I'm crazy, ape, barmy, batty, berserk, bonkers, cracked, crazed, cuckoo, daft, delirious, demented, deranged, dingy, dippy, erratic, flaky, flipped, flipped out, freaked out, fruity, haywire, idiotic, insane, kooky, lunatic, mad, maniacal, mental, moonstruck, nuts, nutty, potty, psycho, screw loose, screwball, screwy, silly, touched, unbalanced, unglued, unhinged, unzipped, wacky, whacko about that boy...

lol, I jus looked up crazy in the thesaurus and thats all of the synomms I came up with..:)

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was great. lol...we stayed up till 7 in the morning and then fell asleep together.:) it was crazy. we were all tweaking from not sleeping and shit. then we went out to watch the sun come up and 10 mins of standing there and Justins like 'its raining...the sun pry wont come up today...' it was soo funny. maybe yah hadda be there.

i am so fucking tired right now. I feel like my eyes are jus going to break from being soo...heavy. we fell asleep pry at like 7ish...and got up at about quater after nine and I dont think I can fell back asleep. Maybe if i get a shower I'll be more awake. Maybe.

You people think I'm all smiles...bitch, I guess you aint never lived in my life style.
^thas to you JN...think about it. Then maybe we'll talk.

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he came up yesterday and is staying till sunday I guess. :) ::sigh:: I never thought it was posibble to love someone this quickly but, I really do like him alot...maybe posibbly love. I mean, I know I love him as a friend and all but, I'm always very hesistant to use the word love with a boyfriend. Yano?

yesterday as soon as Justin got here, we got bitched at bad. Well, I more or less did...Justin jus kinda..was involved. :) its all good tho. I'm on my dads 'shit list' right now tho. hah fuck him. I dont care if he doesnt like Justin...he's the only one who doesnt. Most people that know Justin either like him, or are envious/jealous of him.[that usually being guys who aren't as...outgoing or sexay as him] haha...but ne ways, I'm crazy about that boy.

Actually, he's probably the farthest from a boy of ne ex bfs...he's perfect. I seirously wouldn't change a thing about him. Nothing...crazy but, I wouldn't.

We went to Gino's today. [I bought him lunch..aurgh, well...his breakfast I guess:)] hahaha and Wes was working. It was kinda funny. Wes is a guy who I was kinda...into before. Justin had on these dorky pink glasses without ne lenses and Wes was like 'nice glasses man.' haha it was odd.:)

2 am...

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yesterday my electricity was out for like...well, from like 8 to 2 in the morning. it was bullshit. we had to start teh generator jus to keep our fish alive...haha. they were all starting to die.:( i wouldnt have minded bc they're such inconviences now but whatever.

then my dad was being a dickhead bc we didnt have any electric and when Justin called hes like '5 mins' and then he kept talking to me about how Justin highlights his hair. It pissed me off. Fucker.

then, I got on my computer this morning and my internet explorer wouldn't work. Every time I tried to open it up, I got some dumb shit saying how an error log is being created. But, I managed to get around that shit.:)

Well, I'm hungry soooo...

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i feel like shit. I hate hurting people I care about. I told her that Justin n I are together and she cried...and cried. I didn't wanna hurt her but she knew that when we made the agreement to be okay with whatever the outcome would be that we'd have to accept it. So I'm sorry, but this is what I want.

I've been talking to leanne alot. shes a great girl for the most part. she worries too much tho. I guess I cant really blame her because I was once the same way. it's a stage we all outgrow after trying to please someone and not having it work.

I remember those days. They weren't worth it.

Sara jus called me. She told me Carrie's having a baby girl. :) I couldnt imagine being pregnant at her age but what can yah do. Sometimes, I think it'd be kewl to have a kid because then I could show my parents how a kids supposed to be raised. How parents aren't supposed to fuck their kids up and give 'em all kindsa mental issues. I mean, I don't have any mental issues really because I'm strong enough to ignore it and not listen but, obviously my parents haven't done something right if they've had two kids run away. That's gotta say something.

But anyways, fuck it. I miss Justin!:(

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went shopping today. got a pair of pink and white lugz. lindz has the same pair but ooh well, I like 'em and they were only 20 dollars sooo...:)cant beat that shit. and then I got a pair of jeans, a skirt, a skort, 5 shirts, socks, 2 bras, a new purse, 2 ghetto hats[they're hott], earrings, some more charms for my watch, and some other shit. I dont really need that much new clothes for...*dreaded sigh* school. I dont want school to start...ever again. I hate it...soo much. I wish this summer could last forever. It's been awesome...perfect. Well, almost. I wish I coulda had something with someone a little sooner...but, things are great now.

I guess you could say that Justin and I are together. :) I'm crazy about that boy. I really am and that scares the hell out of me because, when you like someone that much, you usually get hurt and I'm not up for that. But, thats the risk I take..and I'm willing to take it. Because, as I've said before...that boy is amazing. I don't care what anyone has to say either. I've always been my own person and I've always done whats in my best interest.

on to other things...I was talking to a friend of mine and...idk, its weird. her and I used to be so much alike...it was crazy. We both wanted the same things...and then we hit this fork in the road. she chose the wild, irrational, and crazy path [no offense], where as I got off and chose to jus settle down and make rational decisions and...I think in the long run, I'm happier now. I guess what I'm trying to say is that partying and shit can be fun, but making good decions and using your head will eventually lead to good things.

I cant believe all that shit jus came outta my head. I'm former anti -commitment, love, and making rational decions. Crazy but, people change people.

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