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I finally realized something…that’s only taken me about six months to realize. I like guys, but I don’t want to be in a relationship with any of them. I like to flirt and laugh and hang out with them, but as soon as the topic of commitment comes up, I run away. I really don’t want a boyfriend; I’d rather just have fun with a bunch of guys then have to worry about making one of them happy. Plus, I think I’m scared to death of getting hurt again like I did with Ryan and Matt. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret a second I ever spent with Ryan but, I aint ready for another relationship like that…and I’m especially not ready for the pain that’s going to come right along with it. I am a strong girl and can put up with a lot of shit, but…if that can be avoided, it will be.

ooh, something that's been bothering me. People who are having sex as teens, think about this. Are you prepared to make a decision on whether or not to keep the baby if you get pregnant? bc if you're not prepared to answer that, you shouldn't be having sex. you need to be mature enough to make adult decisions before you do adult things. yea so don't fucking complain to me about being knocked up. how about grow up and dont do things without considering the consequences...

But, on to a better subject…last night Sara and I went skating and left earlier and walked to Charlie’s. tee hee, on the way we stopped at Subways and got subs…and the lady working didn’t even make us pay. Haha…it was pretty funny. Once we got to Charlie’s, we were playing pool and then this guy asked if he could play the winner…and then like 10 others were playing with us. They were all pretty hott…I can’t remember hardly ne of there names…Brandon, Carlos, Freddy, Josh, and a bunch of other guys. Haha…it was fun. Even tho Sara and I beat Josh and he still thinks he won. Haha, s’all good tho.

and an even better subject, i chilled with Joshy today. it was fun...we talked...i really miss tony tho. i wish he'd move back but not until hes 18. sighers...about 6 months left.

wel, fuck it i'm done writing.

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[x] dey call me? Manda
[x] hair color? brown
[x] hair style? straighten it usually and flip it out...or in..whatever it feels liekd oing
[x] eye color? brown
[x] height? 5'3
[x] location? Gillett, PA
[x] birthday? February 24, 1989
[x] birthplace? Elmira
[x]zodiac sign? Pisces
[x] do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? nopers:)
[x] do you have a crush? kinda not really

favorites ..
[x] color? black
[x] food? Chinese
[x] song of the moment? bounce
[x] movie? thirteen
[x] store? rue 21
[x] feeling? bored
[x] shoes? dcs
[x] people? my friends of course
[x] scents ? tommy girl
[x] do you wear makeup? sure do
[x] which is more important, personality or looks? not sure:p
[x] what kind of personality do you like in a guy/girl? gotta have a sense of humor...and hes gotta be trustworthy
[x] do you move fast or slow in a relationship? not exacatly slow...:p i guess it jus depends
[x] what is your idea of the perfect guy/girl? fuck off, no ones perfect
[x] would you ever ask someone out? sure, why not?
[x] do you prefer blondes or brunettes? wtfs it matter, buy 'em a bottle of dye and they can be whatever they wanna be so yea, it dont matter

love, life, and friends . .
[x] what is the first thing you notice about someone? smile
[x] whens the last time you cried? ooooh about yesterday...haha
[x] what do you want to be when you grow up? a lawyer or something fun with lotsa money
[x] do you sleep with stuffed animals? not really, they fall off my bed
[x] do you want children? not really, maybe jus one...
[x] how far have you gotten? too far
[x] do you like someone right now? not really
[x] do they know? no bc i dont really like neone
[x] do you have a best friend? i think

within the last 24 hours have you .
[x] had a serious talk? yessers
[x] hugged someone? yano it
[x] gotten along well with your parents? surprisingly...yes
[x] fought with a friend? well, not within the last 24 hrs

do you like to ………
[x] give hugs? yes
[x] give back rubs? haha sometimes
[x] take walks in the rain? i love the rain..
[x] what is on the walls of your room? junk
[x] when you chew gum, what kind do you chew? the green extra or orbit
[x] do you use chapstick? you knoq it

in the last 2 months have / did you . .
[x] drank? yes
[x] smoked? haha yea
[x] drugs? :p
[x] had sex? fuck off, its none of yer business
[x] made out? i guess so
[x] go on a date? haha with tony...:p
[x] go to the movies? yepp
[x] go to the mall? last weekend
[x] eaten an entire box of oreos? no...?
[x] eaten sushi? no i hate fish
[x] been on stage? nope
[x] watched the smurfs? no..
[x] hiked a mountain? nope
[x] made homemade cookies? yes
[x] been in love? haha...idk ne more

do you . .
[x] have a dream that keeps coming back? kinda...;)
[x] play an instrument? umm...not really
[x] believe there is life on other planets? i dont think about that shit
[x] remember your first love? yess..
[x] still love him/her? you never stop loving someone you truely loved
[x] read the newspaper? yeah
[x] consider love a mistake? no, lifes to short to make mistakes and dwell on lil things
[x] like the taste of alcohol? haha yesss:) most definetely
[x] believe in god? idk ne more
[x] pray? never
[x] go to church? hell no
[x] talk to strangers who instant message you? sumtimes
[x] wear hats? yup
[x] have any piercings? yupp:)
[x] have any tattoos? no but,im working on getting one now
[x] hate yourself? yes
[x] have an obsession? idk
[x] have a secret crush? nope
[x] collect anything? not really
[x] like your handwriting? no
[x] have any bad habits? yess
[x] care about looks? haha yes
[x] boy/girlfriend's looks? yess:-[
[x] friends and other people? yea
[x] believe in witches? no
[x] believe in satan? nope
[x] believe in ghosts? yes, I've seen one

on the opposite sex . .
[x] long or short hair? shaggy sexy hair
[x] dark or light hair? i dig hair...dont matter what color as long as its not gray:-p
[x] tall or short? 5'7 and up :)
[x] dark or light eyes? light
[x] hat or no hat? none...unless its a beanie
[x] pierced or no? pierced;)
[x] stubble or neatly shaved? stubbly
[x] rugged outdoorsy type or sporty type? dont matter

current . .
[x] dress? black tank and red shorts...haha
[x] mood? tired, i just got up a bit ago
[x] taste? morning taste...yuck
[x] hair? down and messy, i need a shower
[x] annoyance? whys my room so cold?
[x] smell? coffee
[x] thought? its to early
[x] book? none
[x] fingernail color? clear
[x] refreshment? none
[x] worry? whats my plans for the day
[x] favorite celebrity? ashton kutcher or ryan phillippe
[x] movie you rented? haha none
[x] movie you bought? again...none
[x] song you listened to? bounce
[x] song that was stuck in your head? bounce
[x] song you've downloaded? this love-maroon 5 [jus for you Jen.:)]
[x] cd you bought? none...haha
[x] cd you listened to? a burned one:p
[x] person you've called? josh pry...
[x] person that's called you? Sara
[x] tv show you've watched? 7th heaven
[x] person you were thinking of? myself:p

last time you . .
[x] had a nightmare? 3 nites ago
[x] said "i love you" and meant it? its been awhile...
[x] had sex? don't worry about it:p
[x] ate at mcdonald's? ummers, last friday with sara
[x] dyed your hair? haha, i've never dyed my hair
[x] brushed your hair? last nite..
[x] washed your hair? yesterday
[x] checked your e-mail? doing that now
[x] called someone? yesterday
[x] smiled? idk
[x] laughed? haha...i laugh all the time so idk
[x] talked to an ex? 2 nites ago

last person .
[x] you talked to? my dad
[x] you instant messaged? Jen
[x] who instant messaged you? jamie
[x] you yelled at? sammers
[x] who broke your heart? idk...:p
[x] kissed? tony...woah, that was awhile ago...haha

Do. .
[x] you wish you could live somewhere else? yessss
[x] you think about suicide? hardly ever...only when things get really bad but...i dont wanna die
[x] you believe in online dating? hell no.
[x] others find you attractive? i guess...idk
[x] you like cleaning? sometimes
[x] you like roller coasters? most definetely
[x] you write in cursive or print? print
[x] you carry a donor card? nooo

for or against . .
[x] long distance relationships? for...
[x] using someone? depends on if its a mutual using or what...haha
[x] suicide? for...:p go kill yerself
[x] killing people? as long as im not the one killing or being killed
[x] teenage smoking? hey, if you wanna die then...okie dokie:p
[x] doing drugs? doesnt matter to me
[x] premarital sex? for...who the fucks wants to get married in this fucked up world we live in? and who wantsa die a virgin
[x] driving drunk? against even tho I've been with drunk drivers...but...i'm stilla gainst it. its fine with me if yah wanna kill yerself but when you put innocent people in harm's way, its wrong
[x] gay/lesbian relationships? doesnt matter to me really
[x] soap operas? nothing but drama

more favorites . .
[x] thing to do? sleep
[x] thing to talk about? lol ne thing really, i like to bitch tho.:)
[x] drinks? water or Orange juice
[x] clothes? jeans and shirts
[x] movies? i like love movies...even tho its a bunch of bullshit drama
[x] band? Linkin park, simple plan, evenasence, dave matthews band
[x] holiday? idk really
[x] cars? i like corvettes:)

what .......
[x] shampoo do you use? pantene or i cant think of the other one
[x] perfume do you use? mostly tommy girl
[x] toothpaste do you used? arm and hammer whitening stuff...
[x] shoes do you wear? etnies, dcs, voilatile, sugar, adidas, lei's, n nike...
[x] are you scared of? rejection, being alone, and losing people who i care about

number of . .
[x] times you have been in love? idk...i think once, maybe twice. only once for certain...
[x] times you had sex? it dont matter ne more..
[x] times you have had your heart broken? alot...which is weird considering the fact that i've onlybeen in love once for certain
[x] boys you have kissed?
[x] girls you have kissed? lol...none in any kinda sexual way
[x] continents you have lived in? uhh one:p
[x] drugs taken illegally? not many..
[x] people you would classify as true friends? bout 3
[x] people you consider your enemies? ne one whose ever fucked me over, lied to me, or hurt people i care about
[x] cd's that you own? lol...idk
[x] scars on your body? ummers, quite a few...
[x] things in your past that you regret? i dont regret ne thing i've ever done except one thing...:(:(

more stuff .
[x] do you have your own computer? yes
[x] do you have your own phone line? nope:(
[x] what are you doing right now? this thing and talking to my one and only Jenny Lou
[x] what song are you listening to? bounce-sarah conner
[x] what are you wearing? weathervane jeans and a red tube top with a black sweater
[x] if you could be anywhere? with someone special
[x] what would you be doing? talking and pouring my heart and sole out
[x] can you do anything freakish with your body? :p

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