I dont really know what to write about. My life has consisted of working, hanging out with andy, or doing homework/school.

Thursday, I Spent like...3 hrs working on a paper...aurgh. it wasnt hard, jus time consuming. I also got to chill with the beautiful joshuuuuua! Haha...he kills me.

Friday I went to the college fair. It scares the shit out of me...college i mean. Im not sure what I wanna do with my life or anything...I mean, im looking into law but...I dont think that suites me. And...then theres whether or not I wanna stay close or go far away. I mean, I wanna get outta this area but...can I REALlY survive without my parents and stuff? ... Growing up scares the shit out of me.

I realized that from this point out, there will probably never be a point in my life when I dont have a job. Scary...my childhood is pretty much over. time to grow up...it sucked.

I work sooo much next week. aurgh, I want the hrs but...I wanna be able to sleep in on the weekends and stuff! ooh well...all part of life I suppose.

I cant wait to get my own car. I kinda want a truck or suv tho or winter and stuff...something with 4wd. I pry wrote about this already...and if I have, to bad.

This one kid pisses me off. We got what you'd call a history together I guess? Well anyways, we agreed that we'd be friends no matter what...and now this kid is doing everything in there power to not be friends...to not talk, to pretend like what happened between us never happened. friggin bullshit...but, I think its bc this person is trying to jus...let go? i dunno, but I wish they'd grow the hell up and stop being immature. Its not easy...but, it's all part of growing up. Something you've yet to do. haha

whatever though.

Friday i went to Kyms after school, then ben andy and aweb came over and we chilled and got pizza, then went ice skating. Some shit kinda bothered me but I wont even go into that cause its not worth fighting over.

Today I worked 6-2. it wasnt bad actually. i was on line for the first time. That means i made the sandwiches. haha..=) Then I came back to kyms and got a shower and tried to get ahold of Andy. I guess he didnt wanna chill too bad. =p haha ooh well...Im tired anyways.

well, im gonna go.

working 6-2 tomorrow...then i dunno. Maybe chilling with andrew, maybe going home.

Until next time...

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Well...my weeks been busy. I went and hung out with Andy monday after school and then tuesday and wed I had to work. :-x tuesday I got to work with kym and misty and ruth. =) haha...wednesday i went and hung out with andy for a bit before work and then went to work. I got out like...20 friggin minutes late. I was PISSED...and tired. I went home, took a shower, and went to bed. HAHA...

Im in school now. its great.

I got kicked outta mr. schwaders class the other day. omg I thought he was gonna kill me. hahahahah...funny, I'll tell more about that next time I update tho.

plans for the weekend?
tomorrow - school, half day...then ice skating. then I dunno what Im doing afterwards
sat - working 6-1:30 then Idk...
sunday - 6-2.
Plans anyone?

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...yes, that is how I feel right now.

My weekend was pretty good. Fridy nite I worked...then went to andys and then me him and ben went and chilled. Hadda work at like...8 I think...was going to walk to work but then frank and ben picked me up and took me. then i worked with misty and some other cool people. some bitches were being...well bitchy. got a ride back to andys from misty and her madre. I love misty...haha shes great. "smile" :-p friggin retard.

then I chilled at andys with his parents and crystal and waited for andy to get back. crystal and I played some cards...I totally kicked her ass at slap jack...haha...

then andy got home and I got a shower and got around and then went tanning and to bens and then bowling with ben and andy and awebb then to bens and then got pizza then back to andys then to bed. =p

today I woke up at like 8:30 and woke andy up and chilled for a bit then got a shower and went to work.

work fucking sucked so bad. I was in sucha cranky mood and I jus aurgh...I was so annoyed and I started crying and it sucked bad...

but now, I'm going to jus go chill...

working tues and wed and sat and sun...

plans anyone? =)

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sooo...this friggin birth control is kicking my ass. It makes me feel so pukey and hungry and emotional. today, I was talking bout Justin and I was jus saying something dumb he did...lmao, and i jus got all emotional and wanted to cry. Okay, I did cry. Not bc I want him back or whatever...jus cause I miss talking to him and Im super emotional today.

I fell asleep during the tom diez assembely. holy shit, my dad kept me up till like 11:30 bitching at me last nite. fucker. so I was tired as hell

and sara wasnt in school today so I got teh hole bus seat to sleep in! yayyya! =)

after school, I went up to bens and chilled there and did some homework then went tanning and went to andys, then mcdonalds, then back to andys. Hes so great. I love him. =) then i went to kyms and to tops and back to mcdonalds then to pudgies and then took kym home..

I have driving by myself...it sucks. I blast the music tho and jus sing my heart out. That's always nice. My parents are gonna bitch cause theres like 10 extra miles on the car. ooh well...=p

I cant wait to get my own car...woot woot, Im working on it. Its gonna be great.

well, tomorrows picture day so I wanan get some rest...

after school im going tanning and pry to hang out with andy for a little bit...then working till 10. =x

Im going to be wooped. But, Ima go to bed now. Nite everyone.

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hmm..update? I think so.

I guess I'm going to go into some feelings on this entry...maybe. I dunno...

I love having my license. its so friggin awesome. I love love love it. I cant wait to get my own car so I can drive drive drive everywhere. not with friggin gas prices tho. aww well, what can yah do?

School is going okay. I'm kinda not sure if I sitll wanna transfer to southside bc I dunno...I guess I'm comfortable in Troy and I know everyone...but I wanna transfer for so many other reasons. Like...its closer to where i live, and work. Kym goes there. =) my awesome boyfriend goes there. but idk, I guess we'll see? :)

Alg 2 test...I got a 98. Hell-fucking-yes. I was so happy. Seriously...that's awesome cause I thought I was going to fail it.

Factual writing? well, I'm not doin so hott in that class. It kinda bores me. Dont get me wrong, I love Mrs. chimics but...jesus christ that class is boring. I got a c on the first paper for her but shes letting us correct 'em and shit so thats awesome.

American Cultures is...idk how to explain it. Mr. Schrawder spends half the class preaching about passion and the world and everything. I dunno how to explain it. Sometimes, it bores me...sometimes, its fun. My grade? not so hott tho.

Ecology? fucking gay. I hate that class. Ms. Hess makes me laugh with her stupidity sometimes. Haha...man.

Work has been interesting. I worked 6-2 sat and 7-3 sunday.

Friday night, Andy, Kym, Me, Sara, Ben, and A-Web went bowling. It was friggin awesome. Andy is an awesome bowler. I am not. :-p but it was fun. Esp the ride home. ;-) haha jus kidding. but yea, it was fun...except we didnt get home till like 12:30 am...so needless to say, we were friggin tires as hell sat for work.

After work sat, I went to Kyms and chilled for a bit...then headed over to my boo's. he wasnt at his house so Kym was all driving around with her awesome driving ability to take me to bens. shes great. lmao...we jus chilled at bens, then went and played some basketball. then we went back to andys and went to bed at like 9 friggin thirty. Crazy early. It was fun tho. I jus...I love being with him so much. He drives me insane sometimes, but he's so great.

We woke up at lik 5:30 today and then I got up at 6 and got around for work and then called a cab and left. work was fun today. I was soo hyper when I got there. And happy birthday to Marietta. =)

after work I went to kyms, got a shower...then we jus went out. it was fun.

now Im home...

and I miss andyyy...so i'ma pry go try and get ahold of him? idk...

and to anyone that has anything to say about me not getting back with Justin...
Sometimes, I miss Justin. How can anyone expect me NOT to miss him? We were only together like a friggin year and he was pretty much my life. But...things weren't going to work out for us and I think that getting with Andy was the right thing to do. So...don't pretend like you know how i feel about Justin, or about Andy. Know one really knows what's going inside my head or my heart...so jus let me do what I needa do and stop second guessing me and questioning me. this is my life...and I'm going to live it up the way I want to.

Alright...have an awesome day everyone. :-p

ooh btw...

this song reminds me of Justin...

I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated.

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sooo...time for an update? =) Not much to say really. Andy and I got back together last night. who knows about that. He makes me really unsure about things sometime, but I really like him so...=) who knows.

school sucks so bad. I cant wait to transfer schools.

I had an alg II test yesterday. I know I didnt do so hott with that but aww well.

then I had a quiz today in world cultures and I fucked that up. aww well. shit sucks.

yesterday sara and I went to elmira. I drove. =) I ran over a curb...woopsies. :-x

I really don't know what to say. :-p so peace out everybody

ooh wait, I got a drs appt after school today and then Im pry gonna go chill with Andy. Who knows.

but Im out, lata tata

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