that i have had alot of things on my mind lately. I dunno why. I can't seem to be happy. I had two tests today..and my project for creativing writing was supposed to be presented but fortunately, Mrs. Olver wasnt here. THank god, shes so dull.

I don't really know what else to say. Justin and I are jus...not doing the greatest. Like, he hasn't done anything wrong...I jus...take everything he does and turn it around. What is my problem? Any ideas? I love that kid sooo much so wtf am I doing trying to ruin the relationship? I think I have ani deas as to why I'm feelin this way. But what do I know. anyways, I'm not writing why jus because there are people that read this for the sole purpose of hoping my life is mierable. and its not so HAH!

I miss summer. Summer of '04...ahh man.

Now, its snowy and cold...and Im jus...feelin the way the weather is I guess. I have no idea. Everything inside of me is jus all...fumbled up. Alot of things have happened/changed in the last 3 weeks and Im jus all...frazzled about it I guess. Plus it's December...auuurgh, I really don't like Christmas.

I dunno what to get Justin for Christmas. Welll, I have an idea of what I wanna get him but I dunno. I kinda feel dumb about the hole gift giving thing. Like, what if what I get him...he doesn't really like and hes all excited and then he opens it and is like 'ohhh:(' soo yea, idddk. Annny ideas? Hmm maybe YOU should just tell me.

I need new belly rings. All the balls are gone off mine or mine have fallen out. It sucks. And nose rings. GODD I cant wait till christmas so I have money to buy some new stuff.

My tilt jeans that I've had forever...they were ripped in the butt already and I patched 'em and OMG...yesterday I bent over and the patch ripped and ahh it sucked! I had to wear Kristys gym pants and I felt like a genie or somethign in 'em. ahh well

Today I went into ceramics to start my Pookie pot. cheesebutt said she didnt wanna do that soo that sucks for me.

welllll I gtg eat dinner and stuff. good luck at ur basketball game tonite Justin! I love you Pookie!

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for a wonderful day. I had a great time with you today Justin. Dinner was GREAT. =) You're a wonderful cook.

So yea, today I went to Justins. We had fun for the most part. We watched a movie, cant think of the name...? and decorated his christmas tree and put up decorations. We took pics too...so I needa get them bitches devoloped.

I think I'm gettin sick because I fell asleep at Justins. I never sleep durin the day unless I'm sick. So yea...then he came and woke me up and i was like aww=) cuz he lit candles and everything. Damn that boy is so romantic sometimes. I love him. He likes my new haircut. I'm not so sure if I do but...its okay I guess.

well thas all I really gotta say I guess. Goodnite everyone...hope your day was as GREAT as mine.

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except, this time I sucked. I must have fallen like 10 times. Dustin was tryin to teach me how to like...stop how hockey players do and it just wasnt working. I was stoppint he way Kym does. - By fallin! haha SYKE! Jus kidding! haha...how annoying. Yes I am harassing her and Ruth. Ruth and I hung out mostly...kym and i had a huge fight. not goin into details there...

got my hair cut. its soft now. I like it for the most part. a little shorter then I wanted but, shit happens. She also didnt cut my bangs the way I wanted 'em but idc, its okay i guess

I got time on my cell phone. yayyyyers...the number - 607-331-6921. Of course, I can only use it when Im in troy or elmira bc yea, I get no service here.

I'm workin on my articles for health. I wanna get the ones for this week done so they're done. haha

I felt really bad earlier, I called Justin and his dad answered and I woke him up and I felt horibble. :( auuurgh

ooh well. Then i went back to Kyms after I got my hair cut and picked up my stuff and she was on the phone with Dustin and he has callin waiting so I called him on my cell and he answered and hes like 'hmm wonder who this could be.' it was prety funny. he's verrry cute. he has hair like Erick Schoner...but everything else about him reminds me of Red. Crazzzzy...

then i saw kyms at tops. it was odd. lol...

well, it was fun. I had a blast with everyone. I saw Andy. We hung out and talked and I told him about some things and he was good. haha we were skatin together and I fellll right on my ass. how embarrasssing woopsies. ooh well...

then I wanted to call Justin so Matt...i think that was his name, let me use his cell. that was nice of him. Justin was kinda...grouchy but thas okay. I love him.

then we walked home in the friggin rain. i was freezing.

well thas my nite and today...

blaaah

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jus thought I'd say mine and cheese butts boxes are coming along nicely.

tomorrow I am going to Kym's, then we're going ice skating again. I love to ice skate. maybe ruth is coming too? :) hopefully..it should be fun.

i passed drived ed with a 94. not bad for hardly studyin and stuff...

I love American Cultures...between Allison, Jacob, and Mr. Bowers...it's jus great.

Robert wouldnt let me out of the boys bathroom today.

Hopefully Sunday I'm going to Justins. Jus because I love him so much. Lately, we've been a little...':-/ahhh' but, we love each other...so I guess things will smooth out. I don't know. I'm trying not to worry about it and jus letting things happen. I really love him tho. It's kinda scary. We're at that stage in our relationship where we know we love each other so we push each other jus to see how far we can. I dunno. I love him tho. I really do.

I also love that Tyler Currie kid. He's so great. We talk about EVERYTHING!

I shaved my legs tonite...

wow that was random...

I might be gettin my hair cut saturday if my mom makes my effing apptment. AURGH!

I think I need glasses or contacts...

but other then that, i dunno what else to say.

goodnite everyone.

dream about your sweetie. =)

cuz ima be dreamin about mine. I love you Pookie! More then you'll ever know!

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I love you Justin...

thas really all I have to say. Other then mine and cheesebutts boxes are almost done! WEEE! well, we're pretty much done making 'em...needa do a little of this shit and a little of that, glaze 'em...and fire 'em

I had alot of other stuff on my mind today tho. Last nite I was talkin' to Justin and Allie came up in the conversation and I told him that I felt abandonded by Allie leaving me and everything and I don't think he really understood the feelin' but after it being brought up again, I feel like its haunting me. Like thas all I can think about. I dunno...but I really miss her.

I miss alot of my old friends. Like...Lindz, Morgan...all them girls...ahh man.

well Kym called soo maybe I'll update later

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today sucked. Robert drew me a pretty picture apologizing for everything. hes great I guess. Chris is toooo. Nice guys...I love Chris's hair...

got progress reports. YAY! or nottt! my grades are okay? not great tho.

cheesebutt and i are workinout butts off on our boxes. cant wait to start my pookie pot tho.

hmm...yea today kinda sucked. I have alot of homework...

I held Tyler's hand the hole bus ride home practically. I love his and my friendship. I jus let him know I would be there for him through everything thas goin on right now. He's like thanks amanda, i love you. my bussss buddy. it made my day.

and i love my boyfriend

and my sister. I'm gonna put a pic of her cuz shes jus sooo pretty and I miss her terribbly.



pretty pretty, eh? :)

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