so right now, its christmas eve. I am sitting here, alone. Kym just left. I worked yesterday...it fucking sucked. I took time to do my makeup and hair and everything and tehn I ended up doing manual, yes manual, labor. lol...so I looked like shit by the time we rolled up to Kyms house. Ooh I went to the mall yesterday after work, and I looked like shit. Needless to say, I saw some people I knew. woops, how embarrassing. ah well, I don't need to impress anyone. I picked out these awesome new boots but I dont get them until tomorrow! aurgh, but they're cute. and I got Justins christmas present...I think he'll like it. I dunno tho. they didnt have the one I wanted tho. like, they had displays but that was it. aurgh well. My cell battery died too and that pissed me off. ahhh well.

after I was done at the mall and stuff, I went back to work and worked for about another hr. then, we went adn picked Kym up. she came down and chilled. we had lotsa fun. we made macaroni and cheese and it made such a mess. and then this morning, I cooked French Toast and it was good.

I dont really know what else to write about.

ooh my dad made this coffee thingy and it has alcohol in it and its made good. and margaret brought down wine or champagne? whats the difference? is there a difference? hah see how dumb I am. I cant believe tomorrow is frigign christmas already. time is jus goin by so fast.

I was thinkin' about what I wanna do with my life. Man, I dunno. thas a toughie I think. I know I either wanna be a lawyer or else I want to do something with like html and computers. I'm good with computers. soo I dunno. I need to start figurin that shit out. I also need to get my health project done. and start on somethign I'm making.

Kym and I took pics today. They're pretty good I think. Check 'em out here or here or here. haha okay you get the point. anyways I hope everyone has a great Christmas tomorrow. and I hope I get what I want!

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new colors and layoutttt...well kinda. I like it. I kinda jus took someone else's, and changed it a bit but ooh well. its petttty I think...what do you think?

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I had plans to go to Kyms tonight and chill but he decides to throw this one at me; you have to work tomorrow. fuck that, i don't want to. oh well though, I'll pry be able to get Justins Christmas present this way atleast! Yayyyers! I miss him.

welll anyways...funny things everyone missed by not having classes with me! : yesterday this dude was here for vo-tech and he was sayin how Jamie was going to be a nurse and then decided he didnt like blood so Jamie decided to eeeeeeeease his way back into blood by workin at McDonalds...the ketchup. lmao...i jus about died. it was sooo funny.

and then I was talkin to Allie about mine and Justin's...ummm...nonexistent sex life! and I said something and I looked up and Mr. Bowers and staring at me. i jus started friggin laughing...actually, anyone who knew what I had said did. lol...it was great.

today I got my camera back from Mr. Bowers. Yayyers...and I kept pullin his tie. theres something about a man in a tie...;) jus not Mr. Bowers. lol last weekend Justin had a tie on for his band concert and I kept pullin him around by it and stuff. I loved him in it. I mean, I love him, but I love him more in a tie!

Cheesebutt and I have been doing a lil investigating. We caught the criminal, we just need to figure out what action we're doing to take against her! haha man i love that girl!

Last nite, Sara was here and she said something to Justin as a joke and it really made me mad. It also made him mad. I was like you cant jus joke about ending our relationship. He was pretty...bothered by it. Thats good tho, right? I miss him so much.

Scott called me the other nite and we were jus talkin' about things. Scott is pry the best person in the world to go to for advice. Dead serious too. Everytime I have any problems or unsureties and I talk to him about it, I know what the right thing to do is. Amazing...

Well, I need to go clean my room. Hopefully tomorrow after work we pick her up and she comes and chills with me. I'm so sick of alot of my friends from Troy. The other nite my dad and I were talking about where I'm going to school next year. He said he's considering letting me go to Elmira soo...hopefully that goes down because mannn, I can't take another year of Troy. Sorry to anyone if I offended you cuz Troy may be the place you enjoy or whatever, but I don't and I don't mean anything by disliking Troy.

Hmm, what else is on my mind. Oooh nothing I guess. Ooh and for those who wanna know what the password for my previous entry is...lol can't have 'er. It's jus got my Christmas list and things to do over Christmas break. =)

Love you Pookers

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I had a wonderful time with you. You're a GREAT basketball player. Thanks for not being grouchy after it! =) and I love it when you toot your horn! ;)

okay that was gay but seriously, I had alot of fun. I love being with you. I always have a great time. It's the little things...like, when we were goofing off upstairs. Jus ticking each other and wrestling...it was nice. I'm glad I have someone as wonderful and easy going and amazing as you. Thank you for...yet again, a wonderful weekend.

but to sum it all up...

saturday i went to Justins and we went to Pizza Hut and then went to Sheddens and I got Justin this super cute hat. he looks friggin adorable in it. then we went back to his house and jus hung out with his dad for a few hrs then went to his basketball game. wow that was long. haha but it was nice. I love hanging out with his parents cuz they're jus the nicest people ever. Especially his dad, I am jus crazy about him...in a parent/child kind of relationship of course. they lost there game but Justin did good. his friggin coach had him playin almost the hole game and he was friggin wooped. well then his friend Matt came over and we all hung out and then went and got movies. Dave...Justins dad, let me drive and I pulled up to the red light and there was a cop sittin on the corner. oooh joy. I thought I was dead but Dave calmly traded me seats. haha...mannn, ooh cant forget Dave knocking Justins milk outta his hand and spilling it all over. we got juwanna man and dodgeball. dodgeball is hilarous. I've seen Juwanna Mann liek 100 times. but I fell asleep in my sexy boyfriends arms and kept waking up cuz he'd flinch so i finally said i was going to bed and went upstiars. he tucked me in and everything. I love him.

then today i got up and went downstairs and got some water and his mom came running down the stairs practically...lol jus to make sure I wasnt like sneakin into bed with him or he wasnt sneakin back into bed or something. lmao it was funny. then i went back upstairs and watched the dick van dyke show and then mr. ed and justin came up and we watched tv together and jus layed there and it was fun. except his mom kept walkin in to check on us with all these...odd things to ask. haha and then Matt came up and i was hungry so we went downstairs to get some breakfast and when I walked out, Matt scared the shit out of me. He's pretty nice. then we ate breakfast and actually watched Juwanna Man.

then Justin and Matt were playin ps2 sooo i went and got my hair done and Justin came up and helped me do it. hehe that friggin boy is so damn cute. his mom came upstairs and like pushed open the bathroom door all cauntaltly[okay thas not even close to being spelled right]...i think she was afraid we were gonna be bangin' or something. lol everyone is under the impression we're all about sex when really, Justin and I are not all about sex! but yea then Mr Justin got a shower and went to his band concert and me and Matt kinda hung out. haha it was odd cuz we were talkin about the dumbest things. then I did Lisas makeup and hair and we left. haha Matt is sooo not a gentlemen. Justin ALWAYS goes out of his way to open the door for me and stuff but not Matt. lol...i was pickin on him about that. Lisa and Dave are always raggin on Justin to treat me good and it makes me mad sometimes cuz he treats me REALLY good...but I guess they jus want there son to grow up and be a good guy. not a doubt in my mind there. I love him....

but yea...so we went to his concert. yes my boyfriend is a band geek! okay not really. he is the best lookin guy in the band...he plays the trumpet. omg his face was so red from how hard he was blowign or something. lmao hes so cute...then he took me and showed me his locker. it has a picture of me in it. hehe:) thats it. lol Canton school is alot nicer inside then Troy is. damn, there bathrooms are like...amazing. there auditorm is smaller then ours tho. but yea ne ways, then we went back to his house and had dinner and jus were goofin off. he kept tickling me and i was screaming stop stop stop. i was laughin histaricly too. mann...good times Pookers!

then we went outside to..idddk, it was cold! yeeea...

ooh and Justin slammed my finger in the door. it hurt like a bitch. I had to use every muscle in my face not to try. lol but its okay...really. I know it was an accident! dont feel bad! =) I love you. haha...

and I lost my cross. actually, it wasn't mine...i feel bad. I wanted to cry again. lol...it made me really friggin sad.

and then on the way home, we were talking. actually i was talking. I started rambling on adn on. and we stopped at red hen and got capicunos and the lady kept asking us about our hats. i guess we're jus that damn cute. lol...err he is. and I saw Hannah and Travis there.

and then i was hyper from my coffee thing. its easier to spell it that way. haha and I had his dad drop me off at the middle of my driveway cuz I didnt want me dad to flip when he saw me. but of course, he wasnt home. niice, eh? so i was all worried for nothing. him and my mom were out last minute christmas shopping. haha when my dad got home, he was friggin tipsy. I guess the coffee he got at applebees had alcohol in it and he didnt realize it till he downed 3 of 'em. friggin retard. haha he kept talkin and talkin about the dumbest things.

welll, thats it I guess. ooh...my health project is a quater of the wayd one! YAY!

bye now

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its been odd. yesterday- nothin too excitin happened. ooh man tho, during american cultures...i was like 'being against racism[or something liek that, i dont remember exactly...allie...remind me!]doesnt pay the bills..' i dunno why but it was prettty funny. i havent felt good lately.

i started my health project. I wanna get that done so I can spend my hole vacation concetraing on my american cultures project. It really needs alot of time put into it since Cornz and I havent even started it.

I also got a 84 on my american cultures test. aurgh, and idk about my geomatry test bc Mrs. Olson takes forever to grade 'em. hehe ahh welll, and my poetry project...idk yet either cuz Mrs. Olver is soo dull and boring. I get seriously so angry in that class. I jus would like to punch her...i mean, shes nice but shes so boring and I jus can't get into that class. Plus, Justin Hojer is soo friggin annoying. I swear, his parents never paid any attention to him at all as a child or something. He also eneds to be the center of attention and everything he does, he likes to...overdo it.

Bryan Tucker...the biggest fucking asshole ever. I'm serious. That kid is so retarded. Where our lockers our at, we ahve to go behind Mrs. Hutters door and that fuckin moron likes to make a habit of wackin us with the door and I've had it up to here *raises hand 100000 feet* with him. So he tried wacking me with the door yet again and I slammed in on him a good couple times. I apologized to Mrs. Hutter for slamming her door, and she was okay with it. that kid needs to friggin grow up. he acts like hes 6. mannn, on to a different subject quick.

I got verrry annoyed with Justin last nite. I wanted to know flat out what we were doign this weekend so I could do other things if I wasnt coming over the hole weekend...and what does he do? hes like 'whatever you wanna do.' I mena, its good that he doesnt care but...I'd like to know what best fits him and what he wants to do. whats okay with his parents...you get the idea. AURGH! I need to sleep more or something. Actually, I think its that by the time I get to talk to Justin...its either 6 in the morning or 10 at night and im tired and get bitchy with him. I dunno anymore.

Last nite on the bus, Beaner and I had an interesting talk. I mean, i cant expliain it cuz you probably wouldnt understand, but it was quite interesting I think.

hopefully my mom picked my class ring up from wal-mart today. I told her too. She works right up near the mall, it wont friggin kill her to go over and pick it up for me. soo I'll let yano how that turns out.

I think I know what im gonna be getting Justin for christmas, I jus wanna check with his dad to make sure hes not getting him one or anything. that'd be sucky...then I'd have to rethink things all over again.

I wanna get my Erika something for Christmas too bc she made me the greatest thing. I love it. it's sooo great. its a movie type thingy with pics of me and Justin and our song in the bg and then theres one with friends and stuff. mannn...

Wellll, I dont reallly have much else to say...I'm jus soooo fucked up. I have alot of things to say but...jus cant do it. i cant hurt anyone...especially you

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