this is great. sooo this is a perfect explanation of why I despise Troy. = I come home today and my mom starts bitching at me about something I said to someone and I looked at her dumbfounded and ask what shes talking about. She then geos on to tell me she received an IM from someones mom saying I called her a bitch or something. I'm like huh? Totally not understanding where shes going with it. I then smile silently inside...thinking about how much better thigns will be if I can go to Southside or something next year. It'll be great. But back to the story...Sooo I'm getting accused of saying shit to someone...and then someone else comes into the picture and changes my words around that I said. Yano what that does to me. That pisses me off. I havent been anything but nice to her so far this year and I thought we were all getting along fine but I guess that shows how much I know.

and then, my dads being a dickhead to me and wont let me go ne where because I am 'starting shit with those people who have always been so nice to me.' yeeea okay, first off...I aint starting shit. Secondly, nevermind. No need to start shit...ooh well, isn't like i had intentions of going ne where this weekend anyways.

but hopefully Justin is comign over tomorrow. I cant wait to see him...and to ahh...jus be with him. I love him soo incredibly much...sooo incrediably much. I'm not sure how to spell incredible soo hopefully I got one of the spellings right.

sooo, i dont feel like writing much else. too frustrated, I think I'm gonna go read

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today was tiring. i couldnt sleep last nite so I watched Enough on Justins teeny lil dvd player. lol, but its so cute and...thats not the point. Soo I watched that...and its an action movie so it wasnt like it made me fall asleep. Sooo, next thing I know, its 1ish and I cant fall asleep to save my fucking life. so that sucked ass. and then i got up and took a cold fucking shower this morning. =) it was horibble. haha and then today jus sucked. I forgot my geomatry homework already...i got clay on me during ceramics, I couldnt mold my pot right, i got clay under my nails, my geomatry book is too heavy, I had to actually work in american cultures, the cookies i ate hurt my teeth, in gym class andy was being a no it all and trying to boss everyone around during football, me and leanne were taclking all the small guys. lmao, it was hilarous, but ne ways, what else bad happened. ooh yes, I kicked the basketball over the fence and had to go get it and uhh...today was jus stressful. ooh lets not forget beaner squirting his water on me and telling me he splurged all over my face. lol...well, actually that part was kinda funny but...yea. ooh and then my dad 'grounded' me or whatever. hah! grounded...lol...yea okay.

welll, good part of the day: not really one...I guess I jus love my friends. =)

and my boyfriend. lol, I said 'I love you' to him first today and hes like omg thas the first time you said it first. it was cuute. hes getting his hair cut tomorrow. his hair grows so fast...hes gorgeous. i love him:)

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Oooh...these are stories Erika wrote for me...the first one explaining how we met. lmao...and the second one explaining the events of the first day of ceramics. They're supposed to be from my point of view...

I was sitting in the class all alone.... thinking of a way to piss off the teacher... and she walked in... So very beautiful and sat down next to me... I talked to her and found out we had a lot in common... Now we're the teachers worst nightmare ;-) :-D <---lol wellll, the last part is true. =)

We were all laughing and none of us paying attention... there he was... leaning against the table next to me... my sleeved touched his hand... My tummy flutters.... i get up walk behing him and grab me a handful of that ass <-wellll...not much of that is true but...thats the story. ;)

hahaha I love Ceramics class. It's gonna be eventful. Between Kristy, Erika, n Shelly...hahaha they kill me. :)

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only 179 days to go...of this year. fuck man, thats alot of time. I do not wanna go at all. I really dislike Troy. My schedule was different then it was supposed to be. So heres what its like this marking peirod. First: Geomatry with all freshman except like 4. Dont get me wrong, I dont have a problem with it but uhh..:( it sucks. Second: Ceramics...that class is gonna be awesome. I can jus telllll now.;) Third: American Cultures...which kinda sucks but its good too. Theres a few people I like in it..and lsat I have gym which is alright I guess. Leanne and Natasha are in it and a bunch of other people I get along with so this quater shouldnt be too bad. I'm being optimistic. =)

I guess school wasnt as bad as I expected but i dunno, I dont feel like getting up at 6 every fucking morning. :( uhhh thats a sucky feeling. I got a lock for my locker tho soo I'm glad about that. I'm using someone elses locker and I dont wanna find my shit on the floor one day. haha:)

what else? I dunno, I'm exhausted. I miss my baby! hehe, he makes me soooo incredibly happy. I can honestly say that I love that boy. :) He's jus so...:sigh: perfect!

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today is it. the last day of summer. it was pretty fun. I rode 4-wheeler with kym n sara...lol no one trusts my driving. its crazy. hahaha...and I made the polaris do like...not a full donut but almost. Which is absolutely crazy because that thing is imposibble to get to do that. it was awesome...and I got it up to as fast as the speedometer would read and it was still going. =) im one proud bitch.

well, i think Im gonna ride the bus the first day of school and see whose riding and shit and then I'm gonna try and ride with Carrie n Sara alot if I dont like it. I'm totally dreading going back to Troy. Granted, I wanna see my friends and all but...I jus hate Troy. Hopefully this will be my last year in Troy. If i get my license in time and everything next year, I'll pry go to Southside or some where in Elmira. Unless my opinion of Troy drastically changes.

I called Allie today. I love that girl to death. Her adoption will be official with in a few weeks. I'll be able to go over there n hang out and shit then. Shes not sure whether or not shes gonna change her last name. Let me think...umm no? Altho shes lived and been a part of the 'Shear' family for the last year or so...doesnt mean that shes not a Randall. Its in her blood and its how people know her soo, yea...I think its a horibble idea. But, whatever makes her happy. I'm pry gonna see her for sure in September sometime at her volleyball tournament. I really miss her. She was engaged...as much as a 14 yr old can be engaged. lol, her 'fiance' moved tho. Which is good, she dont needa be getting involved with the older boys...-bad news!

haha, Justin and I have been together about a month now. =) we dont actually have a date but, its one of the things I like about our relationship. Damn, that boy is taking some mad hard classes. I was like 'wtf?' lol he told me I was the brains in our relationship and here he is taking all those advanced shit and everything. Its kewl tho, I like it that hes not an academic loser. God I love him...but ne ways, I gotta go find my headphones and burn a cd n then call Jusitn at 8...sleeping pill at nine, and bed at ten. good nite everyone...wish me luck!:-$

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WTF?! this isnt happening. I'm not ready to go back. Well, Justin left yesterday. Todays his first day of school. :sigh: school sucks, I love Justin tho. :) hes great. we kinda had a fight yesterday. it wasnt really a fight, I jus said something I shouldnt have and it went from there. I feel horibble for saying it tho. Even tho I was jus kidding. but I love that boy. :/ check out the new pic of him on the left. looking good, eh? ;) haha hes very sexay. wtfs he doing with me, riiiight?:p

hahaha welll, not much to update on. other hten I dont want school to start.

Know all about, yeah, bout your reputation
and now it's bound to be a heartbreak situation.But I can't help it if I'm helpless
every time that I'm where you are.

You walk in and my strength walks out the door,
say my name and I can't fight it anymore.
Oh, I know I should go, but I need your touch just too damn much.

Loving you, that isn't really something I should do;
shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah.
Well I should try to be strong, but baby you're the right kind of wrong.
Yeah, baby, you're the right kind of wrong.

Time will tell, I love you! :)

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