why is it the more seirous i am about a guy, the more our relationship sucks when we break up. take a look at me and ryan, or me and jamie for that matter. we never talk, except to talk shit about each other...its dumb. then look at me and jacob or me and tony...we still get along fine bc our relationship was never seirous. seirous relationships suck...

have a good day

Joshy, if you see this before saturday, give me a call or leave me an offline msg bout sunday...<3

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it was okay. Josh has a funeral and family stuff to go to this weekend so i pry wont see him. maybe sunday tho. who cares tho, I should stay away from him.

yea, Derek Rogers pissed me off today. I spazed out on him and we kinda got into a fight. it was great.

SCHUCKER 2007: u kicked derek's ass
ManDzeE LoU 222: lol..whys that so funny?:-P
SCHUCKER 2007: cuz he talks all this shyt that u cant kick his ass and u do:-D
^gotta love that boy. hes my favorite ex...haha, well...our one week relationship...;) haha...

relationships suck.

oooh yes, and fat skanky bitches who are immature enough to write shit about me on the bathroom stalls are jus fucking dumb. lets grow up and if yah got shit to say, lets say it to my face and stop making ourselves out to be assholes..:)



welll yuppers...soo, I'm angry with someone who I used to think the world of. Angry, and disapointed. I guess even the people you trust most don't turn out to be who you'd expect. ::sigh::


yup, jus another push towards my grave...

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wtfs the sense in having relationships as teens? sure it'll prepare you for when you're older and everything, but do you really think that as a teen you need the extra pain, heartbreak, complications, worries, and fears as an adult. sure, we as teens are supposed to be strong enough mentally to handle relationships and all, but i dont think we are. today one of my friends told me when she gets involved with a guy she really really likes, she dumps him for fear of getting hurt? does that sound mature? no. it sounds immature, indecent, and heartbreaking. then, i hear about another friend of mine getting angry with her bf bc of something that happened with him and a past gf. the first thing out of my mouth was 'thats fucking stupid...' bc really, it is. i mean, if you're not mature enough to get over something that happened with your bf in the past, wtf makes you think you're mature enough to have a relationship? im sorry but, we as teens are fucking this world up with our bullshit nonsense. by the time we're old enough to run this world, its going to be falling apart from our lack of self respect, self control, and compassion for others and acceptence for others past...

about half a year ago, i was involved in what was pry the most seirous relationship I'll ever allow myself to be in. My life revolved around that boy and his for the most part revolved around me. then, we broke up. sure theres more to the story then that, but the moral is, i wont ever allow my life to revolve around a guy ever again...because I was more hurt after he broke my heart then i ever wanna be again. maybe avoiding getting involved in anotehr relationship is stupid, but...atleast I know the only people who are going to be breaking my heart is me.

also...WTF is it with these stupid laws. when you're 18, you're automatically old enough to smoke and move out of your house and live on yer own without worrying about yer parents? on yer 18th b-day does your lungs suddenly expand to be able to handle the smoke and you're suddenly mature enough to live on your own? when you're 21, you suddenly are old enough to buy alcohol? how fucked up is this world? idk...i think that i probably wont ever have kids bc, if i did...they'd grow up in a horibble place and thats not something i'd wish upon ne one.

yea, well idk...maybe i didnt make ne sense...idk, jus kinda annoyed adn stuff

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tonite was okay...i went and hugn out with joshy. gotta love him. came home, matt called. we talked...i miss him. haha...well yea, i got homework and stuff...soo yea

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was the fucking shit. soo awesome...dancing, singing, goofing off, and all kindsa good shit. gotta love that girl. :) hehe yea well im tired soo...

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today was a really bad day

idk why, it jus really was. last nite i was arguing with tony soo yea, that put me in a bad mood when i went to bed, i woke up in a bad mood and it's carried with me all day long.

Gavins a dickhead
i wanna stab him
right in his fucking brain
but, i dont think he has one
bc hes so fucking dumb
yea, so fuck off asshole

well, yea...what else pissed me off.
oohyea, all this fucking snow
and people not knowing how to shut the fuck up during american cultures

ooh yea, and people who say shit they dont mean. yea fuck off...dont be reading my nutang anymore either bitch.

and to Ryan, fuck the hell off asshole. i could care less what you do and who you do and who you screw and all that good shit so do me a favor and dont IM me ne more with yer ridiclous [sp] speels bc i dont care. grow up asshole...

yea, you're a bitch

Morgans Parrrtay-3 days! then I get to meet Justin. Wee

yea, i guess thats it, im going to bed

but first...

to all you mother fuckers who have lied to me, betrayed me, stabbed me in the back, or done any wrong to me...-fuck off, i dont want anything to do with you. dont talk to me, dont im me, dont worry about me. you wanna make false statements and promises, i say to hell with you. i got my few real friends and that's all I need..

-as soon as i'm 18- ;) Glad we made up Zack! :p

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