this weekend was actually really good. I mean, for the most part. I missed Justin alot but...you know how that stuff goes. But the family reunion sat was pretty fun. I played chess with my grandpa for like...2 hrs straight. I mean...one game. It was a very intellucatioal[sp] game. Then I went to the lake and went swimming with some of the cousins and played some football with a bunch of there friends that were there. haha...I love football and tackling people. This one black dude that was there had dreadlocks...lmao...they were cool. Veryyy hott day it was. It was kinda weird though cause that side of my family is stuck up so you can't really swear or make...normal jokes. I felt a bit weird at times but you know. haha...sooo many old people.

today was my grandma Kuster's memorial service. We got there late cause I was driving and kinda got us lost cause I wouldn't listen to my mom's directions. The church it was held in was tinnny and there was like 100 people crowded into the room. The pastor lady had like sweat dripping off from her cause it was so hott. and hte lady behind me kept singing louder then me...and she could actually sing. I was like...HEYYY>:O stop it I wanna sing. haha not really but you know. then we went down to the church basement and it was air conditioned. It was great. Hung out with some cousins and other people I didn't know until it was time to go.

My grandpa is so cute. haha he always smiles. I got a really cute pic of him and Ash together before she died. I think ima scan it and put it on here.

but anyways, so then we came home and ate dinner and then went down to pine city and went swimming at great aunt winnies. haha...winnie. crazy name. she has an awesome in ground pool and diving board, etc. my heads pounding tho so im going to jus sit here and wait for Justin to get on.

I have no idea what's going on with him and I anymore. I dunno what to say or do anymore. I jus don't know. I guess jus let things happen.

byyye

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grr...I really do. I have plans to go chill with Justin this weekend...and my mom knows this and doesn't say anything about me not being able to go. Soo I'm all physced to see Justin cause I misss him pretty bad and all...and then today my cunt ass mother is like..."no you can't go because we have to go to your grandmas memoral service/family thing"

now tell me, isn't that fucking gay? I mean, my grandma died like...in Oct and they think we should have this stupid gay thing in the middle of June. How fucking fucked up is that? ...and of course, it can't just be one day. nooope, we gotta have a family reunion one day and the next a memorial service. and I dont know why I even have to go because we don't get along with that side of the family anyways. Jesus christ, I hate my mom.

and I hate my moms side of the family.

only plus side...allie might be there. thats not much of a plus tho because...well, shes a little bitch. haha...

whatever, im out. hopefully after the memorial service sun, I can go to Justins till like tuesday...cause I have a job interview then. Woot...=) hopefully, I get the job. so I dont have to be home with this gay ass family.

so im out...later

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hmm...since last weekend? friday - sat I went to Kyms. Justin picked me up sat morning. we went to his place and chilled out. shit went down but...if I wanted you to know, you'd know. haha...but thing's are okay now I think. I came home sunday. Aww sat. nite, Justin and I caught fireflies together. I had so much fun...I caught like 50. and then they started screwing in the jar. haha...it was fun. i remember when I was younger and we used to do that shit...mann...those were the days, eh? but yea, sunday I came home for Fathers day.

Did family shit that day...blaah. I shot skeet [clay birds for you morons:-p] I was doing soooo bad at first. then I finally started getting my skills back. I think it was the different gun with different sites. Yea, Im a GOOD shot so don't piss me off assholes. Haha...

Monday sara and I chilled hurrr for a bit.

Tuesdays when I really broke down bad. I dunno why...I jus couldn't stop crying. Okay, I know why but I'm not getting into it. haha...

Today, I went to Elmira and put a job application in at McDonalds. I have an interview next Tuesday at 2. Woot, everyone there says that if you get an interview, you're almost guaranteed the job. I'm not gonna get my hopes up yet tho. I really need the job tho. I need the money, and I need something to do with my time. Plus, one more excuse to be in Elmira all the time. Haha...I was telling my dad how I'd pry spend alot of time at Kyms so that he didnt have to drive me back and forth and hes like...okay. He hates me going to elmira...

I think Justin does too. Justin hates the idea of me getting a job...but, hey...it happens. He hasn't called tonight, he called earlier tho. Neither one of us has a phone card at the moment soo...I'm thinkin' thas why.

well i'm out. ima head to bed early. Might be chilling with Kym tomorrow till she has to work.

I dunno what I'm doing this weekend yet. Justin hasn't said anything about hanging out so I dunno. I guess we'll see. =)

oooh yes, I'm also working on a little project for the bf. It's pretty cute if i may say so myself.

god I love him...

ooh yes, pics are updated. they can be located here

LOVE YOU...BYEE

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hmm...so sat I went and hung out with Justin. We went to Pisgah and then went back to his house and then picked up his friend Brandon and we went up to rock run. Holy shit, the water was FREEEEEEEEEZING. Everytime I got in, I screamed my little lungs out. lmao...it was great. Except Justin and Brandon were pussies and couldn't handle the collld water. :-p Aww well. Then they decided to be assholes and want to go up to this coal mine and find old graves to people who died. and then they said they saw a bear so I'm jumping outta the car with my camera...and there wasn't really one. It made me pretty pissed off. Then we finally find the grave area...and theres two friggin cars parked side by side in the road. That was SCARRRRRRRRY shit...mannn..it was dark and we were...okay they were...checking out these gravestones and stuff and i jus wanted to bawl cause it was sooo scary. It was right up there on my list of 5 Scariest Moments. Eekers, I def. wouldn't recomend going there to anyone. I jus had the worst feeling about it like we were going to break down and be stuck up there, miles and miles away from civilazation with no cell phone/service and scaryyy graves and cars parked in weird places. OMG...Im scared again jus thinking about it.

ahh then we went back to Justins, got some dinner, then headed to bed.

Sunday, I got up at like 8:30. I waited FOREVER it felt like before waking Justin up. Haha...okay, I waited 45 minutes...SORRY, I was going insane boo. :-p he wasnt happy cause I woke him up even tho I didnt mean to. haha aww well, I love him. then we went and hung out with Scott and Sam and went back down to Rock Run. we went to this spot where you have to jump in off from cliff type things. I was soooooo scared to the first time. Lol...Sam got everyone jumping in on her camcorder. Then we went to the other side and sam and i debated jumping for like half an hr. not even kidding. haha it was pretty fun tho.

then we headed back to Justins cause Scott had to work. Justin and I rented some movies and then jus chilled all dayyy.

and then we fell asleep watching Summer Catch. Good movie...

then we got up...okay I woke up at like 6 and Justin didn't. :-p haha...soo I jus laid around waiting for him and then he got up and he took me home and now I need to get a shower and go to bed. I'm tired as hellll...

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