Thursday I went to Kym's with her. We chilled around...went to the mall. Took the bus...cause we're cool. Our driver was kinda...:-x SCARY. haha...and then Justin [not...Justin Justin...] and Matt met us up there. It was fun. I got some new clothes and we all jus chilled and played around with Matts totally awesome new camera phone which I want and am going to steal. haha. I was going to have andy come with us but...Andy didn't wanna. Haha...he wasnt thrilled when he found out Matt went tho. thats okay tho...Matts a sweetie but andys MY sweetie.

Friday...? hmm...I think I went to andys and chilled there for a few hrs and then went down to Bens and then we went and got our checks and cashed then. 122 dollars! Yess...haha...too bad its all gone already practically? I dunno how...but yea. then I went to work and that was jus wonderful. I worked...then went back to Kyms and ruth was there. Kym was being bitchy with me cause I chilled with Andy so me and ruth chilled for a little while and talked and stuff and then Kym finally decided she was going to be done being angry. So then ruth calls outta work cause shes so SICK...and so we chill till like 3 am jus talking and stuff.

then I woke her up at about 10...haha and we went to teh store and got some food adn cooked it and then chilled and played sims. then she headed home and I walked to mcdonalds to meet Kym and andyyy was there=) and hes so cute...and then we went back to Kyms and chilled. then her, ruth, and I went to dinner at bernie muries. It was so good. I got prime rib and stuff. uhhh...so good. reminded me of when Justin adn I went out to dinner before prom but its all good.

sat nite I went to andys...adn then to Bens. We chilled at Bens for awhile...lol...very interesting, then went back to andys and went to bed.

sunday...got up at like noon and chilled with andy and his sisters and there friends and ben and then went to work out about 4.

back to Kyms sun nite. chilled with her and talked alot and stuff. started the new harry potter book.

today...got up, showered...chilled around then russ came and talked to Kym and then Russ let me drive his totally standard jeep. OMG I totally suck. I was bucking and shit.

then I went to work and that was work

then andy came to give me a hug before i left...

then I went home

and I am home...

and I am so tired

and Im going to call my wonderful boyfriend...cause hey...Hes awesome.

BTW...I will have new pics scanned soon. =) and guess who called me today? YUPPERS! MATT! Hes outta jail...tha's all I can say on that subject tho. aww hes like..."I dont want a relationship with any girl right now...they're too complicated" ... referring to this girl trying tog et with him[not me] and Im like "not even one with me?:(" and hes like "AWWW dont make me reject you!" It was cute...hopefully we get to chill sometime

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sunday I got called into work by this awesome girl Kymmie who think shes the manager or something. lol, jus picking. so I went to work sunday and worked. almost was late...psh. then Andy came in. =) Yayyyy...was gonna go to the mall, but it closes early sunday so we jus chilled around and then walked to Mcdonalds at nine to...go get my sunglasses...and Andrew happened to be gettin' out then too. ;-) On our way over, these two little niggers and Sam and this fat Ashley girl started talking shit to us. Psh, Sam and Ashley can't take care of there own shit so they get this little black bitch to get in our face. I was like, "Greatttt, another fight with black chicks..." but...I wasn't gonna let them get the best of me this time. but yea, they walked away and then Kym and I called her dad to give him the DL on the nigga bitches. Then we got to McDonalds and got my sunglasses...and my andy. haha and we walked back to Kyms. The little niggas and sam and ashley and shit were all chilling at Sams and started talking shit to us. And then they said something about me and andy and andy asked me about it and I started laughing and they started talking more shit. then andy left and Kym and I were walking in and I was like "fuck you" and the bitch tries to attack us. Oooh man, Frank was out there so quick. He threw the little nigger off the porch and called the po-po. fun fun...lets jus say; I don't think this shits ova. Whatev' tho.

monday...I got up and got around and got ahold of mr. andrew bostwick. went ova to his place and chilled for a few hrs and then Kym and them picked me up when she got out of work and we chilled around until I had to work at 5. Work sucks, what else is new. =)

tuesday...took a shower; got around for andyyy's...then had helen take me over. chilled at andys for a bit; met his daddy. aww, I love his daddy. his name is Dave. :-x but yea...he scared me a little bit with all his tat's and stuff but, hes pretty nice. from andys, we went down to bens and chilled there for a few hrs...watched tv, I was so tiredddd. then we went to the fair...got some food and shit, bought me a new bb ring...and bought our tickets for the demo. Woot...I was sooo into it. So was Andy. When his daddy won, he was all physced. So was his mom and sisters and stuff. It was realllly cute. =) Haha...Ima see if my dad will let me do it next year. Pry not, but I hope so. It seems like ALOT of fun.

after the demo, we went back to andys and chilled and ordered pizza. then ben left, Andyyy asked me out, etc etc. haha...went to bed. slept till like 10...I got up then and let andy sleep till 11. haha then I ate breakfast by myself cause andy "hates when people eat breakfast with him" ... hahaha hes so cute. then we jus chilled around for a bit and then they took me back to Kyms.

I get to Kyms, and am locked out so I go over to the store to buy some choc. milk and Andys there. Crazy, I tell yah what. Haha...then I went to Kyms...chilled for a bit, went to the lib and got some books and went to big lots.

then went back to kyms and I got around for work...went there...was early...texted/talked to Justin, then worked. then hung out with ruth andy and ben till my parentals picked me up.

went to Kyms to get my stuff...picked her ass up, and now Im home

working friday 4-9 and sunday 5-9 so idk

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today ... work 11-4 cause they called me in...
pry chillin with Kym or Andy later
monday ... pry chillin with Kym or andy...work 5-9
tuesday ... fair with Andy pry
wed ... pry chillin with Kym/Andy ... work 5-9
be home after that...pry with Kym cause shes not working thursday =)

call/text the cell if yah need me. =)

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today was pretty boring; mostly chilled around at home and jus...read and jus...enjoyed being home. =)

then Kym and Andy came up about 5 and we chilled while i put sims on her computer. Yayy, shes getting the internet soo, that's cool. I was so happy to see Andy. I can't explain my feelings for him. He jus...makes me estatic. Something, I haven't felt in a long time. I dunno, it's good tho.

Justin is angry at me. I can understand him point, I really can. But, he won't look at things from my point of view. If you show no interest in someone, they're going to move on. No one wants to feel like they're not important...and that's how he made me feel. And it hurt, especially when he was the reason I breathed and my everything. And I guess I can't control how I feel about Andy; he doesn't understand that my feelings for Andy never showed up till after we were broken up and he started coming around more.

I guess I don't need to explain myself to anyone anymore. I jus, I want to be his friend. I don't want a relationship to end like mine and Ryans where we hate each other and don't talk. Cause, man, I care about him so much and I don't want him out of my life. I jus, don't want to be his girl friend. I think that was maybe our problem in our relationship. We were too busy being gf/bf to bother being friends and asking questions. That's what I like about Andy. Hes so curious about everything about me...always wanting to know things. Always asking how I'm feeling and knowing what's wrong.

I talked to Joshy tonite. I miss him; I wish he'd come home.

Life goes on though.

and that's about all I've figured out about life...

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For starters, I'm no longer hooked on Justin. I still love him, no doubt...but, I realized I'll be okay without him and that theres nothing left to hold onto.

Also, I've been chillin with Andy alot. And I really like him, and the best part is, he likes me too. We'll pry end up hookin' up...whenever he gets around to asking me out. Haha, jus kidding but yea, we pry will. Kym and I went to his house the other day and met his mother and two of his sisters...and OMG, I felt sooo uncomfortable cause his sisters are so...very blunt and honest. Well, Amy is. Andy comes over to Kyms all the time and we stay up till like...2 in the morning jus chillin on the porch talking. I've gotten to know him so well. I mean, really well. And we communicate really well. If somethings bothering one of us, we jus say it instead of holdin' back. Andy has summer school every morning at like 7 or something, but he chills with me till crazy hours of the night. It makes me feel special...and I am special. Haha...jus kidding.

Work has been decent. Tonight sucked ass. The computers kept freezing up and shit and people were getting rude and stuff. Then the shake machine didnt work and we didnt have any pies down. I also had to do back cash the last two hrs whiched sucked ass. Its so boring back there. I jus wanna scream and talk to myself. I usually do actually. But, Andy and I worked together today. I don't always like working with him, but he makes me smile alot. I mean, alot. I can't even explain him...

Ahh...so perfect.

I miss him...Andrew Bostwick. Aww, what a cute name. =)

Some stupid bitches started shit with my girlie yesterday. Uh huh, you fat ass bitch...you are a whore...and I aint scared of fighting you two fucking ugly bitches, and neither is Kym so...yea, fuck you. =)

so, I have alot on my mind right now. I am currently in the process on adding more pics to my webshots...so check them out. Theres lots of Andy for you curious people...=)

Tonight, my daddy-o picked me up from work. My dad met Andy and Ben. Ahh...haha :-x. Yess, it was interesting. Bens so retarded; sucha cutie, but so retarded.

OMG, that reminds me...I kissed Neeco...aka, Neemo, like 100 times today. hes so damn cute. When he gets older, hes going to have lotsa girlfriends. He kept climbing up the tree next to Kyms bedroom window and peeking in at us. haha...aww...he wants me. jus kidding...

I work Mon 5-9 and then Tuesday I might be going to the fair with Andy or something. Wed im working 5-9 again and then Im done for the week. Shitty hrs this week but whatev'.

well, I gotta go unpack my shit and throw some clothes in the washer...more when I have more on my mind.

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