and my anthem at the mo' is 'summer skin' by deathcab.








went to a party last night. had a lot of fun for a lot of reasons, not least of which is the constant compliments on my hair and makeup and dress. wendy wore the clip i gave her for christmas, and that made me smile. i miss her a lot. i met her boyfriend. hes really nice it seems.


havent talked to boone in a long time, but talked to ryan last night. it was fun. i miss him.


ummmm.


this blog is very lackluster. i apologize.






my dad told me he knew why i was stubborn. apparently its cuz im a scorpio. gotta love those star signs. but im not stubborn about everything. if he tells me i cant do something then usually ill be like 'okay thats fine' but if he tells me i HAVE to do something i dont usually want to. yep.



anyway.


i take the accuplacer for duel credit tomorrow. yayyy duel credit! thats like 3 less hours ill have to take in college!



i think ill take IB junior year. it can save 24 hours and it seems really interesting and its insenitive for me to get my own laptop so i can go down to sugarbrowns like every day and do my hwk. idk. but im so bad at commiting to things like that.



but w/e. im going to anyway. ive made my decision! errrrrrrrrr.

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which is the last sign i need to know that school is going to start. whether i want it to or not, its going to start.


and therefore i must start getting up earlier. today i woke up at 6 and got up at 640. i will be getting up at 640 the next week. and of course, the next nine months.



someone shoot me.


i do not want to go back to school. granted, my schedule is wonderful this year. i have the party algebra two class [almost all of my band guy friends, ronnie, yashvi, bayless, clarissa, wendy, and possibly caitlin], the only french 3 class, so its with all my french friends [except for eric, who quit french so that he could have opens], the english class that EVERYONE has [though im sure it will soon be broken up, since probably like seven eighths of the people ive asked have it] and the world history class that EVERYONE has [again, it will probably be broken up]. im also in golf, with the only other people who are in golf, because theres only one golf class. i hope to god i dont suck at it like i did at tennis. and then theres computer animations, and no one else i know has that class, but im not worried. itll be fine. its the photoshop class. then theres biology with i have with stephen and thats all i know of. but i love stephen. so im good.

it sounds like this years gonna be good when i put it like that.

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and my computer is fixed, which means im backkkkk.



anyhow, my schedule. it really throws into perspective that schools going to be starting in just a little over two weeks. i will be a sophomore.


its weird. i dont feel like i should be a sophomore. i feel like i should be a freshman or a junior. but not a sophomore. sophomore feels like its going to be a very awkward year.





i got this journal from urban outfitters when i went to austin. ive been writing in it alot lately. like, everything. i wrote the most amazing poem, but its all about the way its shaped, so its not really good for putting on nutang. but i love it. anyhow...




i really need to get on with my day.

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-sigh-


i dont want to go back. but i really want to get my schedule already. and if i get my schedule im pretty sure ill get pumped for school to start.


actually... i am kind of pumped for school start...


i dont wanna go back... but i want it to start? wtf?



lots of my friends are trying to transfer over. only they arent taking transfers anymore. but i think theyre trying to at second semester. john might come back!


only if jordan comes though.



because hes not my best friend anymore. hes her best friend.








lots of things have been going on lately. um. my boyfriend or w/e he is and i are still together or w/e we are. i mean. like.

i dont know. were 'together'. i guess. but were apart. so very very very apart. i hate it.

and im a very physical person. i like holding hands and cuddling and making out. and i cant make out with my phone.


and theres so many BOYS in lubbock. i used to think that all the guys in lubbock sucked. i was wrong. so very very very wrong.

like. kris. he likes me again. its like. wtf. how do you like me now that i have a symblance of a relationship? how come you couldnt have liked me the two years that i was madly 'in love' with you?

and then this guy kelby. he was in my small group at camp. he knows more about me than alot of people do. just because i told everyone in my small group all about... everything... i mean, he knows more about me than my best friends do. which idk.

i think it would be so easy to fall in love with kelby. i know that sounds stupid and dramatic and idealistic but i could just let myself fall in love with him.


if i didnt have boone.



hg;lka.

i want boone to hookup with someone first, so that its not my fault our relationship isnt as close anymore.

but really. im tired of being with him but not being with him.


funny. usually i break up w/guys because im tired of them. not because i cant be with them. weird. idk. weird.


i want kelby. end of story. i cant get him out of my head.

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well, my mom and i, but i did alot of it. we made indian food. it was delicious. i ate wayyyyy too much though. and didnt even have any desert.


im getting my haircut today. theres a possibility of pictures, if i feel up to using my parents camera.


yeppppp.

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ONE. we go to andy's show.
TWO. we decide that caitlin and i will stay the night at amy's house.
THREE. we get home at about twelve and see some boys walking on the opposite side of the street.
FOUR. we decide to take a walk.
FIVE. we get really hyper.
SIX. we take lots of really crazy pictures.
SEVEN. my camera breaks.
EIGHT. we sit and talk and eat for an hour or so.
NINE. we pop eachothers backs and act stupid for about fourty five minutes.
TEN. we talk for a few more hours.
ELLEVEN. we remember a home video the three of us made in eighth grade.
TWELVE. we search for the home video, in the process finding jr. high school plays that they were in.
THIRTEEN. we finally find the video.
FOURTEEN. we laugh.
FIFTEEN. hard.
SIXTEEN. we make a new home video.
SEVENTEEN. we start to watch it.
EIGHTEEN. we realize its light outside.
NINETEEN. we decide to walk two blocks to the coffee shop.
TWENTY. the coffee shop is closed sundays.
TWENTY-ONE. were still hyper, so we walk 16 more blocks to the grocery store.
TWENTY-TWO. we crash.
TWENTY-THREE. we buy breakfast and eat it.
TWENTY-FOUR. amy calls her mom, who picks us up.
TWENTY-FIVE. and makes us go to sleep.



i slept from nine until three. it was awesome.

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