortunuately, the only thing I need to do now is right the rough draft of my speech. I got the outline and the bib done. Well the rough one. It's hard.

Saturdays mine and Justin's 9 months. I've mentioned it before but I'm going to mention it again cause it makes me happy. Wow...9 months.

It went by so quick, which brings me to how fast time is changing now. I can't believe its almost summer vacation again. I feel like it jus ended a few months ago. WOW. Don't get me wrong, I'm hella excited but scared to. I need to start thinking about my future...school next year? I'm still working on going to school in Elmira. I dunno. Maybe, maybe not.

Which bums me out cause I haven't chilled with Kym in awhile. It sucks. She's always working and when shes not, she has school and once in awhile she gets a day off. Plus, I spend my time with Justin, etc. It sucks. Grr...ooh well, what can yah do? Hopefully I get to see her soon tho. I MISSSSS YOU!

sometimes, girls piss me right the hell off. Okay, ALOT. Like...I know I'm a girl and all but...I hope I never do any of the GAYYY ass shit I've seen some chicks do. Like...say something really loud that they know would piss someone off...jus to piss them off. It's so ignorant. Obviously, you still have feelings for whatever the fuck the losers name was if you'll go OUT of your way to friggin piss him off or try and hurt him. and what's up with the lying and shit? You don't impress the shit out of me when you lie about shit. Esp when I can tell. God damn, how dumb can you get. Whats worse even is when they push the lie so its like...something fucking totally from a fiction book. Whatever.

I'm going to miss Brock like crazy next year. I dunno why but I jus thought of that. Aww...=/ it bums me out. He's a sweetie. Tha's for sure.

but no ones as sweet as my babbbby; I think I'm going to go wait for him to call or get online. BOOOOOOOO...work sucks. :-p I LOVE YOU!

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