my father creates a music monopoly in my home.


he takes my CDs and puts them on repeat until i want to shoot someone.





i can't think of much else.





i'm having some boy drama, but when am i not?
how lame is that?
all that's ever really going on with me is guy stuff.


and i've been interested in boys since pre-k, and have yet to have had a substanstial relationship.
and my cousin's a freshman who's been interested in guys for about a year, and she's in a relationship i would kill to be in.

how does that work?!

it's because i'm just a boy crazy girl.
like, seriously, it's all i talk about.
boys and sex.

and the future. college and careers and stuff.
and other people.


a few weeks ago we had a paint war.
it was amazing. we each got four bottles of tempra paint, amy got five cause it was her birthday, and we just went at each other. it was like 6 of us. i haven't had that much innocent, care-free fun, in as long as i can remember.

we went back to amy's house afterward, and started talking about random things, like why we don't laugh until we can't breathe anymore.

why is that?
do we find things less funny as we get older, or are we just not funny anymore?



i remember me and wendy used to talk on the phone about the most random things, just adding on to nonsensical situations until we couldn't talk for laughter.
things like that just aren't funny to us anymore.



i hate that part of growing up.

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i should probably stop doing these. since they're more of an addiction than bulletins. but w/e.


Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't list names):
1. I wish we could act like we were in highschool, instead of the sixth grade.
2. I wish you would act like you weren't going to marry this guy or something.
3. I'm sorry for not making out with you.
4. I can't wait to see you.
5. I wish we were best friends still.
6. I'm sorry I focus all of my anger on you.
7. I know you are annoyed at me, don't try to lie.
8. If your mom wasn't my Algebra teacher it would be easier to stop thinking about you.
9. I'm glad we agree on some things, at least. Especially the memories.
10. Fatty.

Nine things about yourself:
1. I'm addicted to surveys.
2. I have a "holier-than-thou" attitude when it comes to English.
3. I make judgements concerning your skill in English.
4. I am attracted to knowledgeable boys.
5. I am more of a loner than you would imagine.
6. I get my right and left confused rather often.
7. I never clean my room or do my homework.
8. I'll probably fail at life when I move out.
9. I am being cynical today.

Eight ways to win your heart:
1. Be knowledgeable.
2. Read.
3. Hold my hand.
4. Tell someone that you want to take it slow with me.
5. Laugh with me.
6. Be a pacifist.
7. And you might as well be Jewish, too,
8. since I'm describing Aaron already.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1. Plans.
2. Words.
3. Memories.
4. Books.
5. Songs.
6. Pessimism.
7. People.

Six things you wish you never did:
1. little
2. things
3. that
4. I
5. don't
6. remember.

Five turn offs in a guy/girl:
1. Over-complimenty.
2. Over-sexual.
3. Narrow minded.
4. Unnatractive.
5. Indecisive.

Four turn ons in a guy/girl:
1. Arms.
2. Height.
3. Smile.
4. Voice.

Three careers you would consider:
1. English Professor.
2. Psychologist.
3. Editor.

Two things you want before you die:
1. Life my
2. life.

One confession:
1. Some things are not important.

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-sighhhhhhhhhhhh-


i guess i'll finish my story.


so we hung out, it was fun, etc. he said he would text me about a party on the weekend.


basically, we went to this really small get-together, all people that went to our jr high, only five of us in fact.


and all he did was hold my hand.


and that made me really happy. like. a lot of people don't understand why that would be such a big deal.


then he took me and yashvi home, and dropped me off first. i gave him a hug when i got out of the car, and here's what yashvi said he said:

"i think she wanted me to kiss her, but i gave her a hug instead. i really want to try to take this slow."
"awh. do you like her?"
"a little."






didn't see him yesterday.



proceeds to NOT TALK TO ME AT ALL today. even though he's walking right behind me twice.



jfkdl;ajfkld;ajfdkl;akfljhgkld;ajkf;da.




the end.




ps: i planned on telling it with all the details, but i just got that kind of drained out of me...

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later, probably.


i'll start now, but i'm leaving for school soon. ha.



on v-day i didn't have ANY caffeine, but i was off the wall like i had.

so yash and i went to sb's and decided that since we were valentineless, we would call boys.





best. move. ever.


:]

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ahahahahahha.


oh my gooooodness.

i'm so giddy.

i can't even hit the shift key.






BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

































very super lame update, i apologize.

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3-day passes, babyy.
:D
Like, seriously, I'm too freaking excited.




My fingers are swolen. I need to drink more water. And they're dry, so I should put on lotion.








My parents are annoyinggggg. They don't plan things. It makes me anxious and upset.

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