first off, I'm going to start by talkin about an event that occured. Actually, no I'm not. But let me tell you, it was shitty and it really has me wondering whether or not its worth it. I dunno...I sure hope its worth it in the end...but, whose to really know at the moment. :-/

Friday was okay...school was okay. I was in a pretty good mood which was a change compared to how screwed up I've been lately. I can't really...get with it anymore. My heart and head just have been kinda mush this week...but, this upcoming week should be better cause I won't allow myself to be like that. I cried so much last week and was jus...so emotional. I was like..."wahhhhhhhhhhh" Im a baby. :-p haha...jus playing, but seriously...Boys aren't worth what I've been doing to myself.

but, friday night I had to work. Not a great nite but not too bad. Then after work, these cool kids picked me up and we went to tops and then went to rock and bowl. it was kinda awkard at first but hey, it happens. i suck at bowling so bad. but I love to bowl...its fun.

went back to kyms, then went to bed. worked 6-11 saturday...went back to kyms and got around for the erie bell. it was freezing rain. :-p I was sooo cold. I bought a friggin 15 dollar umbrella. Its cool...its green and white. haha...southside won, of course. EFA SUCKS! Haha jus playing Kym! =p after the game, we went back to kyms and were locked out so we went and chilled with some people and got some dinner, then went back to kyms and got changed and headed to the mall. This boy called me while we were on the way to the mall. Aww. but anyways...we saw a gayyyyyyyy movie. I dunno what it was called...it had the rock in it.[;-)] hes fine. Haha...but i didnt see like hardly any of it. I could NOT keep my eyes open...I was so dang tired.

Went back to kyms, went to bed...got up at 5:30, went to work early...Larry let me clock in at 6:30...worked till 2...then went back to Kyms and hung out, then my uncle picked me up and now im home...and i have homework to do...so hey, ima go bounce on to that.

Hope everyones life is going great...

I got mad lots of hours this week. :-x I dont really wanna work this many but hey, it happens. I'm bouncing...

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hmm...it's cold today. brr...

update? not much to say. My life doesn't change anymore. Work, eat, sleep, school...all over again. haha not really but yano.

yesterday Tiff and I went over to walmart in mansfield. woot, I love her. Haha...the little hills like...had us laughin so hard. Haha...I love having my license. Theres this truck i might get which I kinda like...it's nice. If not though, theres this car Im kinda interested in.

After tiff and I left walmart, we went over to bloss and was trying to find our way over the mountain to canton? hah...we were totally...lost. we suck. :-p haha...so we called Justin and he came over and met us...aww that was nice of him. we followed him back to his house and hung out with him for awhile. no comment on that.

then we left and came home. I love Tiff...she makes me so happy. =)

got home and found out I killed the van. lol...don't even ask. Lets jus say, my parents are not thrilled with me. Ooh well. shit happens.

today was jus not a good day. I felt super emotional and was kinda...crying a little but yano. it happens. But i thought about it and came to a conclusion which won't be annouced on here until a later date bc...hey, it could change.

I have decided to quit swearing. So, yell at me if I do it. Its gonna be hard...but I jus...am gonna quit. =) wish me luck.

plans for the weekend?
friday - workin till idk when?
saturday - working 6-11, then either hanging out with Justin and or going to the erie bell with Kym. Saturday night...maybe chillin with some cool people. We'll see?
Sunday - working 7-3 but might get that changed. Then maybe I might be doing something...but...who knows yet.

byeee

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Well, not a lot has been going on. What can I say? I’m so miserable it’s not even funny. Life just sucks man. Everything I’ve ever wanted…jus…idk, I’m miserable. I remember back when I was a happy person, I want content with my life. Hah…when did that change? Psh…I dunno. I guess when I started feeling, for lack of a better work, neglected. But anyways, back to me being miserable. Andy and I got into an argument last nite. All we ever do is fight since HE DUMPED ME. Aurgh…it’s annoying. I hate it.
I might go hang out with Justin tonight if he gets ahold of me. If not, I’m pry going to go chill with Tiff…maybe go to walmart and jus talk about everything. I love her.
I have to work Friday. That sucks. Saturday I’m working 6-11, then either hanging out with Justin or going to the Erie Bell. Saturday night, I might go over and hang out with Andy. I dunno. I guess I’ll see. Blahhhh…:-x I feel like shit.
I got my period and it sucks. I hate having my period.
But yea…blahhh…

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was very cool. Friday I went to Kyms and we decided to go to the mall. I was supposed to go stay at Andys but...I didn't really want to seeing as I had to get up at like 5 for work at 6. >:O so Kym and I got around and asked her padre to take us to the mall. He suggested I drive! Great idea, eh? =) Yes, Frank let me drive his van to the mall...and wasn't calling every 2 seconds to check up on us. It was friggin awesome. For those of you who know Kym's daddy, yano that takes alot of trust. <3 Anyways, Kym and I went out to eat at Friday and I got steak and she got this alfredo stuff. YUMMMMMM. It was sooo good...and yano the best part...Kodiak. ;-) How sexy is that name? =) haha...

then after that kym and I went to tjmaxx and bought some clothes...then went home and went to bed.

worked 6-2 saturday. That wasn't a bad day at all. Angie put me on eggs for the first time. So that means i was in charge of making eggs. I thought I did hella good. haha...and I was in the back with all the boys. ;-) woot...jus kiddin.

After that, kym and I went and chilled at her house and got showered and cleaned up...and then decided to go to bradley farms. woot woot, frank let me drive, yet again, over there. Kyms friend Courtney went with us. It was friggin scary as heck...pry cause I'm a pussy and all but yea. I fell too! :-[ haha...

went home...then went to bed. worked 7-3 today. Then the sexy mr. mood picked us up. =) Its great seeing him again. I miss him so dang much. Him and I hung out all day. I dont even remember what we did but time went by fast. =(

and here I am, home now. Great weekend...woops, I forgot to write about getting DUMPED. Yes, for those of you who assumed I dumped Andy from all his whining and complaining, he dumped me. He jus flipped out on me. Anyone that can break up with me like that without even giving me a chance to talk doesn't deserve to be with me I guess.

Plus, my heart wasn't in it.

but Im out, shower time

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that shits crazy anymore. I jus thought I'd write about my dayyyyyy since Im bored and it was fun and emotional and stuff.

Justin and I hung out today. Well, I met him at his grammas. He wasnt there when i got there so I jus chilled on the swings. It was really peaceful...jus, doin nothing but sitting there thinking. When Justin got there, I considered jus leaving cause I figured we'd fight all day and shit but we didn't which was good.

We played basketball and I totally dominated his white ass. Haha well, not really. I sucked. Pretty bad too. I ended up on the ground a lot. haha...like I said, I suck.

He got a new car. Its pretty niceee...he let me drive it. After extreme begging and arguing. haha I stole his car keys and was running away with 'em and he was chasing me like a mad man. It was great. lol...I seriously had to beg hardcore though and give him my pouty face. Haha. I always get myyyyyy way.

No I don't...I wish I could say that was true. Aww well...

but yea, then we went and got something to eat and then went to eckerds.

ooh and can't forget the library. I went and got some new danielle steele books and we played chess with these HUGE chess pieces. It was crazy...haha. They were heavy too. Seriously...it was so crazy.

then we went back to his grams and chilled and then he left and I went back to elmira and got a phone card and stuff and then came home.

now, Im sitting here waiting for andrew to call and jus being tired and lazy

tomorrow is school again. Fortunately, its a 4 day week so it should go by fastttttt.

but thats all for me...

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It's Monday morning. There is no school, and no work for me. It's a really nice change to sleep in past 7. It's funny cause I sleep till 7 for school, wake up, take a 2 second shower, then leave. Seriously. I leave at like 7:15 for school. I don't even care. I hate Troy. There's no one to impress and even if there was, I wouldnt try anyways. I'm always so fucking tired.

Not last nite, but the nite before last...I went to bed at 7 at nite. Then I got up about 5 for work. Crazy...that's alot of sleep. I was in a pretty energized mood yesterday. Except...my boyfriend REALLY pissed me off. Imagine, 5 in the morning, you check your msgs and your boyfriend had left you a msg totally breaking your plans. Be a little angry? ... Well, my blood was boiling and I was pissed. but whatever I guess? He wants to play those games, we'll see how far that gets him with me. HAH.

Work was okay yesterday. Alot of shitty people were working...but I hung in there. 2 people called off and one didnt know she had to work so didnt show. Shitty shit. Haha...ooh well. This one guy comes thru drivethru and reaks of beer and I take his money and then went to get his food and I look out the window and hes all licking his lips and staring at me...trying to be all sexy or something. I was boutsa ask him if he had something wrong with his tongue. Haha...then he left and came back thru again doing the same thing. I was like...eww...get lost.

haha...then these other guys come thru and I swear to god, they were smoking pot and jus chilling there. I was like...wooooah. It was sooo strong...made me crave it. haha jus kidding. It was pretty funny though and I jus started laughing.

hmm...after work, I went to kyms and got my stuff around...then my uncle picked me up and I went home. Came home and chilled for a bit, got a shower, then Joshy came down and we chilled.

Then he left and I talked to Justin. I missed talking to him. Hes starting college shit at Mansfield next semester. Im friggin scared as hell for him and he's like...not scared at all. Ahh. He's sucha cracker.

So...plans for today? Not really sure. Maybe hang out with Justin, maybe Joshy, maybe Tiff. I guess we'll see? I kinda don't really feel like doing anything but ooh well.

Working every day this week except today and friday. should be a good pay check atleast.

Well, I'm out. Byeeee

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