I feel so upset tonite. I dont know why. I just..hate things right now. People need to learn to care. And when I say people, I mean him.

but on to better news, yesterday I went to the mall with Sara to hang out with some guys. Haha...it was odd. But yea, I guess it was pretty fun. Sara seems to be diggin the new guy. Poor Dustin. On the way to the mall, I called him and apologized to him for being sucha bitch with him and we talked. He's a sweet kid sometimes. Then he kept calling Sara the hole time we were at the mall. The new guy Sara likes, Justin[not MINE], got on the phone and started bitching at him. He seemed pretty annoyed. Haha...it was kinda funny. And the other guy, Ryan, he looked familiar but...he wasn't. I dunno, it's gay.

today, Sara and I rode bikes to Elmira. Woot woot, that was crazy. My back got burnt again. =/ aww well. Then we went and got my pics from Eckerds...then went to Sara's, and then to Jackies and went swimming for about an hr. It was fun.

tomorrow Justin said something about coming up. Blah...yea right. He always says stuff that never happens anymore. It bums me out. whatever. I need to move on or something. I have all these fucked up feelings right now. I just wrote this really gay entry but it was so gay that I was like...PW biznatch. haha...yea that was GAY.

but I'm tired. I am going to go to bed. an hr of school tomorrow and then woot, schools out for the year and I am a junior. Woot woot. This is sOoOoOo exciting. hahaha...

BTW, where the hell has Tiff been?! =( I haven't seen her in FOREVERRRRR! Miss you my loveyyy doveyyy sweetie. hahaha...ahh nvm:-p

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hmm, monday nite Tiff and Sara came up. Haha Tiff kept arguing with my dad for making sexist comments. lol...it was pretty funny. Then we called Dustin and Tiff talked to him like she knew him. hahahaha, it was funny. Then I got on the phone and started screaming my lungs out at him. Then we get online and fucked up his myspace and got on his aim and were fucking with peopke. Goddddddd, it was sooo funny. That kid is sucha loser. He really is. He's like the biggest loser I've ever met. And he's going to get 'runned over by a bus'. lmao...

well yea. yesterday was my last final and pretty much my last day of school for this year. We go back Fri. for report cards, etc but that's it. It makes me sooo friggin happppy. I have to go apply places for a job. I really do. I need one.

Anyone know anywhere that's hiring in Elmira? =) haha...If I don't get a job, I have a feeling it's going to be one long, boring summer with Justin working allll the time, Kym working, Tiff being with Beaner. It'll be just me and Sara.

I might go to the mall with Sara tonite to meet some guy. She's so crazy...I tell yah what. haha

I need to clean my room hardcore today so I think that's what I'm going to do. Get rid of all these clothes I don't wear and stuff...

but now im going to get some breakfast.

<3 Yesterday was 10 months for Justin and I...<3
I don't think he even knew. haha...whatever

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sat I got up early and went to the mall with my Loveyyy Tiff. We went to friendlys for breakfast and got gooood food. then we went and bought some clothes and spent some money, then headed back to my house to see if I could spend the nite at her house.

then I was supposed to go to Justins sat. nite but, shit always gotsa happen. so that didnt work out. So Tiff broke her plans with Beaner for me. I felt bad but then Jessica Ross came up and we all chilled and just hung out. It was fun. Even tho Tiff bailed on us early...haha me and Jess were up till like 3 AM jus talking about everything. She's sucha sweetie. So is Tiff. They're such sweet girls.

then I woke up around 8 and brought tiff's super cute puppy onto the bed with us. aww he had to pee so we brought him outside and then when he came back downstairs, he was all playful. hes like attacking my hair and Jess's. hahaha, and then he saw his reflection and BARKED at himself. It was cute.

I fell back to sleep and when I woke up, I thought it was 9:30 so I rushed around getting ready and I get outta the shower and its like...8:56. haha, so I jus played with the pup till Justin showed up.

about that time, everyone else starts getting outta bed and we made breakfast. I'm getting super quick at making eggs. haha...then we ate and then Justin and I headed up to the mall.

...and that's that.

cause the rest is for a more private entry.

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what a surprise. Blah, last weekend he asks if I wanna come down next weekend. Of course, I wanted TO. But then, he says we're going to hang out Sunday cause hes working Sat. I was bummed! But then I was like...whatever, me and Tiff'll chill Sat. So then, he tells me...I gotta work Sunday at 4. Sooo, guess whose gonna get to spend about...5 hrs with Justin this weekend? YES, thas me. I feel so ripped off. Ooh well, i guess it happens. Gotta keep the money rolling, eh? hahaha...YEA.

today was okay. I babysat. Got some more money. Gavin paid me for his project. After complaing I put football instead of soccer. what a baby.

I talked to Allie Hall today. Well I did yesterday too but I did today too for longer. She was killing me...making me choke. God I love her. Shes so sweet.

we played cowboys and indians in eng. our team fucking sucked. aww well. Me and Justin and Chris jus sat in the back and picked up the balls. We'd try and whisper the words to each other but...everyone would STARE so you couldn't.

final test in esapanol. kinda sad, lotsa good talks in that class with crusty-ella and cecelia. They're some awesome girls. I love 'em. the test wasn't too bad.

then I went to lunch. I feel so awkard sitting with amanda and everyone cause they're all against preps and stuff and I'm not a prep, but I'm more so then them. Aww well, they're cool.

web design, Im jus about done with everything. Thankfully seeing as we only have like...2 days left. holy shittt.

and sci wasn't so bad today. Mr. Stark kept us all alive with experiements and stuff. Mannn, i forget what happened but soemthing happened and I couldn't stop laughing. It was crazy. I think Stark was jus being..."Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiird" idk but John and I were laughing.

babysat tonite, and then hung out with erik for a while and a bunch of other people. God I hate feeling weird when I dunno people. haha I boxed tho. I was punching this fat kid...I totally wooped his ass.

I'm trying to quit some bad habits I have...
like, biting my nails, cracking my back...idk, can't remember any other ones really. i'll get back to you on that.

but im out

I love you Justin...

crazy/beautiful

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