of how my day went. It was actually pretty awesome. Half a day - geomatry test, didnt have to do ne thing in gym, finished my pot in ceramics, and got a detention from Mr. Bowers. That guy is such a dick. I have something wrong with my bladder and he wouldnt let me go to the bathroom so I just left. hes a dickhead. then after school I went over to shawnys for a few hrs and hung out with him. haha it was odd, hes so crazy. and then gavin came down and i went for a ride with him. scary, i tell yah. and it didnt help that he was pickin on me soooo friggin bad cuz i was getting scared. him and shawny both wouldnt let me drive there cars. :( haha and then shawn and gavin went kayakin...it was soo funny. then we went back to shawns, i called Justin and made plans with him. then we went and picked erika up, went to charlies and hung out and then Justin came. it was fun. I love that boy to pieces...sometimes, I wonder how I ever had any doubts about him. then we played some pool, air hockey, and jus sat around and then went to the game. I dunno why but that kid just makes me smile so freaking much. i dont think I've ever been this happy with someone. but yea, then we went to teh dance. it kinda sucked but i jus...loved being with Justin. =) but the best part is yet to come. Brock took me home and he let me drive up roarin run and bird creek and wow, I love his car. It handles awesome and jus...its really awesome. haha =) i cant believe he actually let me drive. :) I think I'll love him forever for that. haha but i need some sleep...so yea, hope everyone had a great time...ooh and congrats to brit on homecoming queen or whatever its called. =)

shawny and erika, you guys are great together. I hope things last for you two. :)

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today kinda sucked. I guess. I haven't been feelin like myself lately. At all actually. It's weird. I jus...dont have my normal spiff or whatever. I suck. It's all gone, I guess that happens when you get broke. Fuck, shit happens.

I got my pot done. It's lookin really awesome. Tomorrow Erika is going to take a pic of it for me since my cam is no longer mine...haha and I'll upload it. You'll be like 'damn...' I might have already said that in a previous entry but I really like my pot. Its awesome...haha I jus hope it lasts awhile. I'm gonna give it to Justin pry...but he'll pry make me cry and say its ugly. He'd better not tho. its GORGEOUS!

during gym, Devon thru the football to me and i caught it and scored. I was so proud. I mean, so very proud. I was so happy. You should have seen it. =) Haha I wanna go out for football next year, I think it'd be fun. But, I bet the school won't let me. Fuckers

so tomorrow is home-coming. I want Justin to go with me but he pry won't. He's too good for me or something. Actually, he has basketball and work soo yea...ooh well. I kinda want Joshy to go but everyone will be like 'thats not Justin...' and i'll be like 'yup, its my friend Joshy...' and then we'll have rumors flyin and shit so fuck that. i also kinda wanna go ice skating and so Joshy and I might do that. I dunno yet. Joshy is going to find out what time and if they're even open. I jus heard it on the radio and was like 'I wanna goooo!' Who knows, I jus know that tomororw, I am doing somehting and it's gonna be awesome...haha

blah...i suck...

thas all im writing...

cuz now im leaving...i think. bye=)

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was okay. I got to sleep in a little bit...then went to the probation guys office. we waited for like EVER to get in...okay, like half an hr or so. it sucked ass...but yea. then all the guy said was they're gonna be sending a letter home or calling and lettin me know when I actually have court. it was dumb...and when I walked thru the metal detector, it went off. of course, it didnt when sara or judy or my mom did but it did me. and so the guy used the little metal scanner thingers and it kept goin off on my pants and aurgh, it was annoying and embarrassing. haha but ooh well. so yea, I gotta go to court again. I jus wanna get this shit over with...I really do. Its jus bothering the fuck out of me.

but, i got lots of candy for my locker, and i got subway for lunch. =) it was good. of course, I didn't get to school late enough where I missed Mr. Bowers. God that teacher is such a dick.

I need to go to the bathroom, I think I have a UTI. It hurts soo bad to pee. It's jus...horibble. Hah, pry from Mr. Bowers not ever letting me go to the bathroom and me holding my pee in FOREVER! :( Fuck that guy, I hate him.

Anything else interesting happen today? ooh yes, I am almost finished with my pot. I am so excited to get it done. Its looking REALLY hott...I'll have to get pics of it and upload 'em when its done. you'll be like DAMN! =) haha

I think I need to stop blowdrying my hair. It's like...breaking. Its annoying. Its getting to the point where I won't even be able to wear it up anymore cuz i'll have so many fly aways. fuckers

football today durin gym jus pissed me off. I hate Darren Lindsey and that Andy kid. They're both cocky mother fuckers and I'd like to take them out. Also, Mrs. Salata is a bitch. she's jus like everyone else from troy...which is odd bc she lives in elmira. heh, crazy.

but yea, shit happens.

i'm out...

I love Justin!

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ummers, yesterday...I went and hung out with Joshy last nite and we went out to chinese and then went back to Tia's and...nevermind what we did. =) Then Tia hadda take me home.

Yesterday in gym class, i scored a touchdown. It was awesome...but then Jeremy ran into me or I ran into him and fell on the ground. That sucked, stained my white shirt. Oooh well.

Yesterday...it jus really sucked. I was so feeling shitty and unhappy and wanted to die but...idk ne more. I feel a bit better. I can't let no boy get me down...no matter how much I care for him.

So, Matt and Arrell broke up. He cheated on her. Today at lunch Steven was like 'Manda, why don't you hook arrell up with your bf since ever guy she dates cheats on her...and yours cheated on you' and it really made me upset. Leanne and Ryan also broke up. It's crazy. . . someone else did, I jus cant remember who. I think this is a bad time for love or something. I dunno. School is depressing lately. Everyones sad...even me. Shelly and Timmy are having problems too...and some guy told me he's breaking up with his gf tonite. WTF? What's happening to this world? :(

anyways, I could write alot more but I'm gonna stop now...maybe more later.


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tomorrow i have my lil court hearin thing. I am so fuckin scared. It's unbelievable. I mean, you have no idea how worried I am. Blah, tomorrow i'll let everyone know how it turned out. wish me luck. =/

oooh yes, and my gramma kuster...my moms mom, is in the hospital and she isn't supposed to get out. her cancer is spreadin throughout her hole body and the doctors can't stop it. :( soo, my gramma is dying. :( I haven't seen her in years. Well, except like a few fridays ago when I went and saw her at the hospital but...yea, that sucked. :(

life sucks...

but atleast I still got my boy

and hes all mine...

hopefully

bye

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was great. I mean, it serisously was. saturday i woke up and felt sick...heh so didnt have to work. rode 4-wheeler. =) it was awesome...then saturday nite i went with Justin and hung out with his friend scott and umm...matt? haha it was awesome...definitely. =) then stayed the nite at Justins...that was fun. hehe yea...I'm not going into details but, I had an awesome time. I love him to pieces. It's almost been two months...I'm happy. I hate the distance and all, but its good in a way because we dont see each other much so we never argue or anything. Atleast not seriously. =) Anyways, I have things to do...

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Friday...that was fun. Me and Erika were hanging out with Shawny and Justin. I hope they hook up. Erika and Shawny I mean...they're cute together and Shawn needs someone to make him smile. As does Erika...I love 'em! :)

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