I like it when people comment on my entries. I dunno why. It makes me feel like someone actually reads this shit besides Joshy. Hahaha I really wanted to go with them this weekend but, I wouldnt be home till Monday and Justin was coming over sooo he couldnt even have gone with us because he starts school monday.

i hate school, I really dont wanna go. whats the sense. you go to get an education and go onto college. well what about the poor people who cant afford college or the dumb ones who arent smart enough to get an education but still wanna make something of themsevles? what about the ones who deserve an education...the ones who need it? this world is a vicious cycle. all the rich or smart people take over the world and the poor or dumb people end up working at mcdonalds or some other minimun-waged paying jobs...when they're the ones we need running the world. well bye

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Justin is supposed to come over today. I really miss him. I need a 'Justin fix' lol as Joshy would put it. Uhhh Joshy and Tia and everyone isnt going to be around this weekend sooo we can't go hang out with him which I really want to do because I want Joshy to meet Justin. Damn fucking partyers...I guess they're going to the last big party of summer or something. I could never go with them...lol, cant keep up with them. yano the saying about running with teh big dogs...i cant remember it but if anyone knows, tellll me cuz its bothering me!

Auuuurgh!

I have this angry feeling in me...I should take a shower and do my hair and shit so I'm all pretty if Justin does come up! :)

sooo, i shall be back later. altho, I probably wont write...but I might. lol...I'll pry go looking at everyones nutang and comment. I do that when I get bored...not that nutangs a last resort to me or ne thing...hah i'll shut up now.

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well not really...but this morning, I thought I might drown myself in my own tears? lol if thats posibble..or something. Justin informed me that his parents are considering moving to Annville..? which is near Harrisburg which is like 4 hrs away. Which means...yes, thats what it means. :( I cant even say it. I shoulda known something bad would happen, things were too good and I was too happy. Well, hopefully he doesnt have to. I mean, I know that he wantsa go jus because but, I really dont wanna lose him.

so I called Tia up so we could hang out and talk but she wasnt home. Then I called Joshy and he told me he was about ready to hit up the gym but I could come with him if I wanted. That was kinda kewl. I punched the punching bag for like an hr straight and then me and Joshy boxed. It was kewl. I got some of my frustration and anger out. But I think I broke my thumb...or something. It hurts sooo bad and its red...or purple or something. fucker...

well anyways, hopefully I get to hang out with Justin tonite because I realllly miss him. Like...you couldn't even begin to imagine. Its horibble.

well, I'm gonna go clean my room and stuff. maybe get another shower...even tho I spent like an hr on my hair earlier...haha:D its hard getting used to a new hair cut because I cant jus straighten my hair anymore, I gotta curl it.

sigh, life sucks...

ooh, I never wrote this yesterday but my mom let me drive the corvette down to Saras yesterday. :) it was awesome...:sigh: only a year left till I can drive...if i can manage to get my permit and license...hahaha

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Well, Tia and everyone was bitching that they should have a special entry because she thinks they're so wonderful:)lol...and shes right sooo, here yah go babe.

What can I say about you guys...:) haha great fucking times with all of you. Tonys going home party was...awesome. It fucking rocked. I wish I coulda gone out with you guys that nite but...thats okay. :)

Tia, ahh babe...you're like the big sister I never had...err well yano. :/Thanks for always being there for me and having my back thru it all. I'm glad things are better between us and yano that I'm always here for you. Through it all.
-making ice cream?
-'no no dont suck it like that hunnie, like this...'
-going to bloss the one time :( that fucking sucked. but, everything happens for a reason.
-your new car n ur lil rap about it. 'I got a new toy, its an envoy.' n then later 'for my being black, my rap cant hack' lmao...ooh yano I love yah babe. always and forever. :) Its gonna suck when you move this year but, we'll stay in touch and never ever forget each other. Good luck in life with all you do and with Jonny.;) Whatever you decide to do, you'll do great at it.

Joshy, 'damn boy...you got my head in a spin.' Yano I think the world of you and you're pry the greatest guy friend I'll ever have...but somethings are best not pushed and you know that. Great times tho...and hopefully plently more. I really appreciate everything you've done for me.
-you have realllllllllly nice teeth...and ur response to that:-p
-your tongue ring.;)oooh yano
-your fro...I wish you'd blow dry ur hair more often!:)its soo cute
-all the trips to fair shake or kfc 'jus to talk'.:(I'll love you forever for those trips. You've saved my life on more then one occassion.:)
-the one time you tried getting into the wrong explorer! :o how embarrassing! :-[ hahahaha and then you 'omg Im so sorry, mine looks jus like it...' as you point to the wrong car. the woman: 'thats a pontiac' lmao!:)
I love yah Joshy...always and forever. :) You're a wonderful guy...I know that sometimes we wish things woulda happened differently with us but they didn't so lets jus take what we've got. Stay that sweetie that you are...and goodluck with everywhere yah go in life. You too will go far...jus lay off the crack.:-p

Tony, wow their's alot I could say to you. I still wish things woulda happened differently but us but, we rushed things and it got us no where.:) its all good tho. Thanks for everything you've done for me. I'll never forget the day we met and I jus cried and cried in ur arms. That was really nice of you...I've had alot of amazing times with you...like...valentines day.:) haha but ne ways, you're a gorgeous guy and I hope things work out between you and Chrissa. You deserve to be happy. I'm glad after what we went thru I can actually say that to you and mean it.
-valentines day..;)
-walking down the road stoned 'I got shit in my shoe'...me: 'no I think thats you you're smelling'
-all the crying I did...
-me losing ur class ring:( n then calling you at 3 in the morning to tell you I found it.
Ooh man, I could go on forever...Tony, you're a wonderful friend. I really am glad I met you and don't regret a single thing thats happened with you. :-/ I jus wish things didnt get fucked up like you made them:-p:(but thas okay. goodluck with Chrissa. And, have my money ready bitch, I'll be able to do it!:)

Zack...wow, alot of crazy shits gone on between us. I wish we got along better, but 'I guess we cant have our cake and eat it too.':-p haha, that was soo cute when you said that. Keep your head up buddy, it'll happen for you someday.
Chris, 'Hi my name is Chris and I'm the designated driver.' 5 mins later, 'wait my license is suspended...why am I the designated driver?!>:O' You have a great sense of humor and a wonderful voice. Follw ur dreams sweetie:)
...everyone else, you're all great. :)

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or not. so i wrote a letter to matt and looked up the adress for the jail and called down there to make sure hes still there and everything and then I take a special trip out to the mailbox to send it out and then this morning my brother tells me that someone smashed and shot out mailbox. WTF?!? my thoughts exactly. Who the hell would shoot and smash my poor mailbox.:( I wanna cry...I put alot of energy into getting that letter around and shit. fuckers, now its got a hole right thru it. haha yea that definitely sucks ass.

and I miss Justin. haha I love him. he makes me smile no one else else can. its scary...:(

ne ways, more later

oooh...what happened to nutang that it was down last nite?:(

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so I got my hair cut finally. nothing drastic, jus trimmed and more layers added and shit. it looks bouncy=) bouncy is good.:)

i also got my cd burner...soo now I jus gotta install it. yeaaa

yea...thats it. my life is dead.

idk why but i feel angry

so very angry

so fuck you...

and you too asshole.

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