yes, that would be me!

I'm just playing around with it at the mo', but I got it for the film and video stuff on it. I'm psyched.



Less than two weeks of school left. I can't believe it. So happy.







About that, anyway. Other stuff is upsetting me, like the fact that the forbidden fruit calls my name and kisses me and gets my number and doesn't text.

But it's okay, it's okay. I can just look at his (married) brother like I've been doing for the last 9 months, and imagine dating one of them. Which will never happen. Oh well.

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<sup>I want to evaporate
I want to melt away, I want to fall through the floor of failure
I want to evaporate
I want to disappear, I want to get away from the world I live in
And the way I live in it

Alice is in Wonderland
The Pensieves get Narnia
Wendy goes to Neverland
Harry has Hogwarts
So where do I fit in?
I'm stuck stationary, living in Lubbock and lacking in Love
I'm stuck stationary, living in Lubbock and missing in Magic
I'm stuck stationary, repeating the same mistakes day after day
Never learning my lesson from the Not So Real World.

Because what Wonderland takes that girl in?
What Narnia hosts that girl?
Neverland will never let that girl in on the adventure
And Hogwarts isn't home to muggles like me</sup>



I don't think it's finished, and I don't like typing poems, but I can't find my poetry book or the right kind of pen to write in my journal.






I wish I could write what I'm thinking but I can't even think what I'm thinking right now. I wish I had a time turner, I wish I wasn't so confused. I need to make a list in my journal, because that's how I figure things out, but I can't find my pen. FML.




FML is the theme of this past week.

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Eco killed me today. good thing I'm done.


this kid keeps calling me. every night. like right now. that's why I'm lazy. with my capitalization. and such.


he has a gee eff.


I'll write more later.

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(no particular order)

1. V for Vendetta
2. Troy
3. The Princess Bride
4. The Graduate






Nothing 'tang worthy ever happens to me. -sigh-

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Pretty sure my dad's crazy again. It's sad, because I can tell he is because he's getting so into this eating well thing. Because he thinks it will take away his mental illness. But he's so obviously manic.


Gov't AP tomorrow, I'll be failing for sure.

Oh, the SAT got cancelled yesterday morning. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning, drove to Silverton (an hour and a half away) and sat in front of the school for half an hour, before learning that, due to the Swine Flu, it had been called off. 'Dub-teff.

I want the new Decemberists album so so hard. Blah.



I was just talking to Daniel about bands we want to see live, and we decided that one day we'll get married and for our honey moon, we'll go on a quest to see every band live that we've ever wanted to see. Then we'll move to Europe.

I've been thinking about him a lot lately. He's someone I really like. I like him as a person, as well as a boy, you know? And I'd like to have a legitement relationship with him, whether that be a friendship or more than that. I really respect this guy, you know?


It's been a long time since I've felt like that for anyone.

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This is great. Tops off a fabulous 7 day week.

Last Friday I got sick.
Saturday was Prom and it sucked.
Sunday I was upset all day about Prom sucking.
Monday I had the first day of TAKS testing, had to sit in the car shop for like an hour, then had a good time, but AJ stopped texting me out of nowhere.

Tuesday got to sleep in, but then was in a shitty mood all afternoon. Due to Aj not talking to me again.

Wednesday sucked. TAKS, then Gov't, which was alright, but then Chemistry. The Cwowel is such a bitch. And Aj was still not talking.

Yesterday was TAKS, but then I got home and was ready for a grand afternoon. Hung out with Amy and Kat and they said it would be a good idea to text Aj and see wtf was going on w/him. I said "so are we still dating, or should I focus my energies elsewhere?" but figured he wouldn't text back for a while, since he was probably at work. I was right, he never texted back. But I was wrong, he wasn't at work. Amy and I pulled into a parking spot at Sb's and looked over to the next space, which was occupied by, you guessed it, Aj! I just ran to the swings and waited for her to join me. I didn't realize I was so upset about it, but oh well.

Today was going pretty grand, but then Nathan told me Aj definitely didn't want to be with me anymore, and now I'm dissapointed. I mean, I'd like a little closure, please. Then I fell into a lake...

Fin.

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