Saturday. 7.14.12 2:35 pm
I wish I could make it concise. I feel like there's just SO much going on right now, both inside and out, and I can't even really talk about it anymore. I hang out with people from church, a lot, and everyone wants to know how everyone else is doing. Which is fine! I like to ask people what's going on, and I like to be asked, usually.
But sometimes, I feel like it's just not an applicable question.
I went to a rather large conference in San Antonio last week, and leading up to it, everyone was getting really fired up and super excited about what was to come. People kept wanting to know how I was feeling, being a pretty new Christian and never having gone to such a large gathering before. I wasn't as energetic as others. I didn't really have any expectations. People ask, "how do you feel?" and I have to say, "I don't."
It's not that I wasn't happy to be going or anything like that. It's just that I tend to close off when the ambient excitement exceeds my own. And, while I CAN be very energetic and even hyper-active, it's not a state of being that I can hop into at will. When I feel like being quiet, I can't continue to be loud. It takes too much emotional stamina. At times like those, I prefer to watch more than to participate. I don't set expectations if I've got nothing to set them by. It makes no sense to me.
On a related note, the conference was a total blast. I met a few people, had a lot of fun, and generally just learned a lot. It's definitely a good thing that I decided to go (mostly at the urging of my fellow disciples, haha).
I feel sort of bad that I don't post here as much as I used to. I feel like this community is stagnating a bit, and I'm not helping by being absent. At the same time...I dunno, I guess my urge to blog has severely decreased in the past few months. I talk about my life with friends a lot more than I used to, so maybe the need for me to write things down and work them out has diminished.
I do miss my old friends, though. Everyone seems so busy and far away, though I guess the same is true of me. It's possible my naivete about the bonds of highschool friendship is wearing off. Maybe that's a good thing? Still sad, but it is what it is. I feel like the people I used to be close to just aren't the same anymore. Certainly, I'm not. (And here, I thought I would always be the same.) Our interests and values don't meet up anymore. The only thing holding us together is a commitment and nostalgia.
Hey you guys!
Wednesday. 6.6.12 12:17 pm
I'm in school for the summer.
I'm living in a three-man apartment with five other dudes.
God is great, God is good, I need to thank him for my food. -.-
No internet unless I'm on campus, or buy something from the nearby coffee shop.
I'm going on an IKEA date on Sunday.
Unrelated: I'm in a weird spot with a girl. It was only a matter of time, I suppose.
History test coming up in the day.
I've changed a lot in very few months. But in some ways, I am unchanged.
So be it.
Monday. 5.7.12 12:31 am
(I haven't checked those references, I dunno if they're valid or relevant. It's awesome if they are!)
I love this band. They do it right, and they're not a one-trick pony when it comes to style. Aww yeah!
Just really excited about God right now. Yo yo yo. Isn't it weird that two of the main themes espoused in the Bible are love and truth? Love isn't that surprising actually, but I've always been fascinated with how often truth is mentioned and reinforced as being super powerful. Why truth? Is it just an artifact of the culture?
But when you think about it, love and truth are two things that the world sorely lacks. Love is arguable, depending on your usage of the word (that may be part of the problem) but I think that most people can agree that real truth is something that's very hard to come by these days. Just look at all the conspiracies. All the confusion! Statistics can only show a part of the truth, governments can't afford to tell the truth, people wonder about the truth of what they're told by people they care about. It's nuts! And it's all in the Bible; Satan being referred to as the father of lies (why not disobedience?), Jesus calling himself "the Way, the Truth, and the Life," (Way and Life make sense in the context, but how can a person be Truth?), etc.
This is all very amateur and abstract, but I thought it was interesting. It may very well mean nothing, though. I still have a long way to go, after all.
Anyway! The school year is over. I'm home for a week but I'm going back to school for summer session. It'll be...grand. I got an A in one class and a 69 in another (without the curve). I don't know anything about the other two classes I took. huzzah?
NIGHT LADIES AND FELLAS
Monday. 4.23.12 12:27 am
That last post had to do with procrastination. And even though I don't feel as depressed as I did when I wrote that, I somehow managed to get myself into a hole AGAIN heehee.
Bleach is really addictive, by the way. Phew.
I had a very busy weekend. We initiated our first group of pledges! We got our Charter! WE GOT IT REALLY FAST GUYS.
Like, fastest in the history of our fraternity. Yup.
Anyway, I'm super sleepy and I have two quizzes to do in the morning. Enjoy the tune.
OH PS it's unicornasaurus 's birthday. Go mess with her.
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