...no matter what I do anymore, I got someone trying to fuck me over or hurt me or make me jealous or just...idk, push me away?

It seems that EVERYTHING I do is wrong anymore and I'm so sick of it.

hmm...i jus give up. I guess if anyone wants anything to do with me, they gotta start making an effort cause im sick of it.

anyways...an update

thursday nite sara and I headed to elmira to go chill with ben and andy. I DROVE all by myself...well with sara. it was great. FIRST we went to subway and then to kyms where i lost the keys and spent a good 20 mins lookin for em. then we went to bens and chilled there and then went to andys. they wouldnt ride with me! fuckers. ooh well, then I gave amys friend a ride home and amy kept telling me how to drive. I was like...uhh i got my license hunnie, I think I can handle this. then sara and I went to tops adn then to hollywood video. mm...the blummer;-) hahaha...

friday, I worked 5-10 and then melissa took me to bens and i stayed the nite thur with andy ben and sara. it was fun but i was tired...

i slept really...sketchy. it sucked. I kept getting woken up and stuff. aurgh...then we got up about 9 and went to andys and then to tops and then back to bens then to andys. then andy left...don't even get me started on that. then i chilled with ben and sara till we came back to kyms...

then we jus chilled and got bitched at. >:O im so sick of bitching

sara left...kym and i went to chill with bryan and dan...

came home

chilled

going to bed now

working 6-2:-x

I fucking hate life so much...esp troy. im so sick of the unecassairy drama and retarded people...aurgh, but anyways. peace

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Yesss…I went for my license today...and GOT it. Woot...first time; bitches. so congrats to myself...I fucking rock! Now, I jus need to get a vehicle so I can get the fuck outta this place! WOOT WOOT! =) I hate troy so much. =)

but Im going to go work on my paper

BTW, I love my ikka boo boo. =)

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well not really but I hate school so much.

Going back to Troy wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I might finish the semester out...I dunno. Maybe jus the quater? We'll see I suppose. I love some of the people I got classes with. Mainly my Ikka babyyy. We're so crazy together. It's great.

I'm going for my license thursday I think. My parallel practice could use some work but my parents are really pressuing me to get it so they dont gotta drive me to and from work so...Ima try my hardest.

Things with the boys? Well...I dunno. Lets jus say, I don't want a relationship right now. Correction...I don't have the time for a relationship right now between working, school, homework, and sleep. Its jus...too much shit going on.

Andy thankfully is really good about shit. I give him mad props for being down for me thru all this shit...

Justin on the other hand, wants to kill me. lol...

who the hell knows right now...

weekend?

friday worked 5-10..then back to kyms
saturday...worked 6-2..back to kyms for a few hrs...then to andys and bens with sara.
stayed the nite there...
today? ... jus chilled with ben andy and sara. it was interesting.

this weeks work schedule:
Monday - 5-9
Wed - 5-9
Friday 5-10
Sunday 6-2
Anyone wanna give me there saturday hrs? =) :-p

time for bed...and maybe some algebra II homework. :-x

yano what pisses me off though...
...people who sterotype and judge everyone. I hate it so much. Aurgh, I could bitch for hrs about it...but I wont cause the person who does it hears it enough. hahaha...jus picking boo. =)

have a nice week everyone...I'll update again sometime this week maybe

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so right now is the first time in awhile I have had like...FREE time to actually write about stuff in here. so here goes...

last weekend was so awesome...it was jus really good. =) except andy and I kinda got into a little spat but whatever. Hes not my bf so I guess its not my place to really...care? but I still do.

sara kym ben andy me and donnie all chilled sat nite. It was verrry interesting. lmao...

school is pretty shitty. I have been getting alot of homework and I jus...dont feel like working much I guess? I know my report card is going to be really bad but I dont care? I jus...don't care about much except having fun.

My tan is coming along very nicely. I think Ima take a week off from tanning and give my skin some time to calm down...and save me some money. Im becoming such a tight-wad. aww well tho...

I can go for my license at anytime now. I jus need to learn to parallel park! It sucks cause I tried the other day and Im not doing TOO bad but...not great either. So maybe next week.

I am also saving up to buy a truck. Anyone know/have a truck for sale? I want one...not a shitty one, but not an expensive one cause...hey, I plan on paying for this bitch myself.=)

I havent been getting much sleep. I go to bed at like 11:30. Its horibble.

Aurgh...I cleaned my room today, did some homework, and went to elmira with sara and stopped and saw ben and andy and went tanning.

Im working tomororw 5-9
Friday 5-10
...Kyms for the nite?
sat 6-2
...chillin with Andy?
sunday...I dunno yet.

Im so tired of school...

I jus want christmas vacation or something.

bye everyone

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haha so lets jus say that...I had a very interesting weekend.

it went from working, to andys, to working, to kyms, to chillin with Justin, to chilling with Kym and sara and Justin, to chilling with andy ben donnie kym me and sara...to feeling really...hahaha

More details later...

school in the am

maybe chillin with ben sara and andy afta school? cell it

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people piss me off and hurt me it seems. so i give up. I FUCKIN give up on him...maybe I made a mistake. I dunno.

Life is so gay

LOVE is gay

Troy is gay

I got a good paycheck this week...Im saving it tho...every penny so I can get my ass outta troy. i hate troy.

and Im really sick, it hurts to swallow and my throat is so swollen. Aurgh

what else could possibly go wrong

oooh I know, I could get KNOCKED up.

haha not happening.

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